Tuesday, November 30, 2004

Sesame Street Musical at Downtown EAst

tonite, brought marcus and mabel to watch the musical. as usual, spent some money on buying binoculars for them. as usual, marcus is ever so cool when watching the musical, dun sing, dun move, just concentrate on the stage. whereas mabel will be singing and clapping and swaying to the music. hubby says that this mabel next time will be like mummy, chiong disco one. the musical is alright. i mean to adults, how good can musical get? but the children were really excited, maybe except for mr coolman, marcus.

anyway, saw some students there. saw the guides, apparently, they were at wild wild wet, oh my, their face like cooked lobster, so red. aiyoh, must take care of your skin, gals, otherwise next time got freckles. then after the musical, marcus wanted to sit on those cars that go round and round. i was like searching for the booth to buy tickets, then lo and behold, i saw Yi Bing (3N4) working there, helping the children up the cars and strapping them to the safety belts. so naturally i asked him where to buy the tickets. anyway, had a good talk with Yi Bing. not bad, at least working, can earn some money. rather than hanging around. ok, to all the students out there, enjoy and work hard, watever u are doing this holiday, enjoy. otherwise, very soon, we will be meeting in school soon.
weekend

weekend was like a piece of shit, generally. started on saturday. wat did i do on saturday...? spending time wif children is ok, they love it, we went eating, shopping, oh yah, they bought yet another 2 VCDs to add on to their enormous huge pile of VCDs, (think they got at least 50 VCDs, close to 80 VCDs.) anyway, luck was like a piece of shit on saturday, lose everything except $2. (wow, record)

then comes sunday. woke up early in the morning to fetch mum to church, (her arms are still in cast), oh yah, when we wanted to bring the kids out for lunch, the car's battery died on us. luckily, 1 friend stayed nearby and came to help push start the car. it just took 5 mins for 2 guys to do it. then got to go and buy new battery... it was like it's almost 1 pm, i did not have my coffee, i did not have my lunch, and it's a total waste of time.

after lunch, went to fetch mum from church, then it started pouring. so heavy. after that, met up wif serena and small adrian at junction 8. need to use my best denkei voucher, so bought a new washing machine. also went to pick up the sesame street musical for tues nite. omg, this year, i've watched 3 children musicals wif my children already. well, wat to do, as long as they are happy.

serena and adrian came to our house for the afternoon. the horrible part was in the evening, dunno wat happen to my mum, she is like so petty lor, we waited for her, wanted to bring her out for dinner, but she didn't want to and when we called her on the hp, she didn't pick up. win liao.

in the end, decided that we all deserve a good treat after all the hassle of waiting for her. (it was like almost 8 something when we had our dinner) so treated all to sakae sushi for dinner. when we walked past the arcade, marcus was very quick to spot the 'crazy taxi' poster pasted on the arcade's door. we were like, ohhhh, ok, after dinner, he was like hogging the crazy taxi machine. i can already foresee what 'discipline' problems marcus will give me when he starts schooling.

then on monday morning, got a real horrible call early in the morning, almost spoil my holiday plans to KL, need to quickly find alternative accomodation, thanks to the customer service officer who did not do the booking for me last week. this morning called me and said, 'mrs tan, sorry, the rooms that you wanted are all fully booked.' you can imagine my anger wen i heard this especially when i juz woke up. so this is the final straw, i broke down. cried tears of frustration.

picked myself up after that, no point, luckily the rest of the day is not so bad. kind of like make up for everything. i have finished one instalment of the worksheets that i'm supposed to do, tmr can submit already, big load off my shoulder. watched 'the core' 2nd time on vcd.

Saturday, November 27, 2004

Music Underground

last nite, went music underground with frens. actually only know one of them, the rest are the first time. it's like this fren went to invite this gal, and then this gal invite at least 5 others, so that makes 8 of us and the two of us are the oldest, the rest of them are like 21... omg, i think 80% of the people there last nite are like in their early twenties, i must be one of the 20% who are like old auntie. quite crowded last nite, crowd is fun.

music... well, fabulous, it's like all my favourite 91.3 songs...i dance? of course lah, pay money go inside (eh, actually never pay, fren is europa member, sign us in) of course must dance lah... well, i know i won't be one of those gals who dance in the bar top, i'm past my prime, but i do enjoy my own dancing on the dance floor.

didn't really quite talk to the other frens, cos 1st time and i also dunno wat to say to them, so was quite alone, dancing on the steps, (remind me of pleasure dome...) anyway, i think got one xiao di want to kao me like dat, it's like when i'm on the steps dancing, he's around, then when i moved to the dance floor, he also moved lor, then when i return to the steps there, he also moved lor. y i call him xiao di? becos he's definitely younger than me... anyway, there was once we made eye contact and i think he wanted to open his mouth and asked me something, but then he hesitated lor... then he like forget it liao... so i also dun pursue lah. if i'm younger, not married, maybe i'll tease him, but too old for the game liao.

didn't stay too late, 230 like dat, we left already. old liao, not like last time. y i say i old liao... cos this morning when i wake up, my leg muscle cramp leh... warao, i very lousy leh.

ok, i'm late for golf.... better end.
Marcus and Mabel orientation

receive a letter Kinderland. M & M have orientation on 8 Dec for their school next year. omg, i think i'm more excited than they do! they are finally going to school. but i look at the school fees, the book list, the uniform, all need $$$$, frightening as well, everything is x2.

well, let's take one step at a time.... $$$ will come, as long as both of them are happy.

Thursday, November 25, 2004

next week is chiong week

jio-ing pple who want to chiong... next week, 1/12 (wed)want to go devils bar? ladies nite...
also 3/12 (fri) want to go newsroom bar? this one i confirm going....
amazing race

well, as usual, the place featured is very nice. the contestants actually get to row the boat, viking.. interesting. let's see, well, guess when the group is made up of two ladies, they tend to be weaker... either they can't drive the car or can't read map.

as for the couples, well, the engaged models this time, well, maybe i tend to compare them to dating models last season, thought brandon and nicole last season was more loving and cooperative than this pair of engaged models. dunno, this pair of models juz gives me the idea that they are very egoistic.

so far, my favourite pair is father/daughter. father is very experienced. during the detour, they were the first ones to finish the accuracy one, which was comparatively more difficult, u need to knock down poles, throw an ax, and shoot an arrow. so i think, it's more difficult, but they cleared the thing easily, the father was very good at shooting arrow. first arrow, hit the target. Hero!

the grandparents are lovely too. it's like every time they reached the pit stop, juz look at their expression. they were so worried that they are the last team to arrive and the look of relief when they are not, especially last nite, when they took the wrong car and had to turn back.


Wednesday, November 24, 2004

The Incredibles

went to watch incredibles today. quite funny. i mean it's so long, almost 2 hours, after the show, my leg like twisted like that.

anyway, it's a nice show. at first, i was like 'cartoon?? omg, i'm watching cartoon, and i'm like the oldest person there... ' of course, there are parents who brought their kids along, i was like alone lor... so paiseh. anyway, it's a nice cartoon. it's funny how u view it with an open heart, in the end, i enjoyed the show, not like any slapstick movie.

am now watching discovery channel, the making of 'alexandra'... colin farrells has nice bod... drooling....

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

shiok, no need to go to school today. the feeling is juz great. but stupid me, brought back tons of work to do... anyway to zesheng, working life is never easy. altho i may not be physically at the workplace, but i still got to work. what to do? they pay u $100, they squeeze out $200 worth of things from u.

liFe sUckS! never mind, tonite will play xbox with children to de-stress!

Monday, November 22, 2004

don't know why i have this feeling

well, nothing much happen to me today, juz that perhaps it's a Monday, so those blues are bound to be there. and things juz dun go right in the morning. luckily the afternoon kind of make it up.

hate this feeling of procrastination. i know i have some things to do, but i juz can't get myself to doing it... sigh.. and deadline is probably like this week. sigh....... y can't i juz do it??? (Nike, just do it!)

sigh, nothing much to say, mood is not right to say also. better shut down, go sleep and talk to kids. niteeeeee

Saturday, November 20, 2004

staff retreat in JB

last nite slept so late, this morning wake up so early to go back to school again. this time we are all going to JB for a staff retreat, followed by some shopping.

anyway, will not bore u with the details of today. the retreat was fun, the shopping and eating were good, enjoyed myself, laughing and joking with colleagues. realise we are bunch of crap people! ha

Juz one thing worth mentioning. we were at the Causeway. juz disappointed wif fellow Singaporeans. it was like it was a very small area for queueing and we were very near the escalator. well, we were not so bad, all of us managed to squeeze into the small area without anyone near the escalator. the problem came when another bus load of people came up. the people juz stood at the escalator after coming up, without thinking that those poor people behind who kept on coming up will have a problem. finally, there was a slight commotion when someone almost fell. think that stopped the escalator. then we being kind, snaked a little so that they have space to stand into the area. wow, these people actually barged into the space and then formed they own queues and like trying to merge and cut into our queue. FED UP man!!! really very hot, but i kept my mouth shut. a few of us worked together to inch out these people. but it was like we became the last few ones lor!!!! then some stupid woman can like criticize some stupid things, warao! really cannot let one person in, u let one person in, the whole family will barge in. that was wat happen to one of our colleagues. 5 people barged in front of her. ingrateful!!!! i was very very extremely DL. so if u ever use the immigration checkpoint in JB at the Causeway, be more kiasu, cos if not, u will lose out!!!

anyway, put that incident behind me already. i've learnt a valuable lesson.

tomorrow need to send dear mum and grandma to church cos mum can't drive with her right arm cast. need to reach AMK at 10 am. decide to go and fetch her alone, so that i no need to go for church service. i'll definitely sleep during the sermon. then i think will have to fetch her and grandma back from church as well. no grievances, as she is my mum and that cannot be changed. juz blame my bad luck, cos my mum will be in cast until 30/12 that is like school will be re-opening soon lor. sigh, so sad, think i'll stop here.
friday night

friday night, fund raising dinner in school. GOH was Mr President. those on duty of course are very high strung. for me, could afford to relax. food was so so, think the president's table food will be good, but it's like u pay about $8000 to sit with the President at the same table.

then nearing the end of the dinner, received a call from hubby. Mabel was crying in the background, she dislocated her left elbow again!! yah, again, cos this is the 2nd time. so i very kan cheong, quickly left the dinner.

anyway, brought Mabel to KK children's emergency. she had to take an x ray. she was like refused to let me bring her arms up on the table. got to slowly coaxed her into it.

then when it was the turn to see the doc, her dislocated arm actually not dislocated anymore. asked the doc why like that. doctor gave a very good explanation. u need to have a hard pull in order to have the bone out of the 'ring' and dislocated. since Mabel did not fall down or anybody was pulling her hand, hence, while she was searching for her toys, she might have overstrecteh it and the bone could be on its way out, hence, she felt the pain. and when i lifted her arms for the x ray, the bone might have fall back into place.

Mabel juz has to be very careful with her use of left hand next time. anyway, doc said that children will grow out of this as they grow older becos bones will get harder. luckily she do not need to put cast otherwise, she would be like her grandmother, my mother like that.

Friday, November 19, 2004

Personality Tests

took some personality tests, here are my results:

Most unique quality
sandra, your most unique quality is that you're unusually Intense

You're wound up and have a lot going on. Others may have trouble understanding what you're going through, but they generally find your intensity very compelling and are drawn to you. This happens even without effort on your part. Compared to others who are also intense, you are unusually quick to react when someone tries to hurt you. Only 2.1% of all test takers have this unique combination of personality strengths.


My thoughts: well, i do agree that i have a lot going on, too much in fact. drawn to me?? well, i'm not sure, too much attention can be bad.

What's Your Secret to Success?

sandra, your secret to success is your Ability to Organize

The devil probably isn't in the details for an organized individual like you. When it comes to planning a birthday party, a summer vacation, or a project at work, you're the person who makes sure that it goes off without a hitch.From you inbox to your shoeboxes, you're well versed in the art of organization. We wouldn't be surprised if the contents of your closets, drawers, and cabinets were filed, color coded, or alphabetized accordingly. Prioritizing, planning, and putting into order is no easy feat. But it's part of what you do best. And it's also part of what makes you one of the best! Bravo!

My thoughts: organize?? hmm, maybe a little, for example, i stick to one handbag all the time, the things in my handbag must be in place, otherwise i'll get very frustrated. but my cabinets are definitely not color coded! no way, that's a freak already!!!

sandra, your Sex IQ is 87!
You scored higher than 21% of other people who have taken our test. As you were taking the test, we measured how your sexual knowledge stacks up in the 8 areas that contribute to your Sex IQ. You scored highest when it comes to knowing about male anatomy. But it might surprise you how you scored in the other areas that make you sexually smart.

my thoughts: this is funny. took the test for fun. well, i scored highest when it comes to knowing about the male anatomy???? hmmm, interesting..... well, anyway, male anatomy does not have much for females to explore, haha.

Cutting back at work
You're a career-oriented person who's not afraid to log some long hours to get the job done — and done right. Your peers admire your drive and creativity and nothing feels better than hearing your boss or clients compliment your work. But, you know, if you glance out a window for a minute, you'll notice that there's a whole world going on out there, and you just might be missing a lot of it.While it's great that you're so committed to your career, you've got to make sure you're not forgetting about friends, family, and fun. We know you've got bills to pay and goals to attain, but don't make work your whole life. And if you just can't figure out a way to scale back your hours, then at least make sure you're planning a nice vacation — without your laptop or cell phone.

My thoughts: career minded? well, i dun come across as one, cos i'm not one who wants to climb up. but it is such that, teaching has become so busy that we do not even have time for proper breakfast or lunch. that's y saves me the money to go slimming salon.


sandra, you're 44% masculine

This is based on how you scored on a variety of traits that, founded on classic research and our own studies, are typically associated with men.You're also 56% feminine, which is based on how you scored on traits that are typically associated with women. When we compare your results with other women it shows that you are somewhat more masculine than other women.But what is gender identity exactly? A person's gender identity is defined by the extent to which they see themselves as masculine or feminine. Every person possesses both masculine and feminine qualities to some degree, however the extent to which each person has these qualities differs widely. While you were taking the test, we calculated your scores in 6 areas typically defined as masculine and 6 areas typically defined as feminine.

My thoughts: i'm more masculine than other women??? hmmm... maybe. i dun like to look at guys, i prefer to look at gals. N i scored the highest in the area of male anatomy, remember... mayb, and actually i suspect already, my previous life, i'm a man.... ha, juz a thought...

Thursday, November 18, 2004

Amazing Race 6

oh yessssssssss, the season started yesterday. Iceland is cool man!!!!!!!!! mountains, glaciers, hot springs. the whole country is so huge and wide, when travelling on the road, u just see sceneries for miles and miles. so tranquil like that.

contestants... well, first episode, not sure who i like yet. but i'll support the grandparents all the way. i knew they would be eliminated somehow along the way, but i admire them for their spirit.

a few quarrelsome couples... married entrepreneurs. the guy is sharp, but he is one MCP. poor thing the wife, giving in to him as she does not want to jeopardise. Formerly dating, i think their name is something and rebecca, the gal who pumped in petrol instead of diesel. quarrelsome too. another one, married pro wrestlers, omg! look at the gal's muscles. anyway, they can be quite vulgar at times. another one, something and victoria, can't remember what is their relationship. they can be quite quarrelsome too. engaged models, can be quarrelsome too. the gal especially.

a quote i want to share. remember this father/daughter pair. all 5 cars were travelling and they were actually driving at quite a high speed in order to overtake one another, which is quite dangerous. so the daughter was driving, their car became last after all the overtaking, she wanted to overtake, drove to the next lane, saw an approaching oncoming car, the other car horned her, she swerved back into lane. i could say quite an accident there, if she is not careful. anyway, what is the quote i want to share. the father told her to slow down, she was a bit upset cos i think she was the first car and she was overtaken by 4 cars and became last. the father told her something like 'slow down. u can't catch up with them, it's alright. you can't stop them.'

Power sia!!! the same with our life and the people we meet in life. we can't stop some people from doing the things they want to do whether to us or to themselves. just like today in the staff room, i can't stop the colleague from nagging, but i can turn things around. juz pluck in an earphone and wola! can't hear him nagging.

i luv the amazing race. my wednesdays will be bright from now on
Wisdom tooth
think i have a wisdom tooth growing out from the bottom right hand side of my gum. shit, so pain.
the pain comes and goes. when it comes, it's like i feel like tearing out my gum and tooth. wish i have a plier to take out the wisdom tooth. if i crunch my teeth, i can feel the pain as well.

now listening to amei's song, want to cry but cannot cry out (literal translation), think i have this feeling now. so pain, feel like crying, but can't cry loud enough... sigh........... i feel like dying...... from the pain.

Goh Sin Tub
think not many people will know of this author. personally, i dun really know him much too. he was the one who wrote the Singapore Stories. very old guy. i only bought one of his latest book "Walk like a Dragon". he was there as well promoting the book when i bought it, he autographed the book as well. he looked very fatherly then. that was like in may this year.

yesterday, read the newspaper, he died of stroke. i'm very shocked and sad. once again, life is so fragile. he autographed 'Sandra Teo, all the best' and he signed his name and dated it. well, now i want to pass this message to himself, all the best and his family, all the best
general

sotong king ask me why never update, guess i was very sick of the lagness in the network and the lagness in the mouse. stupid mouse today... so lag, like 'handicapped' like that, so slow. fed up. actually let me think why i was so irritated today... oh, forgot to save a document which i spent 45 mins on it, disappeared, the whole damn document disappeared, so have to redo, waste my time. Then hor, nvm, i dun mind re-doing, it's my fault, i should have saved it.

while i was doing it, some colleagues in the staff room so irritating. nag and nag and nag, non stop, so borrowed a headphone from my fren, listen to own music, blasting in my ears now. until other colleagues call me, i also cannot hear, really like deaf like that. shiok! aiyah, must be tmr's dinner, with president as the special guest, so those teachers, especially those in charge of performance items one, very high struck... each wanting to do things their own way. sigh... better not comment anymore, lest i become naggy like that particular one.

also, my genie (if u r reading this), thanks for granting 3 wishes. your use of the word 'will' is very affirmative. i think i can guess 1 of the 3 wishes. anyway, will go pray pray tua pek kong more... haha...

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

so lag today

the whole network is so lag today, it's especially impatient when u are pressed for time. dun want to talk about work, cos it will only bring unhappiness.

been reading students' blog, realise they keep saying that they are bored, always doing the same thing every day during the holidays. as for me, i'm so pressed for time, so many things to do and yet so little time. wish they can give me some of their time.

let's see... yesterday i (actually it was hubby) bought a espirit pants, 2 bottles of red earth nail polish for me. lovely colours, haven't try yet. oh yah, juz now have NPCC presentation, the sec 3s are presenting their proposal for the upcoming camp. i know what aik hwee and wee kian said ok, dun think cher deaf one hor. my nails purple colour, cannot huh? not your business anyway. holidays is for havoc time, regardless of students or teachers. anyway, i'll be going to wisma red earth outlet to do my nails later. think i'll be trying out the french manicure. one of these days, i'll be buying some red earth make up products also. think i'm red earth-fied, espirit-fied.

yesterday went to watch 'who's your daddy" funny show!!! altho it was RA, but it's not those that u think. talk about high school boys being unpopular and how he suddenly get 87 million inheritance. his biological parents owned one porn magazine like the playboy like that. maybe that's y it got the RA rating. other than that, there was nothing nude about it. wow, imagine i inherited 87 million! gosh...!

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

want to change hairstyle

yesterday, i was looking at a jap magazine. need to choose a hairstyle for the appt which will be end of this month. so excited about it. cos i think i'll rebond, layer, kuku fringe and maybe highlight.

need to change hairstyle otherwise not like the pic on the left, so young, so tender skin, so smooth skin, so slim. i'm getting ah-soh-fied. ARGH!

Monday, November 15, 2004

blogskin changed

yeah, change my blogskin today wif the help of my sister. Thanks! without her guiding me step by step, i would not be able to do it. plus i've added a tagboard. yessssss, achievement.

think i'll stick to this blogskin for the time being as i like the picture. now is i want to know how to change the font colour, thot the blue colour font, not so clear.

mon 15/11

today slept until 10 plus then wake up. had coffe, cocoa pops for breakfast. then since i have not been blogging(someone also complain that my background music very irritating) and reading my emails, decided to do that.

so wanted to blog, but the whole thing was so lag, when i manage to log in to blogger, quickly remove the music html. think it's best without the music. kept having this box appearing if i want to upgrade my microsoft. when u close the box, the whole thing lags and hangs, need to end program.

so, to all readers, so sorry, no music. oops, almost 2, better bring my kids out for lunch and maybe go and see mum and her arms in cast.

13 and 14/11

on 13th, nothing much exciting happen. went to buy some meat to marinate for the bbq that nite. a gathering with JC friends. excited, cos it's like 4 or 5 years ago, we had a gathering, so there was much to catch up on. plus we'll be bringing our kids along.

it was a good time catching up with one another at nite, except that we were watching our kids play more than we were talking to one another. anyway, got a wedding dinner on 11/12, that is also another good time to catch up wif one another.

after the bbq, adjourned for mj session, won $30 that nite, was damn lucky that nite. but the other two won more, $60 each. reached home at about 4 am, surprised to see that marcus was not asleep yet. he was waiting for us to come home! but u could see that his eyes were really heavy, when we reached home and tugged him in, within half a minute, he slept. kissed him on the forehead. i think he must be angry wif us for not coming home and playing crazy taxi with him.

on 14th, family gathering. cousin's b-day. but my poor mum fell and broke her dunnoe left or right arm. had to bring her to TTSH. it's a broken bone, not just a fracture, hence have to put her hand in cast. sigh, actually this thing would not have happen, if she did not decide to go to the supermarket to buy some food last minute. she was worried that the food was not enough for everyone to eat. that is so typical of her. actually sis wants to come over to my house to stay to play xbox, but in the end, she can't. well, we were not too angry, just that poor mum! sigh, looks like she is going to feel like a handicapped for the next few weeks.

when we came home from the gathering, was actually very sleepy and tired. but marcus insisted on playing crazy taxi. no choice, played with him, disappointed him last nite, so didn't want to disappoint him again. well, he was happy. it seems like playing crazy taxi is a daily dosage of opium for him like that. wat an addiction!

no more music

i think by adding in the music makes the whole blog very lag, so i've taken away the music.

12/11
went for some sharing at another secondary school in the morning. both me and colleague were planning to take the train down to orchard after the sharing which will end at about 1pm. we were happily in the train, waiting for the train to move on, when we receive an urgent sms to attend another sharing at the school at 3pm. i was contemplating to say yes, but not turn up for the sharing, but becos i'm with my colleague, and my colleague was not really in favour of doing this, so i reluctantly agree to go for the 3pm sharing. however, i sms back and told the school that i'm very pissed off by the sch's management.

i dun want them to think that whatever last minute thing they agree to other people, it becomes compulsory for the subordinates to carry out the thing for them, at their convenience, at our inconvenience. we both have to frantically change our plans becos of them. will they know the inconvenience they caused? NO!. they only sit in the office, happy and glad that they have promised someone something and it will be carried. felt like a stupid machine, at their control! but for a 3-4pm sharing, only one hour, my colleague's rationale is, dun get into trouble with them over this 1 hour thing.

well, i was very very pissed off. anyway, that will be my last time i do things like that for them, no more! if they promised someone something, then they do it themselves lah!!!!! if they not free, so do i!!!! idiots! think we are paper plates or cups, to be disposed of at their convenience!!!!

the only thing that redeemed my day was the nite out with my kids. brought them to watch winnie the pooh musical. well, they enjoyed the show of course, bought a lot of merchandise for them. not cheap. cost us about $80 for 4 items. wat to do? they like it and i dun see why i should refuse them. anyway, i'm happy that they enjoyed the show, dancing to the music. think only mabel is dancing to the music. marcus was so stiff and shy to participate. that's so unlike of him. he was like dancing and singing at home but at the muscical, he jus stared at the stage. money well spent and time well spent, worth the investment to see your children happy. unlike in the afternoon, it was a total waste of time.

Thursday, November 11, 2004

so stupid of me

haiyah, me so stupid. the winnie the pooh thing is a show, so must book tickets one. thot can juz bring them there to see winnie the pooh. ok, nvm, problem rectified. booked the tickets for tmr nite, 7.30pm. 4 tickets cost $161, oh my... wat to do, promised the kids, feel bad if i can't carry out my promise. and that is after 15% discount. $ is small issue, think i want the kids to be happy.

the only problem now is that i need to tell the bad news to them that the show is tmr and not today. they sure very disappointed. but have to assure them. gosh, hate to see their disappointed face. later bring them to J8 to pick up the tickets.

deepavali tmr

yeah, it's deepavali tmr. not that i celebrate it, but it's a public holiday, so that means no need to go to work... yipeeeeeeeeeeee.

went to driving range today. whack the balls a good 78 m today. most balls were hit accurately. thank goodness. fulfilment and achievement.

already starting to plan where to bring the kids tmr. as for breakfast, it's either ya kun or Mc for the kids. think will bring them to expo for the winnie the pooh thing. they would sure like it. just now, i just told them about winnie the pooh, u should have seen how their eyes brighten up, so cuteeeeeee. luv them and hug them all. hey, mabel just looked at the clock and told me it's 12. i'm amazed at their learning abilities.

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

massage

ok, let me see, i juz had a neck, shoulder and head massage. we specially call these association that teach blind people the massage so that they can earn a living. it's like a 15-20 mins or is it half an hour? massage, it's $10. quite cheap. so we called them up and since we have about 10 of us who wanted a massage, so they came to the staff room. i was the first one to have the massage. i can't take foot massage.

oh my, it feels so good now, like all the muscles are relaxed. i think my neck is really very stiff, after the massage, now it feels so relaxed that i can feel the pain. it's not the painful kind of pain, it's that 'suan suan' pain.

then, very funny. during the massage, i think all my muscles started relaxing. ok, 1st the neck massage. the pressing was good, i can feel the shiokness from the pain. then after that i started to feel dizzy, head was like very dizzy, going in circles. dunnoe y, i think that mayb becos long time never massage, so it's like suddenly very dizzy. dunnoe lack of blood circulation or the blood suddenly all gushed to my brains. then after the back massage, my whole back feels so 'sng' i wish someone juz breaks my back. now i know how my mother in law feels when she used to complain that her back is very 'sng'. so with my head in a spin and my back so 'sng', the person next to me had to ask me if i'm feeling alright. so funny...

now sitting down here blogging, my dizziness has gone away already, the blood is flowing regularly to my brains now. back no more 'sng' already. but my neck the bones there, like more flexible, as i turn my head around, can hear the 'teck teck' sound. shoulder also. think i'm on the pc too long and playstation too long, so i got stiff neck and stiff shoulder.

think should have this kind of regular neck/shoulder massage. well, punggol plaza has this foot massage, but inside all guys leh. nvm, one of these days, i'll go and check it out. wintoto, want to check this out together?

mobility

these few days dun have the car, i feel so handicapped. like can't go to anywhere i like freely, then very stingy, dun want to take a cab. MRT is fine, it's those places that i want to go that has no MRT, i dunnoe wat bus to take. so feel very cooped up inside, very depressed.

anyway, that brings me to my next point. that's y yesterday, took an MRT to TM. caught 'Ladder 49' alone. the movie is nice, if u are thinking of action pack, then maybe shouldn't watch the show. it's quite sad, can cry one. honestly, i cried. trying very hard to hold back the tears, but it juz came down. i guess becos i have two children, one boy and one gal, (exactlylike the one in the show) so when the husband died in course of work, i think i feel for the wife. that's y i cried. also firefighting is a dangerous job, if u die while fighting fire, it's a horrible death. u are literally burnt alive. as for the guy in the show, i think it's sad also becos, it's like the director brought our hopes up (he was trapped in the building and his fellow colleagues are trying to rescue him out, he still had radio contact) then when he got to a 'supposedly' safe place (control room) he looked out and saw a sea of fire and he knew that it's impossible for his colleagues to come and rescue him, so he told the chief to call off the rescue and get his colleagues out. after speaking and asking the chief to take care of his family, he just gave up fighting for his life and fell into a coma. that was when the tears started rolling down. it's painful to wait for death. the chief (john travolta) had to fight back the tears and gave a command to evacuate the building. it's painful for him too. oh mine, and then the funeral. so dignified.

another point, yesterday saw the news, it was Huang Na's funeral. it's exactly the same, when the coffin was pushed inside to burn, they all cried out for her. it's like, after burning, no more a person, a body, just bones.

sigh, so sad... so think about my issue of not having a car to drive ard, i guess i should be thankful that i'm still able to move around. wait till i lie in my coffin, six feet underground, give me the fastest car on earth also no use.

Monday, November 08, 2004

issues to address

been reading other people's blog the whole morning, mainly teenagers. a few things i gleaned from reading it:
1) to colin: u said u hate backstabbers. well, dun worry, u'll never escape from them, there will always be plenty and more when u start working next time. worse still, in army... sabo king! got to learn to deal with them

2) to Shirley (my student, not my mum): at times i do feel like ending my life earlier, but i'm always scolded by my loved ones ard me, juz like i've scolded u. i mean it's fine to have silly thoughts at times. i guess we all have this feeling, cos at one point of time in life, we have no goals in life, like drifters. but i came to realise that life is worth living for, if we make the choice! we got to go out and fight for what we want, enjoy what we like despite the hardships in life. just take hardships as adding spices and variety to your life, wola! u find that u wish to prolong your life longer in order to enjoy life.

3) to Kexin: as for loving someone and being loved... well, common feelings even until adulthood. sometimes, u also experience stop loving that person... got to find back love. well, when we love somebody, no need for the person to love us back. love is knowing that the person u love is happy. of course it's a nice feeling being loved back. but if dun have, then no need to 'qiang qiu'

ok i'm getting cheem here. after reading all your blogs, i seriously getting a little dizzy, must by Yan Li's blog. all around me, the things seem to be spinning. think my brains want to go into a coma soon.

finally added links!

guess wat, today i finally figure out how to add links to my blog. gosh, it was so simple, what was i doing? only holidays then i have the time to do all these things. anyway, those few links that i added are my students.

when i look at their blog, mine was so simple in comparison. but then again, i got no time for fanciful things on my blog, scared some of my friends who are older who may read my blogs cannot navigate... ha! right, wintoto?

anyway, life is complicated at this age, so i'll just keep my blog simple.

Sunday, November 07, 2004

all things french

yah man, french manicure. the fingernails look kind of squarish at the end, and there are two colours. usually a lighter base with white at the nails there.

yup, we have french cap, french fries, french kiss and french maninure. wat other french things do we have?

now, sis and adrian is at my house playing crazy taxi. well, my kids are so good at it (not that they are good at playing). they know the names of the drivers, can even sing the song. well, we practice every nite. they practise singing the crazy taxi song, i practise playing it. good, until know the road. oh yah, just realise that this is good for my children to practise their maths too. it's like if you pick up 4 passengers, and after 1 passenger alight, my son will go like 'three!' and so on. good to learn subtraction for young kids.

my son will play the xbox games, he'll be the one next time, addicted to games and trying to figure out the game. whereas my daughter, not determined to figure out the game. no perserverance. but she likes to come and see me when i'm on the laptop. next time, sure like the mum next time, always on the net, addicted to chatrooms. well, for those with children, i'm sure u agree with me that all our children are different but we love them all.

Saturday, November 06, 2004

let's make a deal

ok, sis, u have added one item to my to do list, i.e to add a tag board. why not like this? one of these days, after our hair is done up, i'll go to your place, i'll help u pack your table and u help me add tag board to my blog? deal?

hey, went for manicure and pedicure again this afternoon, chose a light purple colour. thought it's different from the shades of red i used to choose. the next time round, i want to try french manicure.


no title

running out of creative juice to name my posts so decided not to put any titles for today's post.

i'm just wondering about online games and xbox games. dun like that lah, it's my holidays and i think i deserve to get hooked up to the games... ok? anyway, plenty of things to do, i'll do it when the time comes. not important ones, can don't do, right? so though plenty of things to do... i'm not worried lah.... taking it easy... it's the hols! enjoy. otherwise, i'll have to wait another year for such luxury.

looking around my workstation now. quite happy with my packing, now left the top part, the teaching materials part, well, planned to reorganise the teaching materials, but then, it will not make a great difference if i do or if i don't do it, so again, taking it easy. at least the lower portion of my work station is cleared, i have a bigger working area ( it was like stacked with papers and books during the term time that u can hardly see my table top) so it was an achievement that i've packed what is on my table, (it's definitely more organised now) and underneath my table. i've been like dumping projects and stuff under the table, that has been cleared too.

so i deserve a game or two before i start on my work, right? ;)

Friday, November 05, 2004

so many things to settle today

crazy day today! settled some other people's shit today, but nvm, was the pau dou, stabbed the person from behind. no choice, we have to protect ourselves. anyway, make a commitment to do somethings for next year regarding this matter. can't elaborate here cos it's not convenient. but regarding this matter, i'll adopt a more proactive approach and just do it.

after settling these things, it's like almost dunnoe what time, ate my breakfast (at 11 am) think it should be more of brunch. then, read some emails, chit chat here and there, time's up, can go home already.

trying out this mint thing which is suppose to control your appetite and burn more fats. or maybe i just finish my breakfast like one hour ago, hence is still feeling very full.

last nite, went to Wheelock place, Big O with colleagues. we all had fun eating, sharing food and gossip. no lah, we also had fun chit chatting with one another, we are not so kpo-ish. anyway, reached home at almost 12 mid nite, hence today a bit blur, think i'm starting to hallucinate already.

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

swing those clubs

nothing much happened today, just realised that this holiday is no holiday. things needed to be done this holiday
1) packing of work station (i'm halfway through, just need to sort out the notes, learning resources and test papers)
2) prepare for open house (the write up on Batam and the video on cairns: my biggest headache)
3) three SOWs (EL, Social studies and Geography elective)
4) plan for my holiday
5) manicure and pedicure (need to use my package)
6) restyling of my hair
7) NPCC CIP newspaper collection (the preparation)
8) preparation of next year's work
9) have an offer to develop the curriculum for a centre (taking up the assignment)
10) spent time with love ones
11) brush up on my golf (swing those damn clubs)
12) go to Marcus' and Mabel's orientation (buy books, school bags, uniform and school shoes)

oh my! the list goes on. have not put in the preparations for christmas day.
life is great, never ending things for us to do. and now i'm hooked on a yahoo online game, shape shifters. last nite, i was like spending almost 4 hours playing the game. dunnoe wat got me addicted. oh yah, that reminds me, i've been turning down marcus' request to play crazy taxi lately.

engine refuses to do any solid work these few days. but after listing down all the above things to be done, i'm a little frightened. scared got no time to finish all the tasks.

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

dUn bE sHoCKed

dear sis, dun be shocked about my dinner post. i guess that with family members working together, there are plenty of stories that i hear, it sort of like changes my views on some people. but dun worry, i'm not referring to my dear cousin, cos no matter what, i grew up together with my dear cousin. so i guessed that above sentence kind of give u an idea who i'm referring to.

well, i'm not totally prejudiced or hated or anything like that. it's just that, if can dun meet, dun talk, i'll prefer not to. but as a family, it's difficult not to communicate, hence, i'll just communicate but the bare minimum.

well, like what wintoto and 4D says, dun take sides. dun worry, i'll not take sides, i'll just be careful in my dealings with my family members.

but of course, all those family members who are dear to me are still dearest to me, my sis, my mum, my aunties who have contributed so much to our childhood memories, my dear cousin whom we always hide in the storeroom to colour when we were young.

i guess adulthood changes things....

Monday, November 01, 2004

PReJuDIce

was just thinking about this thing about prejudice. read somewhere before that once we experience something, it forms a perception in our brains. When another experience happens to us, it confirms this perception. and another and another, it adds on and confirms our perception that sometimes it becomes our point of view or in extreme cases, our prejudice.

it's like i'm prejudiced against china people. this is due to many factors like business partners and how they are out to 'ketuk' (hope i spelt in correctly) us. it was a perception then 10 years back. then read about the Suzhou Industrial Park, then another thing happen to my uncle (funny, how come he never learnt his lesson), then the china gals in Singapore stories, how kiasu are china students in the educational campus, all these experiences have add on and confirm my perception about them and it has become a prejudice.

Well, dun try to tell me that our ancestors come from china, that i know, but that was like how many years ago, or at least a century ago. i'm born here, i'm bred here, of course i'm guilty of any characteristics of Singaporeans that people have of us, like our kiasu, kiasi, or our bargaining powers. i'm equally guilty of some of those, i dun deny.

so when one of my friends told me that how the china people had treated them kindly when they were in Shanghai, it was difficult for me to accept. i'm trying to accept it, but it's not going to change my perception yet, unless i get to experience it myself.

but that is how our brains and body function. our experiences are added on to our 'storage' in our brains and our brains just produce neutrons to confirm all these experiences and fused into our perception. no escaping from our 'processor' up there

It was Halloween last nite!

gosh, i din realise that it was halloween last nite. not that i celebrate halloween, but i told myself last year that i would buy some costumes for my kids to wear this year, looks like i have to KIV this.

well, u ever realise there was something every Halloween? in god knows which year, 31 Oct, SQ 006, last year, on the nite of Halloween, there was a horrible accident at Simei, near the Changi Hospital. apparently, 8 were involved, 4 killed. i remembered it cos the next morning on my way to school, there was a jam which was not likely to be. then u see all these blue flashing lights, white cloth, blue tapes....

then yesterday, the body of Huang Na was found! gosh, halloween is sure creepy, juz like our Chinese hungry ghost festivals. read the newspaper this morning. the poor gal was naked, stuffed in a box. it was an attempted murder. the Took guy was arrested for murder.

i just feel that as humans being living on earth, we try not to kill or rob or purposefully go and assualt someone. i strongly believe in retribution. you do evil this life, you'll get your retribution next life. that's y we try to do good this life. rewards? well, just think of it this way, you may not get rewards now, (it's never immediate or instant) but perhaps later in life, or even your children/offspring may benefit because of your good deeds.

we are living in an instant world. instant prizes, instant noodles, instant mash potatoes, instant soup (i'm guilty of all these, have a whole lot of them in my mini pantry) so naturally, we are accustom to instant rewards in life as well. but it does not work this way lor! i remember our elders once told us, last time to buy one tv, they have to save so long to buy one. but now, u want one tv, just pay a little deposit, and wola! u have a tv sitting in your living room. u get the goods first but pay later. this is a bad world!