Friday, December 31, 2004

3 more hours!

so fast, it's going to be 2005 already. of course, with the tsunami that claimed so many lives, the start to a new year is not so smooth. i can imagine as we gather with our friends and families tonite to welcome the new year, there are people who are pining for their loved ones who have yet to be accounted for.

surprisingly, quite contented to stay at home tonite to receive the new year. outside, too crowded, too expensive also. better stay at home and have a few rounds of alcohol, also don't need to worry about spot checks.

now watching the channel u, their memories for the past 4 years. so sad, it was and still is, in my heart, a channel which provides quality programmes. i will miss it.

wow, M&M really spent a lot of money, juz now at compass point to buy some of their stuff for school. one bag (mabel has already got one), colour pencils, school shoes, socks, underwear, $163!!!
can someone help to hold on to the hands of the clock and let this forever be dec 31?


can't sleep

dec 31, finally (or unfortunately) 2004 is ending soon in 11 hr and 40 mins.

i've written about my achievement for 2004 in one of my blog, (dunno when)

as for resolution... dunno, never believe in making resolution, can never make it. maybe not resolution, juz three quotes to bring forward to 2005.

1. life is worth the living, if we make the choice

2. life is fragile, so live one day at a time

3. work is never ending.



Thursday, December 30, 2004

i finally shed some tears

today as i was reading the newspaper, i finally shed some tears regarding the tsunami tragedy. now, people may have to grasp with the fact that the bodies may not be found at all! this is the ultimate pain in losing your love ones, no body for burial. 200 plus Singaporeans... missing... if i have love ones or friends who are among this 200 plus people, i could feel the pain. although you are prepared for the worst, but to be labelled as 'missing' instead of 'dead', that's terrible.


Tuesday, December 28, 2004

gastric juices

feeling some gastric juices today. bad feeling, dun feel good.

also expecting the big P to come, sh**, two days overdue already, feel so bloated.

feeling very sleepy now, die, when school re open, how to wake up at 6 or 5 plus?

next week this day will the 2nd day of school already, sianzzzzzzzz

Monday, December 27, 2004

wish i was there

wish i could hop on a plane and go to phuket to assess the damage and to help out in anyway i can. but i'm tied down, this is so frustrating.

i used to like the beach, that's why i choose the beach as my blogskin. it should be calming to listen to the waves and watch the waves beat against the shore. i could stand there for hours to watch this.

but to be in this kind of tidal waves is no joke. no joke at all... i'm not so sure of my love for sea now. It is fearsome, it frightens me.

juz like christine in the phantom of the opera. fearful of phantom, yet mesmerised by his voice. it's a nice show, if u like musicals.
this world is so fragile

it's funny, all over the world, they geared themselves up against terrorism, but they forgot the fury of nature. they could not defend themselves against nature's fury.

omg, it's 9.0 on Richter Scale. that's very powerful! the most powerful recorded was like 8.2, and it wiped out the entire town of Tangchen, a town in China.

the reports said that the sea vanished before the tidal waves came (pulling of the current) fishes were jumping out of the sea. it must have been a sight. within a minute, the tidal waves came. it must be horrendous to die this way.

that time on turi beach, batam, we could see and feel the strong waves, so afraid to let the children play on the beach, afraid they would be pulled away by the waves. husband went down to the beach during high tide, he already could feel the strong pull of the current and his legs suffered abrasions when they were involuntarily hit against some rocks. i could imagine this one is 100x or even 1000x more than this.

i'm overwhelmed becos we are really so fragile. remember what we learn in geography about environment? we have been using earth's resources, changing the landscape to suit our needs. looks like human is suffering retribution from Mother Nature. Her one quake destroyed what we took years to build. the effects were in tens of thousands of casualties, billions of dollars of damage.

earth is so fragile... life is so fragile...

Sunday, December 26, 2004

Xmas came and went

it juz came and went like that. so did everyone got the presents they wish for? so is everyone really happy? i almost forgot the real meaning of christmas... ever wonder what will the scene be like when Christ comes the 2nd time? as a teenager, when i went to church, i used to imagine, He will come in this bright light, lighting up the whole earth, and all humans will have to fall on their knees in awe. that's why i particularly like that carol, (can't remember the name) where the chorus has 'fall on your knees'.

sorry, i'm having some post christmas blues.... cos next week, i have meeting, workshops. almost whole week burnt... sh*t.

Saturday, December 25, 2004

Merry Christmas!


as compared to previous years, i juz felt that this year's xmas is a quieter. when i was younger and with no children, xmas eve is a must for parties, be it fren's house or clubbing. same as new year's eve.
but as you grow older, u learn to hate the crowds, learn that the simpler the better. this year's xmas... well, even for presents i was also like shopping last minute. but one thing i'm proud to say, i decide on the presents very fast. there are juz too many things to choose from, so with a budget in mind, i'll juz go shopping, and within an hour, i'm out of the shopping centre. hmmm, champion. even when i went to buy a pendant for my mum, think the salesman must kiss and hug me, within 5 mins of his talking, i decide on a pendant and within 10 mins, i'm out of the shop.
it's the gift wrapping that is very sian... wrap until my fingers got blisters.
xmas eve, nothing much, in the evening, suppose to have the church carolling at my mother in law's place, but she was hospitalised in the afternoon (nothing serious, juz could not stop vomitting) so in the end the carolling was cancelled. but we have already ordered the food, so after visiting her in the hosp, we went back to her place and have dinner. then at abt 10, the children opened their presents and they were so happy to receive presents.
as for marcus and mabel, we bought for them thomas the train station and a kitchenette respectively. marcus was so happy that he kept on 'wow-ing'. mabel was so protective over her kichenette. marcus slept with his train station beside him last nite. i think he played until 3 plus am then he went to sleep. this morning, due to his coughing, he woke up early like 8 plus (thanks to him, i'm up early as well) then when he saw the train station, he was like so awake and started playing with it. i guess this is the ultimate moment in parenthood. to see your children appreciate the things u buy for them.
slept early last nite, 12 plus. guess all these previous late nites really got to me, juz completely knocked out.
ok, promised marcus i'll play xbox game, spongebob with him. tonite, another family gathering, this time my mother's side family. think i better prepare a pick up to bring back m&m's presents tonite.

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

how do u know when u fall in love?

when the person never return your sms or email and u start having wild thoughts, u r sure u r in love

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

bangkok trip
back from bkk

Tiger Airways
it's not as bad as i thought. the taking off and landing is quite smooth. the only thing is the frea seating. i admit i can't fight with the kiasu people, so i usually don't get to choose the seats i like. anyway, at least i get to sit together and not separated. oh yah, and some people are so damn stubborn, ask them to swich off the hp, they never switch it off, the pilot has to make a 2nd announcement for them to switch off the hp.

places of interest/shopping
well, basically shopping. the weekend market was as messy as usual and crowded, plus the lanes between the stalls are very narrow. if one stop to view something, u may be stucked. didn't buy much, worthy buy is a huge haversack.

MBK - best, it's really a one stop thing and the things are cheaper. can bargain somemore. except for those which the whole shop is 199 baht one. the rest of the shops, if u buy more, can bargain. spent from 10am -5pm shopping, bought a lot of things from there. this is the best. next year, if i come back to bkk, i'll spend two days shopping at MBK and maybe PatPong and no where else. you can really and literally get everything from MBK. the rest of the places are really waste of time

Suan Lum Night Bazaar - the food and beer is fine. the shopping, well, unless if you are into souvenirs or scented things, u may like this night bazaar. didn't buy much, in fact, find them priced more expensively than MBK. next year if i come to bkk again, i'll juz come to this place for the food and beer.

thai girls
i can't help wondering that the thai gals are extremely slim. i'm not talking about those ah gua. it's the original gals that are slim. then we began brainstorming why. 2 reasons we conclude, their diet, lots of lime and spice, 2nd reason, they exercise by walking a lot and climbing up stairs. there are no escalators to their skytrain station, so imagine u have to take the skytrain everyday, u are really climbing up flights of steps. we counted one flight of step. 64 steps altogether!!! power. so i've made up my mind to try to use the staircase more

the rest are just miscellaneous thoughts which i won't blog. juz like to say that i enjoy my sis, her bf, her best fren and her best fren's bf company. they were like young, all 21, and every little thing, they take pictures. it's like even the dishes we ordered, when it comes, they also take phoot. not to mention my aunt and her fren when they joined us on the 2nd day, grateful to them that they are so obliging to us young people. imagine, 8 of us together, it was quite fun!
so sorry if i was pushy during the trip, i guess 3D2N so we tend to do things fast and on the ball.

will plan to go bkk next dec again. it's worth the trip. start saving up for it...

Saturday, December 18, 2004

personality test results

sandra, in the last year you've earned 754 karma points

You've earned these points by doing good things, therefore allowing good things to circle back to you. There are 6 different ways people earn karma, and by looking at your responses to this test, we can tell that your caring nature is earning you the most karma.

ha, caring? maybe. that's y i got the caring teacher award twice? haha, funny.


a quiet saturday night

packed for bkk trip tmr morning already, reaching the airport at 6 plus. 1st time taking a budget airline, so quite excited to try it out.

my cousin whom i've helped in tuitioning in SS/Geog Elect came in as the top student for his school for 'N' level. so proud of him. scored distinction.... parents were very happy and thanked me juz now. one of th perks in teaching... (sniff, sniff)

children were not feeling well for the past few days, especially Mabel. had high fever since thursday nite. this morning, got to stick the medicine up her ass to bring down the fever, poor gal, so painful. heartache for her... but no choice, i had to do it, as her fever was 39.4. it was like she was pleading with me, like 'no, mummy. u go away, no!' but i had to force her, i felt very bad.
children usually dun understand our good intentions. they always feel that we force them.

Thursday, December 16, 2004

looking younger?

i'm so happy today, someone commented that i look younger these days. must be my new hairstyle. so happy, elated.

have to wat, who ask my hubby so baby face.... so i must keep up with him...

anyway, this person makes my day :)

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

juz came back from batam

batam... well the two days we were there, it was raining heavily, until we come back on tuesday, then it's so sunny. we didn't have a chance to go down to the beach. anyway, when it's high tide, the waves are really big, i believe can sweep a person away even if the person is standing on the shore. but i enjoy listening to the waves.

the spa treatment, well, the first one we go to was quite 'class' like that, got spa treatment in a private room, more privacy. the scrub and massage was good, especially the neck, shoulder and back. but my legs can't stand the massage. in the package, there is also a foot reflex. omg, that one is the most painful. she is already very light already, but it's still painful. can u believe i'm perspiring even though i'm in the air con room doing the foot reflex? think my blood circulated extremely well after that.

at nite, the seafood dinner was nice and quite reasonably priced.

the next day, we all went back to the same place for massage, but the person wanted to add extra charge to us. we were all so fed up, we left and went to another one. this one, not so class, but the massage was better. the people here are better skilled. but it's really those where u pull the curtain, it's like i can hear the guys next to me speaking, and i'm half naked. but everyone was professional, the lady massenger make sure that the curtains is really close tight and shut. i guess i have to trust her.

on the last day, finally manage to use the hotel's facilities, brought M&M to the swimming pool to swim and the wind was blowing so hard... brrrr.

finally back in sg today. quite tired, but was happy. cos a big group of us going, so it was kind of fun. it was also a good time to talk to some other relatives, like uncle who has not been in close contact with us. u learn to look after the elderly, like ah ma who can hardly see the steps, and mind you, turi beach resort is quite hilly. so we always have to call the bungee to fetch ah ma to her room.

well, i'm looking forward to my BKK trip this coming sunday. it's really shop and eat.

Saturday, December 11, 2004

2nd day of new hairstyle

ok, i'm getting used to my new hairstyle already. at least i dun get a shock when i look at myself in the mirror. can see the colour of the highlight more clearly today. hope i dun look too brunette. ok, enough of my new hairstyle, get on with life.

will be going to batam for holidays from sunday to tuesday. mixed feeling, becos this is a big family gathering thing, going on vacation, and well, on one hand it's fun to have so many people together, on the other hand, if u dun feel like communicating with them, it's scary to be stuck with them for 3 days. anyway, hope to get a good spa treatment and hopefully a good tan this vacation. also hope that marcus and mabel can enjoy themselves during this vacation with their swimming and stuff like that.

well, realise that they have grown closer to us after the KL trip. like that kind of feeling. otherwise, it's always work, work, work and i do feel the distance. next year, they are starting school on 5th jan, so sad that i can't be with them on the first day of sch. in fact, becos of work, i'll not be able to be with them on the 1st 3 days of sch. i feel very frus inside. sometimes, i feel like quitting my job, but can't bring myself to do it.


Thursday, December 09, 2004

rebonded my hair

yup, went to rebond my hair today. can't believe i spend 6 hours sitting at the salon to do my hair... i guess guys will never understand why we gals can so long sitting at the salon.

ok, please with results, more of pleased with revamp image. look entirely different, i'm not used to my new hairstyle, felt that i look different and weird in the mirror. guess i'll come to terms with it.


feeling so so today

y i feeling so so today? think maybe becos i dun have enough sleep. slept at 3 something, woke up at 8 plus. messenging online the whole nite last nite, for about 6 hours, omg. msn messenger is addictive. but what to do, u meet old frens, u need to catch up.

last nite, catch up with 1 student from my previous school. He remembers me!!! i'm impressed even though i taught them for only about 3-4 months before i go on maternity leave and eventually being posted out. i'm impressed and it really makes my day to have such appreciative students. hope the current batch of students are appreciative as well when they finish their major exams next year (cough hint hint). he has finished his Os, waiting for jc posting.

then early in the morning, brought M&M to orientation. i'm stressed, they may not like and want to go to school, how? it's so hard to slow talk to them, but they still dun understand, almost vomitted blood. and the irony is their mum is a teacher!!! i guess all children go thru this stage. will sure cry, let them be, juz dun want them to hate school. will see how it goes.

then the whole day quite average, nothing spectacular, even amazing race also average today, quite predictable, nothing exciting.

until now, been on the net for 3 hours... also so so... ok, i'm boring all of u with my so so feeling

the only thing i'm looking forward to is, i'm rebonding my hair tomorrow!!!! yeah, and highlighting it also!!!! yeah

new hairdo, new life, new person, new outlook in life

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

BAck in SG saFEly

to all those concern, i'm back in sg safely.
the trip - well, KL's traffic was bad, the drivers there are very very reckless, esp the taxis. anyway, luv the hotel, it was complimentary, got some voucher, if i dun have voucher, would never have stayed there, cos it's very very ex. m&m esp. mabel luv the hotel, in fact she missed it so much and said wanted to go back to '18'. that's the floor we stayed. she said the bed is nice (king size, soft, all 4 of us can squeeze on the bed) the bathroom is nice, the swimming pool is nice, (on the 22nd flr).

went to sunway lagoon sunday. well, i would go back there again when m&m are bigger and know how to play wif the water slides and stuff. it's like they are still too young for some of the things and it's like we cannot leave them there and go and enjoy the water slides ourselves.

the next day, proceed to malacca. it's basically a quieter town than KL, definitely. the pace of life very relaxed there, there were so many shops not open for business! tried the food there, delicious. the assam laksa (mouth drooling now!), the chendol (so different from sg one) the nyonya food. malacca is worth visiting again, for the food.

back in sg this evening. after settling all the stuff, it's back to computer and net again. still reading my emails, so many of them, started reading them since like 9 something, and it's like 12 something already. a few more emails to go...

Friday, December 03, 2004

going to KL/sunway lagoon/malacca

wow, so tired after all the packing. going to KL tmr. yup, driving up. thanks to all the friends who gave me advice on driving in Malaysia. will heed all thy advices.

amazing, we could actually squeeze all our clothings (hubby, me, M&M) into one backpack. we could also squeeze our toiletries, swimming stuff, pampers inside the same bag. i juz need to take another smaller backpack for all the othe non clothing stuff, like milk bottle, milk powder.

that reminds me of amazing race. i cannot believe the eliminated pair actually spent 8 hours looking thru the hay for the clue. they were like there from day to night time. very bad luck. and they were actually the first few groups to arrive. at first i thought the grandparents will be eliminated cos they spent so much time at the ikea there. they were very very lucky. but the detour at ikea was fun. those who chose counting, counted like mad... that was where the grandparents stumble. they counted so many times, but did not get the right figure. mind you, the correct figure is 2304. so can u imagine counting it all over again, time and again. if i'm taking part, i would choose building. anyway, my hubby is very good at assembling ikea furniture.

oh yah, again the father/daughter group. the father is damn good/accurate. very skilful father. my hero. totally respect him. always very cool, never run, juz walk fast. cool man!