3rd day and i'm surviving
3rd day and i'm surviving the hectic-ness of work. work cannot finish.. hmm, funny, doesn't feel so uptight. juz let it be.... deadline... well, then see how i'll be dead.
my ears have been very itchy lately, dig ears also no ear wax.... funny....
i'm getting sleepy..... looks like 6 hours of sleep is not enuf for me.... think i'm getting lazy and fat, haha.... time to slim down....
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
Monday, September 26, 2005
what a crazy week this will be
juz to blog down for memories:
mon - staff contact time
tues - briefing at moe
thurs - department meeting
fri - another meeting
plus this week, extra classes every day becos the exams r next week. for those who know hougang will know wat i'm talking about, can't possibly blog it down here.
i dunno how i will die... or should i say survive.... let me see, should i die standing or die lying down or die sleeping? ha, juz for thoughts
juz to blog down for memories:
mon - staff contact time
tues - briefing at moe
thurs - department meeting
fri - another meeting
plus this week, extra classes every day becos the exams r next week. for those who know hougang will know wat i'm talking about, can't possibly blog it down here.
i dunno how i will die... or should i say survive.... let me see, should i die standing or die lying down or die sleeping? ha, juz for thoughts
Sunday, September 25, 2005
i dunno wat else i can say, wat else i can do.....i dunno y u suddenly like that.... wat have i done?
should we quarrel? should i juz keep quiet? i really dunno... it's getting harder and harder to communicate....
hope the pictures can mean something:
perhaps u r right, i will never be there for u, can never be here for u....
u and me... our similarities....
the memories
and most of all....
if all these mean nothing... or it's not enuf, then i dunno....
should we quarrel? should i juz keep quiet? i really dunno... it's getting harder and harder to communicate....
hope the pictures can mean something:
perhaps u r right, i will never be there for u, can never be here for u....
u and me... our similarities....
the memories
and most of all....
if all these mean nothing... or it's not enuf, then i dunno....
Thursday, September 22, 2005
wedding dinner
last nite went to an old fren's wedding dinner. it was a good time for old frens like us to gather. after so many years, funny, people change, (physically) feelings change (not young anymore), some people are not there anymore, some people have new people added.
as we were catching up wif old times, those people who juz joined in, (esp the new gfs or the new wives of some old frens) could not join into the conversation of our good old times.... for me, it was kind of sad that some people were not longer with our group. will i become one of these people someday?
anyway, M&M really enjoyed themselves at the wedding dinner. though they do not eat much, they have frens there to play wif them. to them, it was something new. and marcus totally enjoy the experience. he said it was great. for mabel, as usual, some of the old frens (guys) were 'smitten' by her. she was like smiling at them, looking so cute.
anyway, think this should be one of the last wedding dinner that we had to attend... unless (according to mr tan) i remarry again.
last nite went to an old fren's wedding dinner. it was a good time for old frens like us to gather. after so many years, funny, people change, (physically) feelings change (not young anymore), some people are not there anymore, some people have new people added.
as we were catching up wif old times, those people who juz joined in, (esp the new gfs or the new wives of some old frens) could not join into the conversation of our good old times.... for me, it was kind of sad that some people were not longer with our group. will i become one of these people someday?
anyway, M&M really enjoyed themselves at the wedding dinner. though they do not eat much, they have frens there to play wif them. to them, it was something new. and marcus totally enjoy the experience. he said it was great. for mabel, as usual, some of the old frens (guys) were 'smitten' by her. she was like smiling at them, looking so cute.
anyway, think this should be one of the last wedding dinner that we had to attend... unless (according to mr tan) i remarry again.
Monday, September 19, 2005
Words
sometimes, too much words cloud up the mind. too much words makes people confuse.
sometimes, it's best not to say too much, or better still, nothing at all. but u wanted me to speak.
juz thought of this song: When you say Nothing at all (Ronan Keating). here's the lyrics.
It's amazing how you speak right to my heart ,
With out saying a word you could light up the dark ,
Try as i may i could never explain,
What i hear when i don't say a thing .
Chorus:-The smile on your face let me knowthat you need me ,
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me ,
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever i fall ,
You say it best when you say nothing at all ,
All day long i can hear people talking aloud ,
But when you hold me near ,
You drown out the crowd ,
Try as they may ,They could never define,
What's being said between your heart and mine
yah, i say it best, when i say nothing at all... cos words hurt. words can be inferred wrongly. but i guess again, actions... guess i've failed in this part too. forget it, the hurt has been done, nothing i say or nothing i do will be able to change anything, so wtf am i saying here?
juz some songs lyrics i saw...
Ronan Keating - Lost For Words
If I can't find the words...
Waiting for this feeling
That I'm drowning in to subside
You make me swim like a beginner
Like I'm new at life
All these words don't come easy
No they always seem to stop
There is awkward silence yeah
Anytime we talk
Oh but I wanna let it in
I wanna ease all your doubts
I keep trying to get it out
But if I can't find the words
To tell you what I'm feeling
Baby that don't mean
It don't mean that I don't feel it
I'm trying to tell you girl
But if you don't believe just look and see
My face says what you mean to me
When I can't find the words
I know I can send you flowers
To try to make my feelings clear
And girl I could hold you tight for hours
I wanna tell you what you're trying to hear
But I know sometimes I leave you so upset
Cos I got all these bits and pieces in my head
I know because I let you struggle with the things I haven't said
But if you don't believe just look and see
My smile says what you mean to me
When I can't find the words I
f I can't find the words
sometimes, too much words cloud up the mind. too much words makes people confuse.
sometimes, it's best not to say too much, or better still, nothing at all. but u wanted me to speak.
juz thought of this song: When you say Nothing at all (Ronan Keating). here's the lyrics.
It's amazing how you speak right to my heart ,
With out saying a word you could light up the dark ,
Try as i may i could never explain,
What i hear when i don't say a thing .
Chorus:-The smile on your face let me knowthat you need me ,
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me ,
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever i fall ,
You say it best when you say nothing at all ,
All day long i can hear people talking aloud ,
But when you hold me near ,
You drown out the crowd ,
Try as they may ,They could never define,
What's being said between your heart and mine
yah, i say it best, when i say nothing at all... cos words hurt. words can be inferred wrongly. but i guess again, actions... guess i've failed in this part too. forget it, the hurt has been done, nothing i say or nothing i do will be able to change anything, so wtf am i saying here?
juz some songs lyrics i saw...
Ronan Keating - Lost For Words
If I can't find the words...
Waiting for this feeling
That I'm drowning in to subside
You make me swim like a beginner
Like I'm new at life
All these words don't come easy
No they always seem to stop
There is awkward silence yeah
Anytime we talk
Oh but I wanna let it in
I wanna ease all your doubts
I keep trying to get it out
But if I can't find the words
To tell you what I'm feeling
Baby that don't mean
It don't mean that I don't feel it
I'm trying to tell you girl
But if you don't believe just look and see
My face says what you mean to me
When I can't find the words
I know I can send you flowers
To try to make my feelings clear
And girl I could hold you tight for hours
I wanna tell you what you're trying to hear
But I know sometimes I leave you so upset
Cos I got all these bits and pieces in my head
I know because I let you struggle with the things I haven't said
But if you don't believe just look and see
My smile says what you mean to me
When I can't find the words I
f I can't find the words
my weekend
weekend was good, i really had a good sleep, slept soundly
on sat nite, brought them to in laws' place. some RC event of taking lantern. well, receive the gift pack and of course, lantern for the children. all were present. went down to the coffeeshop to have dinner, juz as we were about to order our food, black out in the coffeeshop. it was a whole 10 mins before the lights came back. one big table, about 12-13 of us. well, glad that in laws are happy.
then on sun nite, it was my house. my mum, grandma and aunties came to my house for dinner. after cooking, we brought the food down to the roof top garden to have our dinner there. my sis, my children and her bf actually decorated the little pavilion, it was a great feeling, all sitting round the table and eating and catching up on old times. din realise i ate so many pieces of mooncake. so full after that.
well, they say after mid-autumn festival, it signals the end of summer and the beginning of autumn. autumn signals a time where all things should come to an end, juz like the leaves falling... juz gives a sad mood to everything. but i guess it's also a season where people grow up and become more mature. that's autumn.
on sat nite, brought them to in laws' place. some RC event of taking lantern. well, receive the gift pack and of course, lantern for the children. all were present. went down to the coffeeshop to have dinner, juz as we were about to order our food, black out in the coffeeshop. it was a whole 10 mins before the lights came back. one big table, about 12-13 of us. well, glad that in laws are happy.
then on sun nite, it was my house. my mum, grandma and aunties came to my house for dinner. after cooking, we brought the food down to the roof top garden to have our dinner there. my sis, my children and her bf actually decorated the little pavilion, it was a great feeling, all sitting round the table and eating and catching up on old times. din realise i ate so many pieces of mooncake. so full after that.
well, they say after mid-autumn festival, it signals the end of summer and the beginning of autumn. autumn signals a time where all things should come to an end, juz like the leaves falling... juz gives a sad mood to everything. but i guess it's also a season where people grow up and become more mature. that's autumn.
Friday, September 16, 2005
powerful words on love
was juz scratching my head what to write for my blog, then someone shared with me some quotes, quite like a few, putting them here for everyone to see.
Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.
Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry? (This one cheem, takes me sometime to realise and understand)
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else. (wah, this one read liao, heart pain)
Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end.
If u love something...let it go. If it comes back to you its yours.... If it doesn't then it never was. (classic quote)
A kiss is just a kiss until u find the one you love. A hug is just a hug until its from the one ur thinking of. A dream is just a dream until u make it come true. LOVE is just a word until its proven to you. (how true!)
To realize The value of a sister: Ask someone Who doesn't have one.
To realize The value of ten years: Ask a newly Divorced couple. (i like this)
To realize The value of four years: Ask a graduate. (very true!)
To realize The value of one year: Ask a student who Has failed a final exam. (especially true!)
To realize The value of nine months: Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.
To realize The value of one month: Ask a mother who has given birth to A premature baby.
To realize The value of one week: Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realize The value of one hour: Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet. (true)
To realize The value of one minute: Ask a person Who has missed the train, bus or plane.
To realize The value of one-second: Ask a person Who has survived an accident (very true)
To realize The value of one millisecond: Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics
have fun pondering over these quotes!
was juz scratching my head what to write for my blog, then someone shared with me some quotes, quite like a few, putting them here for everyone to see.
Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.
Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry? (This one cheem, takes me sometime to realise and understand)
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else. (wah, this one read liao, heart pain)
Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end.
If u love something...let it go. If it comes back to you its yours.... If it doesn't then it never was. (classic quote)
A kiss is just a kiss until u find the one you love. A hug is just a hug until its from the one ur thinking of. A dream is just a dream until u make it come true. LOVE is just a word until its proven to you. (how true!)
To realize The value of a sister: Ask someone Who doesn't have one.
To realize The value of ten years: Ask a newly Divorced couple. (i like this)
To realize The value of four years: Ask a graduate. (very true!)
To realize The value of one year: Ask a student who Has failed a final exam. (especially true!)
To realize The value of nine months: Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.
To realize The value of one month: Ask a mother who has given birth to A premature baby.
To realize The value of one week: Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realize The value of one hour: Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet. (true)
To realize The value of one minute: Ask a person Who has missed the train, bus or plane.
To realize The value of one-second: Ask a person Who has survived an accident (very true)
To realize The value of one millisecond: Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics
have fun pondering over these quotes!
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
picture paints a thousand words
some pics which i took, in my ipaq for a very long time... today manage to transfer them to pc, so i thought i might as well put it in the blog. some of them are taken from else where which i found interesting
some scenary pictures:
water water everywhere
this was fun:
aeroplane...
My favourite two pics which i took:
some pics which i took, in my ipaq for a very long time... today manage to transfer them to pc, so i thought i might as well put it in the blog. some of them are taken from else where which i found interesting
some scenary pictures:
water water everywhere
this was fun:
aeroplane...
My favourite two pics which i took:
new haircut
yesterday... went for a hair cut... thanks to one student, XF, who keep calling me, mrs old lady wif split ends hair... actually it's not really the student's comment that made me go and cut my hair, i think my haircut is long overdue. When i told the hairdresser that the last time i had a hair cut was last Dec, he was like in total disbelief.
post mortem: guess it's good... makes me feel lighter... kind of like lessening the burden that i've been carrying for the past few months.
met YY on the way back... on the escalator... weird place to meet her... weird because i was coming down the escalator and she was juz about to go up the escalator....she was wif Siling... Siling showed me her baby's picture... Siling, your bb is chubby and very cute, happy motherhood!
we didn't talk long as we were standing there.... that makes me think of catching up wif old friends... to BH's the other significant half... pls tell BH that i miss her, miss as in catching up wif her and YY. today is 13th Sept and 13 is wat links us together.
yesterday... went for a hair cut... thanks to one student, XF, who keep calling me, mrs old lady wif split ends hair... actually it's not really the student's comment that made me go and cut my hair, i think my haircut is long overdue. When i told the hairdresser that the last time i had a hair cut was last Dec, he was like in total disbelief.
post mortem: guess it's good... makes me feel lighter... kind of like lessening the burden that i've been carrying for the past few months.
met YY on the way back... on the escalator... weird place to meet her... weird because i was coming down the escalator and she was juz about to go up the escalator....she was wif Siling... Siling showed me her baby's picture... Siling, your bb is chubby and very cute, happy motherhood!
we didn't talk long as we were standing there.... that makes me think of catching up wif old friends... to BH's the other significant half... pls tell BH that i miss her, miss as in catching up wif her and YY. today is 13th Sept and 13 is wat links us together.
Monday, September 12, 2005
Thursday, September 08, 2005
cd rom
marcus and mabel was given 2 cd roms on monday. since then, they have been playing the cd rom. On monday nite, marcus actually didn't want to sleep and we have to force him to sleep. Then on tuesday, marcus was playing the cd rom, he actually high tide, he was standing up and standing very uncomfortably, but he didn't go to the toilet, had to stop him also.
on wed, he started playing the cd rom at 4 something in the afternoon, only until 10 something at nite, then he said he dun want to play already... of course, in between there were toilet breaks, dinner break and sometimes, it was mabel's turn to play.
more thoughts on masters
it's easy to decide, go for masters. why not? it's also easy for people to tell me to go for it. of course, it's easy to say, but do u know how frightening it is before u commit to it? when u go for it, do u know how many things it implies and implicates? ok, that aside, wat about balancing watever u have now? who can help u when u feel stressed abt not balancing well? all people can do is to offer their 'condolenses' and encouragement... u still had to take the shit yourself.
marcus and mabel was given 2 cd roms on monday. since then, they have been playing the cd rom. On monday nite, marcus actually didn't want to sleep and we have to force him to sleep. Then on tuesday, marcus was playing the cd rom, he actually high tide, he was standing up and standing very uncomfortably, but he didn't go to the toilet, had to stop him also.
on wed, he started playing the cd rom at 4 something in the afternoon, only until 10 something at nite, then he said he dun want to play already... of course, in between there were toilet breaks, dinner break and sometimes, it was mabel's turn to play.
more thoughts on masters
it's easy to decide, go for masters. why not? it's also easy for people to tell me to go for it. of course, it's easy to say, but do u know how frightening it is before u commit to it? when u go for it, do u know how many things it implies and implicates? ok, that aside, wat about balancing watever u have now? who can help u when u feel stressed abt not balancing well? all people can do is to offer their 'condolenses' and encouragement... u still had to take the shit yourself.
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Happy anniversary
realise that soon, my blog is 1 year old. i've started writing my blog since last september... time passes so fast and it gets faster as u grow older.
no anniversary special.... no time to think also, mentally exhaustive after the n level SS paper. well, even tho it's not me who take the paper, but the worry for the students, enough to kill me...
anyway, come to a cross junction of my life again... i'm not sure if i want to pursue my Masters or not... seems attractive to pursue my Masters, not so worried about the timing of the class and that i can't absorb... i felt that it's good to learn more... wat i worried is... if i pursue my Masters next year, that means that it will clash wif my intention of quitting the job after my bond.... i have to tread carefully, but i've only up to Sept 30 to consider, cos it's the deadline for signing up the modules.
realise that soon, my blog is 1 year old. i've started writing my blog since last september... time passes so fast and it gets faster as u grow older.
no anniversary special.... no time to think also, mentally exhaustive after the n level SS paper. well, even tho it's not me who take the paper, but the worry for the students, enough to kill me...
anyway, come to a cross junction of my life again... i'm not sure if i want to pursue my Masters or not... seems attractive to pursue my Masters, not so worried about the timing of the class and that i can't absorb... i felt that it's good to learn more... wat i worried is... if i pursue my Masters next year, that means that it will clash wif my intention of quitting the job after my bond.... i have to tread carefully, but i've only up to Sept 30 to consider, cos it's the deadline for signing up the modules.
Friday, September 02, 2005
channel 8 9pm show
was watching this show, quite enjoyed the show. talks about child birth.....
a) a lady, married, old, trying hard to get pregnant, pressured by herself, her past abortion and her mil to get pregnant... then the usual thing abt going to doc to check up, bringing the husband to check up as well....
b) another lady, single, get herself pregnant, talk abt unwed mother.
c) this one really got me... career minded woman... already had a daughter (btw, the gal who acted in this character, she's good....) never spend enuf time wif her family, work first. well, i'm not that career minded as her, but i certainly didn't spend enuf quality time wif my family.
last nite's episode, she was deciding whether to abort her 2nd child or not.... (touch my heart) then she finally decided not to....
but last nite's episode, she and her husband has got a misunderstanding. they would be going thru the divorce and probably fight for the custody of their only daughter..... i was juz thinking, she should have let the husband have the custody of the daughter since she has already decided to keep the 2nd one.
this touch my heart. becos maybe it's the little gal's acting... she cried and drew nice pictures of her family. mayb i couldn't bear to see her cry, cos i will not be able to take it if m&m does the same thing too.... but i think this is quite true in Singapore's context today... how many young children have cried over broken families/broken homes? we never know how much impact or how affected children are over these things.....
was watching this show, quite enjoyed the show. talks about child birth.....
a) a lady, married, old, trying hard to get pregnant, pressured by herself, her past abortion and her mil to get pregnant... then the usual thing abt going to doc to check up, bringing the husband to check up as well....
b) another lady, single, get herself pregnant, talk abt unwed mother.
c) this one really got me... career minded woman... already had a daughter (btw, the gal who acted in this character, she's good....) never spend enuf time wif her family, work first. well, i'm not that career minded as her, but i certainly didn't spend enuf quality time wif my family.
last nite's episode, she was deciding whether to abort her 2nd child or not.... (touch my heart) then she finally decided not to....
but last nite's episode, she and her husband has got a misunderstanding. they would be going thru the divorce and probably fight for the custody of their only daughter..... i was juz thinking, she should have let the husband have the custody of the daughter since she has already decided to keep the 2nd one.
this touch my heart. becos maybe it's the little gal's acting... she cried and drew nice pictures of her family. mayb i couldn't bear to see her cry, cos i will not be able to take it if m&m does the same thing too.... but i think this is quite true in Singapore's context today... how many young children have cried over broken families/broken homes? we never know how much impact or how affected children are over these things.....
Thursday, September 01, 2005
so cold
i could feel it was cold, i could feel it between us... it's like an invisible berlin wall, freezing me....
i could see it in your eyes.... the wave of cold air seems to have been dispersed from your eyes and sent a chill down my spine. It freezes my heart so much that it broke the heart.
i know there is nothing i can say or do... yes, i know u have the right to be angry... i know the song that u played was meant for me, was meant to scold me....
but i do not know what u mean by 'you've had your run and you have to go home'
i could feel it was cold, i could feel it between us... it's like an invisible berlin wall, freezing me....
i could see it in your eyes.... the wave of cold air seems to have been dispersed from your eyes and sent a chill down my spine. It freezes my heart so much that it broke the heart.
i know there is nothing i can say or do... yes, i know u have the right to be angry... i know the song that u played was meant for me, was meant to scold me....
but i do not know what u mean by 'you've had your run and you have to go home'
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