new car

well, the smell of the interior of a new car is indescrible.

well driving a new car is of course shiok. the only thing is the body kit is not installed for me, bit disappointed. they will install for me when i next go for servicing.

the number plate..... it's of course SGA (Singapore Great Asshole). hmmm, when i strike 4d, then i'll divulge the number.

Himer Part 2
The Revenge of Himer with a vengence

remember himer? remember 28th June 2005?

know something....? the expected date of delivery for bb is 28th June 2006. That's why i say the revenge of himer. or should i say, what is yours is yours.

anyway, this morning when i woke up, i juz had a funny feeling about the date 28th June. cos according to my crude estimation, it should be due late june or early july. then the dat 28th June crept into my mind. 2866, nice number.

btw, my picanto is ready for collection tomorrow. *glowing with glee*

roaches part 2

this is it, i'm officially declaring war on the roaches in my house!

after buying those 'wipe out' thingy, placed them in the strategic locations in the kitchen. well, it kind of worked. roaches were less seen, except for one very bold one, which ventured out in broad daylight. but i killed that one by suffocating it wif insecticide.

that nite, think it's a fri or thurs nite, can't rem, in the room wif kids.... saw one roach scampering across the floor, that's it! ban m&m from eating food in the room while they are playng pc.

also on either of these nites, i found one roach in the bedroom.

the ultimate came this morning! i opened my wardrobe to get a dress and what did i see on the inside of one of the doors of the wardrobe???? A ROACH STARING AT ME! i didn't kill this one, i'm afraid of roaches.

so, i started devising schemes to rid the roaches.

1) buy more wipe out thingy to place in the rooms

2) check my maid's cabinet for food stuff tonite and in event if i found any, well, i'll definitely scold.

3) sprayed insecticide at all possible holes (what are those holes called which water seeped through)

4) i'll armed myself wif a slipper wherever i walked in the house, so that i can kill when spotting any roaches.

ok, so i repeat myself, i'm officially declaring war on roaches in my house.

pregnancy and constipation

(this is copied and pasted from my sis blog) sorry sis, never ask ur permission, but i really found this interesting. of course, edited to prevent uhmm, embarrassment and protect privacy.

hey.. just 2 cents worth of advice for people who suffer from constipation..natural delivery of child is the same as trying to do big biz with BAD constipation....often watch those movies.. where the gynae will go.. "breathe in.... and PUUUSSSHH...."? yup!! apply the SAME method to doing biz.. and i am sure everything will come out in a breeze!! why is constipation the same as pregnancy...?

1) u store the shit in there for 9 days (9 mths for a baby)
2) u feel the contractions coming and u know it's time to do it
3) the pain is so bad that you promise that's the last time you wanna go through something like that
4) u follow the die hard method of "breathe in... and PUSSSSSHHHH...."
5) u feel it coming out of you... sliding out...
6) u feel the satisfaction thereafterand the cycle repeats itself many times..

everytime you feel Point 6.. Point 3 becomes null and invalid...

(this is from me)
so for those people who do not go thru constipation, pls, i beg of u, pls, no natural birth.

It's not autism

found this on the website, need to find an explanation for my moodiness:

Withdraw From The World
This is nature's way of making us withdraw from the world. ‘You only need to look at what animals do and how they care for their young to understand why this happens,’ says Maryon. ‘It's normal to feel a strong urge to prepare for your baby.’

Wild Mood Swings
You may also find you get easily upset, particularly during the early stages of pregnancy. Don't worry. This is partly because pregnancy is such a major event in a woman's life, and partly due to a surge in your hormone levels that causes you to cry over little, unimportant things. And, of course, you may also be very tired, which can be quite enough to make you irritable and weepy.

ok, so much said. make some sense

kao, GAL

this is with regards to work, but i'll juz be very general here, i know there are spies reading blogs.

problems/issues happened, u were angry, fine, u made ur point, u got ur way. but honestly u were not very polite about it. anyway, u got ur way. that was yesterday. issue solved.

today.... must u bring it up again? must u go ard telling other people wat happen yesterday? Kao, GAL. dun dwell on yesterday, u won yesterday, so going ard to trumpet ur victory? when u talked to me juz now, i hope that u can see that i'm very disinterested in carrying on the conversation wif u. becos to me, the damn issue is over, then why bring it up again? the worse thing is u must go ard telling other people. pal, one advice (even tho u may not read it) GAL, MOVE ON!

final countdown?

ever had that strange feeling in the morn when u woke up that something big is going to happen today? well, i did, this morning. mentally preparing myself for that big showhand. in the mean time, i shall not think so much.

people say

some say i'm shutting up myself. i'm not replying emails, i'm not communicating. see, maybe they r right, i really cannot find the words to continue anymore. perhaps this is hidden autism, now developing.

some thought that i've a sickness, because i'm easily tired, always eat and sleep and then always feeling cold, even with juz the fan on, juz like a drug addict. Kao! pls..... yah, i'm addicted to sleep.

really can't continue anymore, i really can't find the words to communicate anymore.

movies and shows

watched channel U, 9pm show last nite. show about how this guy met into bad guys on a particular day and how he had to assist them in their bad doings. wat sets me thinking was, before this incident, he and his gf juz quarelled, they thought that each of them didn't do enuf for each other.

but in the end, he really loved her. he doesn't know how to swim, despite this, he dived down to save his gf who is in the car. after saving his gf, as he ran out of breath, he couldn't swim to the top. no matter how his gf pulled him, he juz couldn't move. worse still, the car crashed on his leg. anyway, in the end, he died. it was really a sad ending. why do they have to wait until they lose it then they know that they really loved each other?



this show is nice. juz felt that it is sad, when 2 people go thru so much, and in the end, when the lady woke up from her coma, she couldn't remember who he is... he had to walk away. well, luckily the show ended nicely.



this is another nice show. juz wondering wat if u know that ur life is going to end soon? andy lau who acted as the male lead, he was lucky to have a second chance. he was lucky to have met his wife a 2nd time (tho juz met her heart) he could make it up to her. but how many of us would be able to have this 2nd chance to make it up? how many of us would be able to have a 2nd chance to say 'i love u' again?

my mood swings

ok, i can feel that my hormones are changing, if u know wat i mean. one day i can be moody, another day i can be happy.

as for food, if i dun eat soon in the morning, i feel like throwing up. after eating, feels so bloated, can't even sit properly, it's like u can feel the bottom of ur stomach touching ur thighs, gross. any sitting position will result in backache after 30 mins, that's when u start fidgeting.

tired, i'm still easily tired. panting after climbing flights of steps.

wah

1) thanks to sis and adrian

2) everyone living on earth is somehow a hypocrite. everyone living on earth will bound to go thru ups and downs. well, juz so happen that i'm damn down now, so bug off, it's the best. i dun want to hurt anybody wif my moodiness, dun want to drag others down wif my moodiness. Juz leave me alone is the best.

i'm sick and tired

do not call me or sms becos i'm sick and tired of life.

1) i get tired easily. juz to show u how tired i can get, after dinner, 8 something, or 9pm. sat on sofa, watching tv, i can fall asleep unknowingly
2) in the afternoon, needed a nap so badly, put my head on the table, slept almost instantaneously from 2.48 - 3.00pm.
3) any position is horrible, whether sit, stand or lay down.
4) interests in many things were killed. no interest to log on to pc at home, no interest to continue my cross stitch, no interest to even touch my hp, no interest and no inspiration to take pictures.

but i still have to continue with work, with life. today is a long day from 6am-4pm. i'm dead tired. i dun feel like moving.

so dun sms me or call me, i will juz probably ignore the calls and sms.

sampan in the middle of the ocean

this analogy came to me suddenly:

i'm like a sampan in the middle of the ocean, suddenly this big wave came and turn me upside down. as i struggle to grasp the reality, struggle to turn my boat upright, i knew my destination, i knew i had to head for the shore. but i also knew that the journey will not be easy.

more thoughts

i suddenly remembered, for renovating for my new house, i got nothing from the family, only some designing help. company didn't help me to source for cheaper carpenters etc. all of u left the company becos of ur conflict wif ur brother. i had to depend on my own, and becos of that, i had to borrow for the renovation of my house. i'm still paying my ass off for the loans if u know.

stop asking me to go and buy condo. i don't have the money.

is it becos i've bought 2 new computers for m&m and i'm going to buy a new car that u have this kind of thinking? then wat abt cousin? when cousin bought a new car, didn't u also tell me to change a new car? her the other half gets to drive the company van back, while my the other half was working for the company, did he get this privilege? u want to dig out my past 30 years, then let me dig out the past 8 years since i got married.

when u wanted to go for tour, u ask us if we could subsidise, did we say no?

nvm, i'm angry now. i shan't say anymore.

i don't even know what title i should give this posting.

fell out wif mum. It's abt money matters, abt some family matters. (except for my dear sis, who will always be my sister and my friend, and of course her the other half, adrian) i had to walk off wif my family, i couldn't stay otherwise we would have definitely quarrel. i couldn't say that i'm officially through wif the family, juz that i've made up my mind, no more family gatherings for me for the time being. i've had enough of pretence, i've had enough of being hypocritical. yes, i'll stop going for family gatherings. if it's abt money matters, tell me, i'll return every single cent. (but honestly, i didn't receive any email) i hate people to accuse me. yah, u must have think that i'm very thick skin. but i'm not. if i would have known, i would not have gone to grandma's birthday celebration in the first place.

i'm not angry, i'm juz sad, cried all the way from amk to punggol. it hurts when it comes from ur mum. nvm, all the more now, i know that i'm alone. i've really decided that some family members cannot be depended on anymore. i have to stand on my own, no matter watever problems i have in the future. i know that now i only have m&m.

i'm officially stating here that i'll not be talking to my mum for the next few months, probably until next year.

Lashing out at xiaxue.blogspot.com

i actually didn't want to say anything. the newspaper report came out last week about her views on using handicapped toilet. this week, the report was how stubborn she was.

ok, what i was trying to say that u dun have to change ur views on using the handicapped toilet. u can still stick to ur views on using the handicapped toilet. but do u have to be so mean in ur comments towards these people? do u have to say things like, 'u only lose a leg but ur bladder is working fine.'? have u put yourself in their shoes? yes, so wat if their bladder is working well? have u considered their feelings that they had lose a leg? do u ever know the orderal they go thru? must u be so mean to add on to their wound? wat if u lose one leg and one hand? wat if u lose ur breast? how would u feel and then a young lady comes around and say something like 'u juz lose a breast, but ur bladder is working fine, isn't it?'

u can continue to use the handicapped toilet, wat the public is furious is your inconsiderate, stubborn, irresponsible and rude comments to the handicapped? juz becos u r able bodied and healthy and young, u think u can make these remarks? can someone pls knock some sense into this young lady? i couldn't even call u a lady, u r far too immature for that. grow up, kid.

rainy friday

thought i was over wif my negativity, but the week has to end on a rainy note. well, in one way it was good, like the cold weather, but in the morning, it was so chilly, esp after u walked to the bus stop without the umbrella and got some droplets of rain the body.

anyway, i have not told u abt the roaches in my kitchen. it has been some time that i observed that whenever i go to my kitchen in the night, there was bound to be one roach somewhere, not the big ones, but small, mini ones. as i was afraid of roaches, i usually avoid them or ignore them. the ultimate came when one night, i was in the kitchen, i saw 4 roaches! (mini ones) god, so the next night (why next night? becos my roach exterminator is not at home) i took the insecticide and sprayed at every possible corner i could lay my hands on. after that, u see these roaches all crawling out. i must have used half the bottle, poisoned them. anyway, roach exterminator came to the kitchen and helped to hit the roaches. on the first nite, at least 10 roaches.

on the 2nd nite, as i was walking to the kitchen, i saw this roach on the children's table which was outside the kitchen! ok, nvm, ignore them. the 2nd time, i saw the roach on the table, i knew i had to exterminate it.... so sprayed the hell out of the roach. again, roach exterminator came to collect the body. 2nd nite of mission, killed 2 rooches.

last nite, i had a dream abt roaches, big ones, in every corner of the house. had to sprayed them wif insecticide.

i will continue wif my 3rd nite of mission tonite.

dun ask me where these roaches come from, i'm as curious. we seldom cook.

anyway, irritated now becos stomach is bloated and i feel like puking. hate this feeling. think i'll go to the toilet to dig and puke it out, once and for all.

digital imaging

today's papers talk abt digital imaging, showed about 4 pictures, how acne can be removed, six packs added, breasts enhanced, flat hair became fuller hair, how the hair is tinged in colour, how facial fats can be reduced, how a nose can be sharpened. the images after editing certainly looks nice, of course, the person look so glamorous, so perfect.

but in reality, can we have such perfect person, wif a perfect complexion, wif a perfect figure? probably yes, u can say, some celebrity, one in particular i can think of, a taiwanese celebrity, but i'm not going to mention name here least i be sued. do you know the amount of $$ she has to spend on her body juz to look perfect? yes, no doubt, she looks good, great, every man's dream, but can we bring all these with us when we died? what becomes of you when u die? bones.... nobody will be able to see ur perfect body, nobody will be able to see ur big breasts, nobody will be able to see ur perfect complexion.

digital imaging juz brings the word hypocritical to a deeper level of meaning. maybe, perhaps, i'm saying all these to console myself that i cannot be the perfect one with the perfect figure, perfect complexion, juz let me be.... consolating myself

that's why taking pictures of nature is good. u capture it at its best. the pictures that i've shown so far, no enhancement. it is as raw as u see it. natural beauty.

sorry, i dunno what has come over me today, i juz feel so ..... well, juz sharing my feelings. people say blogging is for insecure people, probably... i'm for one who refuses to open my mouth to share my inner feelings, i guess blogging is an avenue for me to release my feelings. whether i'm insecure or not, that's for me to know, for u to find out. I AM ME!

my list

if nothing goes wrong, then i guess, by next jul or aug, i should have completed my list too