juz did some tests from tickle... guess wat, my zodiac sign should be scorpio.... hmmm, in the midst of doing another test now.... romantic fantasy
sandra, it looks like your romantic fantasy is the Breakfast in Bed
There are few things better than waking up to the smell of hot coffee and sizzling bacon, especially when it's right under your nose. Ahh, breakfast in bed. It's more intimate than a candlelit dinner, yet as comfortable as an old pair of slippers.Trusty sweethearts and reliable soul mates are the men of your dreams, not mysterious strangers from foreign lands. Whether it's cuddling next to a roaring fire, feeding each other pizza straight from the box, or gazing at the stars, your fantasy doesn't need to venture too far from reality. And that's cozy.
dun understand the results????
another test result:
sandra, your celeb look is inspired by Christie Brinkley
Even if your face hasn't graced the covers of magazines the world over just yet, you share this beauty icon's effortless sense of style. Like your gorgeous and radiant counterpart, you're probably known for having timeless look that never goes out of fashion.A natural beauty, you seem to understand that having a healthy body and bright smile is always in fashion. That's why you'd rather be well dressed in a way that isn't trendy or over the top. Leave the flashy glamour to other folks. You create a look that makes people focus on you and your natural assets. Keep it up!
ha, not much natural assets to boast of....
another test:
sandra, the recurrent theme of your dream life is Mastery
You're dreaming about maximizing opportunities and achieving well-deserved success. This means that in some area of your waking life, you are adequately prepared and things are working out just the way you want.
last test:
sandra, a Classic look will make you picture perfect
Fur-trimmed sweaters, afghan-like ponchos, or sky-high stiletto boots? No thanks. Your secret to photogenic perfection this holiday season will involve sticking to the basics. Simple yet elegant is your motto. And really, why waste time — or a paycheck — on fleeting trends?Cool and classic, you look forward to the fun and traditions that the holidays bring. Whether you host the seasonal gatherings or attend as many as you can, you find a way to put people at ease and make them feel welcome. 'Tis the season!
ok, it's back to work, enough of idling..
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
fear
today, was on the topic of fear. talking about how old people, or my mum's generation fear death. as we are talking, i was trying to figure out why do these people fear death. well, of course, i've formed my own explanation. then i went to OSHO to check out dec 06 issue, wola, there is an article on 'fear' and i read it, and guess wat...
an extract from the article:
You have fear -- don't ask why; just look into the fear, go into it, watch. Don't be in a hurry to analyse, to explain, to interpret, because if you bring in your interpretations, your explanations, the purity of the fear will be lost; you will start molding it into certain patterns, to fit into certain theories. You will start giving it shape and form and labels. You will start distorting it -- it will no more be the natural, wild phenomenon that it was. You will start training it, conditioning it, and sooner or later it has to agree with you -- it is your fear. It is your shadow; it is bound to agree with you. But you have destroyed a beautiful experience that may have led you into new spaces.
Let this fear which has no object become the object itself. Don't ask why -- why you are afraid. This is a wrong question. Ask 'What is this fear?' Ask what it is not to find an explanation but to go deep in it: What is this fear? 'What' is the right question.
wah, my first reaction was to ask the question 'why?' hmmm, see what i mean by this person's article is always giving me new perspective to how i myself look at things.
http://www.oshoworld.com/onlinemag/dec06/htm/osho_speaks_fear.asp#
this is where this article is located. for those who are interested, can go read it up. but warning, he has a totally radical view, about using this experience as meditation, then when you experience, you will be able to transcend, feel peace... etc. go read it, dun judge.
today, was on the topic of fear. talking about how old people, or my mum's generation fear death. as we are talking, i was trying to figure out why do these people fear death. well, of course, i've formed my own explanation. then i went to OSHO to check out dec 06 issue, wola, there is an article on 'fear' and i read it, and guess wat...
an extract from the article:
You have fear -- don't ask why; just look into the fear, go into it, watch. Don't be in a hurry to analyse, to explain, to interpret, because if you bring in your interpretations, your explanations, the purity of the fear will be lost; you will start molding it into certain patterns, to fit into certain theories. You will start giving it shape and form and labels. You will start distorting it -- it will no more be the natural, wild phenomenon that it was. You will start training it, conditioning it, and sooner or later it has to agree with you -- it is your fear. It is your shadow; it is bound to agree with you. But you have destroyed a beautiful experience that may have led you into new spaces.
Let this fear which has no object become the object itself. Don't ask why -- why you are afraid. This is a wrong question. Ask 'What is this fear?' Ask what it is not to find an explanation but to go deep in it: What is this fear? 'What' is the right question.
wah, my first reaction was to ask the question 'why?' hmmm, see what i mean by this person's article is always giving me new perspective to how i myself look at things.
http://www.oshoworld.com/onlinemag/dec06/htm/osho_speaks_fear.asp#
this is where this article is located. for those who are interested, can go read it up. but warning, he has a totally radical view, about using this experience as meditation, then when you experience, you will be able to transcend, feel peace... etc. go read it, dun judge.
there are a few things i want to update, melbourne trip and max's photos. but i need to find time for it. now mabel is looking at me, looking at the pc screen and waiting for me to do colouring with her. wah, she really can give me pressure. as i'm typing, she is saying, 'so long...' and i haven't bathe yet! i think i need 48 hours a day.
i'm fat
recently read the newspaper.... a young gal in her early twenties, she is 1.65m tall, (that is about the same height as me) she used to be 55kg, but she still go for SLIMMING AND SHE IS NOW 49KG. she says she feels fat at 55kg. then ivy lee, she is 1.66m tall and she is 48KG. now, talk about feeling fat, i'm feeling extremely OBESE!!!!!! wtf! sorry, juz piss....
another pissy thingy... when it's raining, even though it's in the afternoon, but why can't some of the cars turn on their god damn headlight??!!?? dun they know anything about safety??? or are they trying to conserve electricity? (what a laugh!) then if i signal and cut into your lane in front of u, dun u dare horn at me, cos i can't god damn see ur car at all in the pouring rain without your headlights turned on.
recently read the newspaper.... a young gal in her early twenties, she is 1.65m tall, (that is about the same height as me) she used to be 55kg, but she still go for SLIMMING AND SHE IS NOW 49KG. she says she feels fat at 55kg. then ivy lee, she is 1.66m tall and she is 48KG. now, talk about feeling fat, i'm feeling extremely OBESE!!!!!! wtf! sorry, juz piss....
another pissy thingy... when it's raining, even though it's in the afternoon, but why can't some of the cars turn on their god damn headlight??!!?? dun they know anything about safety??? or are they trying to conserve electricity? (what a laugh!) then if i signal and cut into your lane in front of u, dun u dare horn at me, cos i can't god damn see ur car at all in the pouring rain without your headlights turned on.
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Rainy morning
it's been raining these past few days. mood was slightly dampened by the wet weather. looking at the mood face picture i printed, trying to find an adjective for my mood. can find only 2, frus and depress.
whenever things happen or most things will have 2 sides. Was thinking of the forest fires in Melbourne when i started this paragraph. In Australia, they were lamenting on the dry weather and trying to conserve water. They would love to have the weather we had for the past few days, downpour, non-stop for 3 days. only downpouring for a few days will bring some relief to the water supply shortage. Over here, some were lamenting on the inconveniences of rain, not getting to work on time, those without sheltered carpark have a problem of getting everyone into the car esp if u are carrying a baby, some (housewives, i think) will be lamenting that the laundry is wet and damp, no sun... well, the list goes on. i was careful not to complain out loud about the inconveniences of the rain when i thought of in other country, they would die for a rainfall to occur. reminded marcus and mabel also, how cooling the weather is these few days that they had to wear a jacket, something they do when they were in Perth last winter.
the other thing i wanted to share here was, found out a website. www.oshoworld.com some spiritual guy who believes in shedding your past, who believes in people should be able to do what they enjoy doing and not what others wanted them to do, who believes in meditation (there are a whole list of meditation techniques listed on this website). word of caution - he's a radical thinker, maybe some may feel that his thinking too extreme. he may say things like 'religion in itself is a mistake' if i remember correctly. that was the heading, eye-catching, but i didn't get to read the whole article. so for those who wants to read his articles, remember to keep an open mind and take it with a pinch of salt if u disagree with his thinking.
i read a few of his articles. after two articles, too heavy going for me. but i kind of like welcome his perspectives into issues. yah, that's how i approach his articles, to help me gain another perspective into issues.
ok, i guess i'll stop here. not advertising for his website, juz my thoughts for the day, oops, i mean morning.
it's been raining these past few days. mood was slightly dampened by the wet weather. looking at the mood face picture i printed, trying to find an adjective for my mood. can find only 2, frus and depress.
whenever things happen or most things will have 2 sides. Was thinking of the forest fires in Melbourne when i started this paragraph. In Australia, they were lamenting on the dry weather and trying to conserve water. They would love to have the weather we had for the past few days, downpour, non-stop for 3 days. only downpouring for a few days will bring some relief to the water supply shortage. Over here, some were lamenting on the inconveniences of rain, not getting to work on time, those without sheltered carpark have a problem of getting everyone into the car esp if u are carrying a baby, some (housewives, i think) will be lamenting that the laundry is wet and damp, no sun... well, the list goes on. i was careful not to complain out loud about the inconveniences of the rain when i thought of in other country, they would die for a rainfall to occur. reminded marcus and mabel also, how cooling the weather is these few days that they had to wear a jacket, something they do when they were in Perth last winter.
the other thing i wanted to share here was, found out a website. www.oshoworld.com some spiritual guy who believes in shedding your past, who believes in people should be able to do what they enjoy doing and not what others wanted them to do, who believes in meditation (there are a whole list of meditation techniques listed on this website). word of caution - he's a radical thinker, maybe some may feel that his thinking too extreme. he may say things like 'religion in itself is a mistake' if i remember correctly. that was the heading, eye-catching, but i didn't get to read the whole article. so for those who wants to read his articles, remember to keep an open mind and take it with a pinch of salt if u disagree with his thinking.
i read a few of his articles. after two articles, too heavy going for me. but i kind of like welcome his perspectives into issues. yah, that's how i approach his articles, to help me gain another perspective into issues.
ok, i guess i'll stop here. not advertising for his website, juz my thoughts for the day, oops, i mean morning.
Thursday, December 14, 2006
i'll update about the melbourne trip when i've collated my photos. My set of photos are ready... juz that a colleague is helping collating the pics, so when i have the cd of pics, then i'll update about the trip.
in the meantime, now starting up my engine slowly in view of the new school year. imagine, next month this time, i'll be so busy in school and school has probably started into its 3rd week. gosh, as u grow older, time passes by faster.
juz bought a princess magazine and spongbob magazine for the eldest 2M at the 7-11 store. for max, think i'll get him a walker. and i have not bought the 2M's textbooks. bad mummy, not excited about their new school year, setting bad example. honestly, i dreaded marcus to go to P1, he will lose his childhood soon. so sad for him. i really hope he learns well and able to survive and cope with the demands of education. Of course, i'll guide him, being an educator myself, but i'm afraid that i go overboard.
nvm, we'll all take one step at a time.
in the meantime, now starting up my engine slowly in view of the new school year. imagine, next month this time, i'll be so busy in school and school has probably started into its 3rd week. gosh, as u grow older, time passes by faster.
juz bought a princess magazine and spongbob magazine for the eldest 2M at the 7-11 store. for max, think i'll get him a walker. and i have not bought the 2M's textbooks. bad mummy, not excited about their new school year, setting bad example. honestly, i dreaded marcus to go to P1, he will lose his childhood soon. so sad for him. i really hope he learns well and able to survive and cope with the demands of education. Of course, i'll guide him, being an educator myself, but i'm afraid that i go overboard.
nvm, we'll all take one step at a time.
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Monday, November 27, 2006
flying off to melbourne tomorrow, sunday then come back. in a way looking forward to it, in a way not looking forward to it. well, it's a holiday, but it's not with family kind of holiday. i'll juz go with an open mind and learn and see new things. and of course, i'm going to take lots of pictures.
and I'm FAT!!!
and I'm FAT!!!
Thursday, November 23, 2006
no updates, because guess no mood, no inspiration. but honestly i was about to update.
attending this 3 full day workshop seminar. it's really good, although it teaches us how to teach our students, but the trainer puts it in such a way that we go through the activities ourselves and through it, i actually learn a lot of myself.
like yesterday we examine values. it was really hard to sort out 89 values into 'not impt', 'impt' and 'very impt'. then from the 'very impt' had to choose 3 values that holds dear to our hearts, wow, tough decision. but it forces me to think about my values.
then today learn about emotions/feelings. how emotions can affect our behaviour and actions, how our perceptions affect our emotions, how our past experiences shape our perceptions. it's really interesting and helps me to put all these in place. it really help me to gain new perspective into myself and relationships with people. i hope this inspiration stays with me... i tend to feel passionate only for the week... then next week, i tend to forget what i have learnt.
tomorrow is the last day of the seminar. looking forward to it thought it's tiring.
attending this 3 full day workshop seminar. it's really good, although it teaches us how to teach our students, but the trainer puts it in such a way that we go through the activities ourselves and through it, i actually learn a lot of myself.
like yesterday we examine values. it was really hard to sort out 89 values into 'not impt', 'impt' and 'very impt'. then from the 'very impt' had to choose 3 values that holds dear to our hearts, wow, tough decision. but it forces me to think about my values.
then today learn about emotions/feelings. how emotions can affect our behaviour and actions, how our perceptions affect our emotions, how our past experiences shape our perceptions. it's really interesting and helps me to put all these in place. it really help me to gain new perspective into myself and relationships with people. i hope this inspiration stays with me... i tend to feel passionate only for the week... then next week, i tend to forget what i have learnt.
tomorrow is the last day of the seminar. looking forward to it thought it's tiring.
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Monday, November 13, 2006
heartless
well, if anybody is interested to know my caption in MSN 'men are heartless, i must guard my heart.'
i know many will not agree with me, but things have had happened and it reinforce this thinking. even as i look at my son now, heartless. not appreciative of the efforts. I was juz thinking, next time when both of the sons grow up, they will set up their own family, their heart will only have their wives and not their mother, so i must bear this in mind. Maybe it's juz man's nature. To my husband, he doesn't see anything wrong with son not showing any care and concern or not appreciative. To my husband, as long as both sons grow up well and not kill or rob, have the necessary skills to survive in the society out there, he is fine whether sons appreciate efforts or not. It is juz woman's nature to take matters to heart.
Maybe this part i have to learn from men. i have to learn to let go of certain things. i must learn to detach myself from issues and sees things clearly. i must stop my daydreaming. if there is next life, next life i want to be a man.
Men are heartless, women must guard our hearts.
well, if anybody is interested to know my caption in MSN 'men are heartless, i must guard my heart.'
i know many will not agree with me, but things have had happened and it reinforce this thinking. even as i look at my son now, heartless. not appreciative of the efforts. I was juz thinking, next time when both of the sons grow up, they will set up their own family, their heart will only have their wives and not their mother, so i must bear this in mind. Maybe it's juz man's nature. To my husband, he doesn't see anything wrong with son not showing any care and concern or not appreciative. To my husband, as long as both sons grow up well and not kill or rob, have the necessary skills to survive in the society out there, he is fine whether sons appreciate efforts or not. It is juz woman's nature to take matters to heart.
Maybe this part i have to learn from men. i have to learn to let go of certain things. i must learn to detach myself from issues and sees things clearly. i must stop my daydreaming. if there is next life, next life i want to be a man.
Men are heartless, women must guard our hearts.
Sunday, November 05, 2006
son son is so cute nowadays. and he is getting cheeky. my heart melts.
now he knows how to pretend to cry, trying very hard to force out his tears, then when u look at him, his cries instantly turns to a big smile. very cheeky boy.
and he is very very talkative. he grumbles so much juz before he sleeps, juz like complaining to me like that, sometimes he even grumbles with his eyes close. eyes shut, but the mouth juz goes on grumbling. had to 'sh' him to sleep.
he's my precious little gem, really love him
now he knows how to pretend to cry, trying very hard to force out his tears, then when u look at him, his cries instantly turns to a big smile. very cheeky boy.
and he is very very talkative. he grumbles so much juz before he sleeps, juz like complaining to me like that, sometimes he even grumbles with his eyes close. eyes shut, but the mouth juz goes on grumbling. had to 'sh' him to sleep.
he's my precious little gem, really love him
Monday, October 30, 2006
got this from another blog about Gemini woman:
GEMINI WOMAN
A good looking woman with brains, a very interesting person. She has a fast movement and she could not sit still or stand still long. She is able to do many things at the same time and do it fast.
yeah, i could agree with that, i could not sit or stand still long, i think i can multi task.
If you date her, you will feel like dating many women at the same time. You can not tie her down with the word "Love" because she cares about love but is it not a major factor of her life. You have to be able to adjust yourself to get along with her many different characters. She is a dreamer and has many dreams. She eager to learn something new all the time. Even she is the 2 in 1 mixed character type, she is quite lucky in love. You have to put all your efforts to win her affection. Even when she likes you and wonder about your wit, she will also see and inspect your bad side at the same time, because it is in her nature.
hmmm, am i that difficult in love? i dunno. A dreamer? well, maybe, who doesn't have dreams? Quite lucky in love? probably. to win my affection? hmm, i dunno.
She able to keep all kinds of mixed emotions without annoying you or letting you know at all. She can cheer you up by acting like a free little bird. Her conversation will not bored you. She able to talk to you in any subjects. She can make you feel like you are the luckiest man alive. She can make you feel like she needs all your care, but once she needs to stand alone, she can stand alone firmly an comfortably. She can be your best buddy and talk to you about anything. She can join all your activities with the same energy that you have.
yeah, that i can agree with, i can keep my emotions quite well. and that part about standing alone, yeah, i think i can stand alone firmly and comfortably, if i needed the quiet time alone.
She is a quick wit person and learn new things very fast. She can see your projects and she can give you good advice. If she thinks you are not sure that you want her for yourself, she will act like your best friend only, a cool woman. She can easily make a guy fall in love with her. Her multiple changes and many moods is a "Charm" for many men. She can be laughing for 2 minutes and later suddenly quiet. She wants to find only 1 true love and she wants to meet her dream guy. She expects a lot and nearly too much. She is constantly waiting for her knight shinning armor even she is with a steady boy friend. She can fall in love or fond of someone else while she is with you. If you break up with her, she will forget you quite fast, because change is in her nature. The Gemini woman breaks more heart than woman in other Zodiac. Because she is a dreamer and always waiting for her knight shinning armor ,so her love life can be complex ! or a mess.
wah, was my love life in a mess? did i break many hearts? i dunno. am i still waiting for my knight in shining armour? i dunno. (hehe, only i know the answer in my heart, but i think i'm not very prepared to share it here)
She hates to write a long letter, so if you write her a letter and expect a prompt reply, forget it.
Because she has a multiple personality and multiple ideas, so she hates to put them down in written proof. Because she knows what she belief today can be different tomorrow.
that part about the long letter is not true, i do enjoy receiving emails and letters. but i strongly believe the last sentence, what i believe today can be different tomorrow.
She could communication with more than 1 languages , a real gifted linguistic.
no, not true, i'm horrible at languages. prob only EL and CL.
If she wants to tell you any bad comments, she won't say it straight away, but she will talk to you about many other things and accidentally come to that subject without offending you. Normally she will not lie.
yeah, that's true, when asked for my opinion, i usually beat around the bush, hoping not to offend the person.
She will work hard and once a while take a long rest. She can get bored and tired with her own surrounding more than at work. She never feel content with her present work, money, or reputations, she will drive to have more. Don't ask her what is her ultimate contentment for she will not have an answer.
yeah, that is very true also. never content.
Once you get to know her, she will be a supportive person and always be beside you. She has a beautiful dream and she loves to have someone walk side by side with her, together and equally.
yeah, that is very true again. will be supportive and beside the one i love.
ok, so the conclusion is, no matter where u found this zodiac sign thing, looks like it's about 85% true of me.
GEMINI WOMAN
A good looking woman with brains, a very interesting person. She has a fast movement and she could not sit still or stand still long. She is able to do many things at the same time and do it fast.
yeah, i could agree with that, i could not sit or stand still long, i think i can multi task.
If you date her, you will feel like dating many women at the same time. You can not tie her down with the word "Love" because she cares about love but is it not a major factor of her life. You have to be able to adjust yourself to get along with her many different characters. She is a dreamer and has many dreams. She eager to learn something new all the time. Even she is the 2 in 1 mixed character type, she is quite lucky in love. You have to put all your efforts to win her affection. Even when she likes you and wonder about your wit, she will also see and inspect your bad side at the same time, because it is in her nature.
hmmm, am i that difficult in love? i dunno. A dreamer? well, maybe, who doesn't have dreams? Quite lucky in love? probably. to win my affection? hmm, i dunno.
She able to keep all kinds of mixed emotions without annoying you or letting you know at all. She can cheer you up by acting like a free little bird. Her conversation will not bored you. She able to talk to you in any subjects. She can make you feel like you are the luckiest man alive. She can make you feel like she needs all your care, but once she needs to stand alone, she can stand alone firmly an comfortably. She can be your best buddy and talk to you about anything. She can join all your activities with the same energy that you have.
yeah, that i can agree with, i can keep my emotions quite well. and that part about standing alone, yeah, i think i can stand alone firmly and comfortably, if i needed the quiet time alone.
She is a quick wit person and learn new things very fast. She can see your projects and she can give you good advice. If she thinks you are not sure that you want her for yourself, she will act like your best friend only, a cool woman. She can easily make a guy fall in love with her. Her multiple changes and many moods is a "Charm" for many men. She can be laughing for 2 minutes and later suddenly quiet. She wants to find only 1 true love and she wants to meet her dream guy. She expects a lot and nearly too much. She is constantly waiting for her knight shinning armor even she is with a steady boy friend. She can fall in love or fond of someone else while she is with you. If you break up with her, she will forget you quite fast, because change is in her nature. The Gemini woman breaks more heart than woman in other Zodiac. Because she is a dreamer and always waiting for her knight shinning armor ,so her love life can be complex ! or a mess.
wah, was my love life in a mess? did i break many hearts? i dunno. am i still waiting for my knight in shining armour? i dunno. (hehe, only i know the answer in my heart, but i think i'm not very prepared to share it here)
She hates to write a long letter, so if you write her a letter and expect a prompt reply, forget it.
Because she has a multiple personality and multiple ideas, so she hates to put them down in written proof. Because she knows what she belief today can be different tomorrow.
that part about the long letter is not true, i do enjoy receiving emails and letters. but i strongly believe the last sentence, what i believe today can be different tomorrow.
She could communication with more than 1 languages , a real gifted linguistic.
no, not true, i'm horrible at languages. prob only EL and CL.
If she wants to tell you any bad comments, she won't say it straight away, but she will talk to you about many other things and accidentally come to that subject without offending you. Normally she will not lie.
yeah, that's true, when asked for my opinion, i usually beat around the bush, hoping not to offend the person.
She will work hard and once a while take a long rest. She can get bored and tired with her own surrounding more than at work. She never feel content with her present work, money, or reputations, she will drive to have more. Don't ask her what is her ultimate contentment for she will not have an answer.
yeah, that is very true also. never content.
Once you get to know her, she will be a supportive person and always be beside you. She has a beautiful dream and she loves to have someone walk side by side with her, together and equally.
yeah, that is very true again. will be supportive and beside the one i love.
ok, so the conclusion is, no matter where u found this zodiac sign thing, looks like it's about 85% true of me.
Friday, October 27, 2006
this is so funny, dunno whether to be angry with marcus or juz laugh at him.
he was cycling at the corridor, the next thing, i heard a scream. apprarently, he cycled down the stairs. omg, how silly can he be? he must be playing too much xbox, thinking that his bicycle can fly like the lightening mcqueen. funny... he had a slight bump on his forehead and head. will monitor. think he was in a shock straight after the fall, but i guess he is ok.
he was cycling at the corridor, the next thing, i heard a scream. apprarently, he cycled down the stairs. omg, how silly can he be? he must be playing too much xbox, thinking that his bicycle can fly like the lightening mcqueen. funny... he had a slight bump on his forehead and head. will monitor. think he was in a shock straight after the fall, but i guess he is ok.
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
yesterday, officially hand over the keys to the buyers of my house. as i walked to the lift and looked back at my house for the last time, i actually felt a tinge of sadness. believe it or not, i wanted to cry. no matter what, this is the house we queued for since 1996/7. it's been like 5 years we waited for this new house.
i remembered when i first sold my potong pasir flat and moving to punggol, i didn't have this feeling. maybe i was happy that i would be getting my punggol flat, so i was eager to move out. this time round, however, i juz felt sad. probably because this is where marcus and mabel grew up in, this is where it keeps me going in my work. probably this is my source of motivation.
well, i will always remember this place. it will be a part of me even though i've left the place.
i remembered when i first sold my potong pasir flat and moving to punggol, i didn't have this feeling. maybe i was happy that i would be getting my punggol flat, so i was eager to move out. this time round, however, i juz felt sad. probably because this is where marcus and mabel grew up in, this is where it keeps me going in my work. probably this is my source of motivation.
well, i will always remember this place. it will be a part of me even though i've left the place.
Thursday, October 19, 2006
moving house
moving house is actually quite fun. It's stressful, having to balance your work, family and then to pack the house. it taught me to maintain my cool.
also, threw away lots of things. if u are not moving house, imagine all the rubbish that you have been keeping. threw torchlights, lamps, some decorations, quite a lot of other stuff away.
darn tired...
moving house is actually quite fun. It's stressful, having to balance your work, family and then to pack the house. it taught me to maintain my cool.
also, threw away lots of things. if u are not moving house, imagine all the rubbish that you have been keeping. threw torchlights, lamps, some decorations, quite a lot of other stuff away.
darn tired...
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
songs unite
i like to wind down the windows of the car in the morning as i drive. as usual, this morning, i did the same thing and was listening to jay chou's songs, volume loud.
at the traffic junction, red light, had to stop. so there was this black car, also windows wind down, music loud. then i realise, we are listening to the same cd, juz that i'm at song 1, the other car is at song 3. it's like i turn, then we smiled and then we each continued our way.
i juz feel that songs unite people.
i like to wind down the windows of the car in the morning as i drive. as usual, this morning, i did the same thing and was listening to jay chou's songs, volume loud.
at the traffic junction, red light, had to stop. so there was this black car, also windows wind down, music loud. then i realise, we are listening to the same cd, juz that i'm at song 1, the other car is at song 3. it's like i turn, then we smiled and then we each continued our way.
i juz feel that songs unite people.
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Haze
think everyone will agree that the haze is pretty bad on fri and sat. no carrying of lantern on fri evening as didn't want to add to the haze with all the candles burning. also some children are putting those fireworks, very pollutive and dangerous also.
glad today the haze is much better.
today celebrated mabel's birthday. had fun cooking with my sis. all had a good time, and the appel soup was gone, not a drop left. i cooked quite a big pot of the soup. of course, mabel received some presents and she was happy. in fact, she is still playing with her new toys now. if i were to insist that she goes to sleep, she will definitely cry out for sure. oh yes, she looks lovely in her white dress today, like a princess.
think everyone will agree that the haze is pretty bad on fri and sat. no carrying of lantern on fri evening as didn't want to add to the haze with all the candles burning. also some children are putting those fireworks, very pollutive and dangerous also.
glad today the haze is much better.
today celebrated mabel's birthday. had fun cooking with my sis. all had a good time, and the appel soup was gone, not a drop left. i cooked quite a big pot of the soup. of course, mabel received some presents and she was happy. in fact, she is still playing with her new toys now. if i were to insist that she goes to sleep, she will definitely cry out for sure. oh yes, she looks lovely in her white dress today, like a princess.
Sunday, October 01, 2006
I very stupid 2
No, this is not the sequel to I Not Stupid Too. it's about the china woman and 3 men saga.
1st stupid
the 2 men involve in this scandal is indeed very silly. i shall not elaborate more, because i think i understand the betrayal of love and trust they must be feeling now. and to add on to this, i believe many Singaporean woman must be saying this: "See, another xiao long pao. cheat our Singaporean men of their money." well, i'm sorry to say that, but i've overheard many Singaporean ladies have this perception of xiao long pao. and this scandal serves to reinforce that perception. Some even generalise that they wreak people's families and after the men's money. This is from the mouth of not only educated ladies, but also not so educated ones.
2nd stupid:
reading the scandal is actually very interesting. But it also make me realise that I was very stupid. Here i am working my ass off to provide for my family, and this lady here, no need to work, juz service 2 men and she is 'earning' much more than i do.(for those who didn't follow the scandal, apparently, she got $7,000 monthly allowance) and on top of this, sometimes she ask them for a big amount of money like $30,000. Kao, what is this world becoming. i take my hat off her.
*fumes*
No, this is not the sequel to I Not Stupid Too. it's about the china woman and 3 men saga.
1st stupid
the 2 men involve in this scandal is indeed very silly. i shall not elaborate more, because i think i understand the betrayal of love and trust they must be feeling now. and to add on to this, i believe many Singaporean woman must be saying this: "See, another xiao long pao. cheat our Singaporean men of their money." well, i'm sorry to say that, but i've overheard many Singaporean ladies have this perception of xiao long pao. and this scandal serves to reinforce that perception. Some even generalise that they wreak people's families and after the men's money. This is from the mouth of not only educated ladies, but also not so educated ones.
2nd stupid:
reading the scandal is actually very interesting. But it also make me realise that I was very stupid. Here i am working my ass off to provide for my family, and this lady here, no need to work, juz service 2 men and she is 'earning' much more than i do.(for those who didn't follow the scandal, apparently, she got $7,000 monthly allowance) and on top of this, sometimes she ask them for a big amount of money like $30,000. Kao, what is this world becoming. i take my hat off her.
*fumes*
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
It's going to be busy busy busy until end of october. guess that's the way with working life.
getting back into the pace of work... but time really passes very fast when you work. no time to think too much, no time to think of other things. Just work, rest and children. good and bad, i suppose. good because this helps me not to anyhow think and bad because seems like rather routine like that. so fast, it's the end of sept and we are left with the last quarter of the year. really, as you grow old, time is really going faster and faster.
getting back into the pace of work... but time really passes very fast when you work. no time to think too much, no time to think of other things. Just work, rest and children. good and bad, i suppose. good because this helps me not to anyhow think and bad because seems like rather routine like that. so fast, it's the end of sept and we are left with the last quarter of the year. really, as you grow old, time is really going faster and faster.
Monday, September 18, 2006
Friday, September 15, 2006
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Yes, welcome back to school. slowly getting into the pace of things in school. my voice broke down after the first lesson on the first day. i'm also easily tired out, by the end of the day, juz felt so drained.
first to put on record:
Thanks Shirley for the happy teacher's day greeting.
Thanks Charlie for the chocolate. and i love Hershey's chocolate.
Thanks Belmont for the red pen.
These are my ex students. So sweet of them, at least i know that they still remember me. i was caught most surprised by Belmont's red pen, it was like i have not taught him for the past 3 years, and yet.... it is really very sweet when you have your ex students remembering you.
and to the three young ladies of 3E5, yeah, you pass Humanities! so happy for all of you. i'll only get to teach you all in Week 3 which leaves me little time to 'repair'. but i'm looking forward to seeing the three of you in class.
first to put on record:
Thanks Shirley for the happy teacher's day greeting.
Thanks Charlie for the chocolate. and i love Hershey's chocolate.
Thanks Belmont for the red pen.
These are my ex students. So sweet of them, at least i know that they still remember me. i was caught most surprised by Belmont's red pen, it was like i have not taught him for the past 3 years, and yet.... it is really very sweet when you have your ex students remembering you.
and to the three young ladies of 3E5, yeah, you pass Humanities! so happy for all of you. i'll only get to teach you all in Week 3 which leaves me little time to 'repair'. but i'm looking forward to seeing the three of you in class.
Yes, welcome back to school. slowly getting into the pace of things in school. my voice broke down after the first lesson on the first day. i'm also easily tired out, by the end of the day, juz felt so drained.
first to put on record:
Thanks Shirley for the happy teacher's day greeting.
Thanks Charlie for the chocolate. and i love Hershey's chocolate.
Thanks Belmont for the red pen.
These are my ex students. So sweet of them, at least i know that they still remember me. i was caught most surprised by Belmont's red pen, it was like i have not taught him for the past 3 years, and yet.... it is really very sweet when you have your ex students remembering you.
and to the three young ladies of 3E5, yeah, you pass Humanities! so happy for all of you. i'll only get to teach you all in Week 3 which leaves me little time to 'repair'. but i'm looking forward to seeing the three of you in class.
first to put on record:
Thanks Shirley for the happy teacher's day greeting.
Thanks Charlie for the chocolate. and i love Hershey's chocolate.
Thanks Belmont for the red pen.
These are my ex students. So sweet of them, at least i know that they still remember me. i was caught most surprised by Belmont's red pen, it was like i have not taught him for the past 3 years, and yet.... it is really very sweet when you have your ex students remembering you.
and to the three young ladies of 3E5, yeah, you pass Humanities! so happy for all of you. i'll only get to teach you all in Week 3 which leaves me little time to 'repair'. but i'm looking forward to seeing the three of you in class.
Sunday, August 27, 2006
still in semi state of shock.
Juz knew that a friend got into trouble with the narcotics officer. and you have to know this through reading the newspaper yourself. then you will begin to wonder if is it that friend, then you start calling up friends to double confirm. this is the second time i have to read from the newspaper about a friend getting into trouble. the first time happened to one of my JC friend.
it's really kind of sad to have to read about your friend from the newspaper. can't do much, can only pray for them and wish them all the best. It will get kind of tricky next time if your paths meet.
so a word of advice to the young readers out there and my dear students, really, do not get into trouble with the law. if your name has to be reported in the newspaper, it's really very embarrassing.
Juz knew that a friend got into trouble with the narcotics officer. and you have to know this through reading the newspaper yourself. then you will begin to wonder if is it that friend, then you start calling up friends to double confirm. this is the second time i have to read from the newspaper about a friend getting into trouble. the first time happened to one of my JC friend.
it's really kind of sad to have to read about your friend from the newspaper. can't do much, can only pray for them and wish them all the best. It will get kind of tricky next time if your paths meet.
so a word of advice to the young readers out there and my dear students, really, do not get into trouble with the law. if your name has to be reported in the newspaper, it's really very embarrassing.
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Monks receive luxury car as gift
in today's newspapers, some people made comments after the Shaolin monk receive a luxury car as gift. some people felt that the monk shouldn't have receive the gift.
i was thinking: (anyway, a fren told me this....)
Monks in Thailand do eat meat. (Shock! thought monks not suppose to eat meat) yes, you are right, the monks go out every morning to ask for food, so they are eating what people has offered them. It would be wrong for the monk not to eat what people has given to them. so who is in the wrong? the person who gave the food. If you know that a monk cannot eat meat, then why give meat to the monk?
same as the above, if you know that monk should not own secular things, much said about a luxury car, then why give a luxury car as a gift? so the Shaolin monk was technically not wrong to accept the gift.
also, i do hear that for monks, their body is not theirs to own, what matters is the soul, the enlightenment of their soul.
ok, my mind is very heavy now, too philosophical for the day.
in today's newspapers, some people made comments after the Shaolin monk receive a luxury car as gift. some people felt that the monk shouldn't have receive the gift.
i was thinking: (anyway, a fren told me this....)
Monks in Thailand do eat meat. (Shock! thought monks not suppose to eat meat) yes, you are right, the monks go out every morning to ask for food, so they are eating what people has offered them. It would be wrong for the monk not to eat what people has given to them. so who is in the wrong? the person who gave the food. If you know that a monk cannot eat meat, then why give meat to the monk?
same as the above, if you know that monk should not own secular things, much said about a luxury car, then why give a luxury car as a gift? so the Shaolin monk was technically not wrong to accept the gift.
also, i do hear that for monks, their body is not theirs to own, what matters is the soul, the enlightenment of their soul.
ok, my mind is very heavy now, too philosophical for the day.
God, Faith and Science
Copied this from a friend's website:
AN INTERESTING CONVERSATION (God, Faith and Science. Think about it)
An atheist professor of philosophy speaks to his class on the problem science has with God, The Almighty. He asks one of his new students to stand and.....
Prof: So you believe in God?
Student: Absolutely, sir.
Prof: Is God good?
Student: Sure.
Prof: Is God all-powerful?
Student: Yes.
Prof: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn't. How is this God good then?
Hmm? (Student is silent.)
Prof: You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fellow. Is God good?
Student: Yes.
Prof: Is Satan good?
Student: No.
Prof: Where does Satan come from?
Student: From...God...
Prof: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student: Yes. Prof: Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything. Correct? Student: Yes.
Prof: So who created evil?
Student does not answer.
Prof: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?
Student: Yes, sir. Prof: So, who created them?
Student has no answer.
Prof: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son...Have you ever seen God?
Student: No, sir.
Prof: Tell us if you have ever heard your God?
Student: No, sir.
Prof: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?
Student: No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Prof: Yet you still believe in Him?
Student: Yes.
Prof: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student: Nothing. I only have my faith.
Prof: Yes. Faith. And that is the problem science has.
Student: Professor, is there such a thing as heat?
Prof: Yes.
Student: And is there such a thing as cold?
Prof: Yes.
Student: No sir. There isn't.
(The lecture theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events.)
Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
(There is pin-drop silence in the lecture theatre.)
Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Prof: Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?
Student: You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light....But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. If it were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?
Prof: So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student: Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.
Prof: Flawed? Can you explain how?
Student: Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
Prof: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.
Student: Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir? (The Professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument is going.)
Student: Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher? (The class is in uproar.)
Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain? (The class breaks out into laughter.)
Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?
(The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face unfathomable.)
Prof: I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.
Student: That is it sir... The link between man & God is FAITH. That is all that keeps things moving & alive.
****************WANT TO KNOW WHO THAT STUDENT WAS?
NB: This is a true story, and the student was none other than.........Dr. APJ Abdul Kalam, the present president of India.
This conversation touched me in a way as i grasp with my own walk with God. and somehow the next day, Aunt Cherie called me and talked to me about faith, how we will be answerable to God if we dun have faith in Him.
It is true, if students can accept my teaching of Geography and Social Studies, aren't they taking in all that i've said in faith? then why can't I have faith in God?
i guess the problem lies in humans put a definition to everything, everything has to be finite but the truth is God is indefinite.
Copied this from a friend's website:
AN INTERESTING CONVERSATION (God, Faith and Science. Think about it)
An atheist professor of philosophy speaks to his class on the problem science has with God, The Almighty. He asks one of his new students to stand and.....
Prof: So you believe in God?
Student: Absolutely, sir.
Prof: Is God good?
Student: Sure.
Prof: Is God all-powerful?
Student: Yes.
Prof: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn't. How is this God good then?
Hmm? (Student is silent.)
Prof: You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fellow. Is God good?
Student: Yes.
Prof: Is Satan good?
Student: No.
Prof: Where does Satan come from?
Student: From...God...
Prof: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student: Yes. Prof: Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything. Correct? Student: Yes.
Prof: So who created evil?
Student does not answer.
Prof: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?
Student: Yes, sir. Prof: So, who created them?
Student has no answer.
Prof: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son...Have you ever seen God?
Student: No, sir.
Prof: Tell us if you have ever heard your God?
Student: No, sir.
Prof: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?
Student: No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Prof: Yet you still believe in Him?
Student: Yes.
Prof: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student: Nothing. I only have my faith.
Prof: Yes. Faith. And that is the problem science has.
Student: Professor, is there such a thing as heat?
Prof: Yes.
Student: And is there such a thing as cold?
Prof: Yes.
Student: No sir. There isn't.
(The lecture theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events.)
Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
(There is pin-drop silence in the lecture theatre.)
Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Prof: Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?
Student: You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light....But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. If it were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?
Prof: So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student: Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.
Prof: Flawed? Can you explain how?
Student: Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
Prof: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.
Student: Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir? (The Professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument is going.)
Student: Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher? (The class is in uproar.)
Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain? (The class breaks out into laughter.)
Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?
(The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face unfathomable.)
Prof: I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.
Student: That is it sir... The link between man & God is FAITH. That is all that keeps things moving & alive.
****************WANT TO KNOW WHO THAT STUDENT WAS?
NB: This is a true story, and the student was none other than.........Dr. APJ Abdul Kalam, the present president of India.
This conversation touched me in a way as i grasp with my own walk with God. and somehow the next day, Aunt Cherie called me and talked to me about faith, how we will be answerable to God if we dun have faith in Him.
It is true, if students can accept my teaching of Geography and Social Studies, aren't they taking in all that i've said in faith? then why can't I have faith in God?
i guess the problem lies in humans put a definition to everything, everything has to be finite but the truth is God is indefinite.
3 disgusting things
1) how can a father be so disgustingly rich to buy a Subaru WRX for his son? anyway, this is getting common nowadays, with greater affluence, parents are able to afford to buy cars for their children when their children get their driving license. obviously, the father didn't realise that his son do not know how to handle a fast car. how many fatal accidents have occur? it's very common, fast cars, young drivers. well, the father paid for his foolishness, he lost his only son. peace be with the parents and peace be with the lost soul.
10 years ago, when we wanted to buy a car, oh yes, it was a subaru alright, but it was a 2nd hand car, the car was 4 or 5 years old already, it was a subaru viki, M70 somemore. and i had to fork out about 5k for a second hand car. youngsters nowadays are very lucky. they get to drive brand new car. After driving for so many years, only last year, only last year, then i get to drive a brand new car. All along, i only have money to buy second hand car.
also, driving is the accumulation of experiences. i remember in the first year of driving the car, (p plate) i had 2 small accidents. i dunno how to explain this, but everyday as u drive, u learn new experiences. that's why i believe, after getting a driving license, drive an old car, not a brand new one. old car, yes, no doubt may have engine problems, but u learn to handle these engine problems, what is radiator, change oil, tyre rotation. Bet not many people knows how to change a punctured tyre? i know, changed punctured tyres twice before, once, my own viki, the other time changed for my mum when her viki's tyres was punctured. i've driven cars where the radiator was spoilt, the temp needle kept going up and u learn to get to the the service workshop fast. skidded on a wet road before driving my mum's viki, then i learnt, oh yah, someone told me never never to run fast on wet roads, now i know why. u may never learn all these things from driving a new car. also, no heartache if the car is spoilt due to my careless driving.
2) disgusting item no 2, gosh, the person actually stuffed subutex into his ass hole. gross. hope subutex users are put off by the fact that the pill was stuffed in someone's asshole before and they are going to use it. anyway, the guy was caught.
3) disgusting item no 3. i actually dreamt about going back to work, i actually dreamt about the Block G and i'm walking to 3E5! Gross, i actually dreamt about work.... pui pui pui.
1) how can a father be so disgustingly rich to buy a Subaru WRX for his son? anyway, this is getting common nowadays, with greater affluence, parents are able to afford to buy cars for their children when their children get their driving license. obviously, the father didn't realise that his son do not know how to handle a fast car. how many fatal accidents have occur? it's very common, fast cars, young drivers. well, the father paid for his foolishness, he lost his only son. peace be with the parents and peace be with the lost soul.
10 years ago, when we wanted to buy a car, oh yes, it was a subaru alright, but it was a 2nd hand car, the car was 4 or 5 years old already, it was a subaru viki, M70 somemore. and i had to fork out about 5k for a second hand car. youngsters nowadays are very lucky. they get to drive brand new car. After driving for so many years, only last year, only last year, then i get to drive a brand new car. All along, i only have money to buy second hand car.
also, driving is the accumulation of experiences. i remember in the first year of driving the car, (p plate) i had 2 small accidents. i dunno how to explain this, but everyday as u drive, u learn new experiences. that's why i believe, after getting a driving license, drive an old car, not a brand new one. old car, yes, no doubt may have engine problems, but u learn to handle these engine problems, what is radiator, change oil, tyre rotation. Bet not many people knows how to change a punctured tyre? i know, changed punctured tyres twice before, once, my own viki, the other time changed for my mum when her viki's tyres was punctured. i've driven cars where the radiator was spoilt, the temp needle kept going up and u learn to get to the the service workshop fast. skidded on a wet road before driving my mum's viki, then i learnt, oh yah, someone told me never never to run fast on wet roads, now i know why. u may never learn all these things from driving a new car. also, no heartache if the car is spoilt due to my careless driving.
2) disgusting item no 2, gosh, the person actually stuffed subutex into his ass hole. gross. hope subutex users are put off by the fact that the pill was stuffed in someone's asshole before and they are going to use it. anyway, the guy was caught.
3) disgusting item no 3. i actually dreamt about going back to work, i actually dreamt about the Block G and i'm walking to 3E5! Gross, i actually dreamt about work.... pui pui pui.
Monday, August 21, 2006
this is getting frustrating.
1) thought i could access websites faster in the wee hours of the morning, but i was wrong, esp for Singpass website. without the necessary information, i cannot compute sales proceeds from selling flat and the monthly instalment of buying another flat.
2) morale of my story: You can only own 2 flats in your whole entire life if you are Singaporean. for youngsters, juz a note of advice, never put your name for your parents' flat. HDB considers it as you have already owned a flat. so next time if you want to buy a flat with your spouse, even if your spouse is first timer buying a flat, you are considered a second timer and so the brand new flat you are getting, it's considered your second property. ok, this ruling doesn't really irks me that much.
what irks me is that now buyers of flat who are not eligible for HDB loan has to go to banks to borrow the loan. Ok fine, they call this deregulation, got competition good, consumers are at an advantage. ok, i'm fine with this ruling also.
But 5% cash payment? copied and paste from website:
HDB flat buyers who are getting a mortgage loan from banks have to pay a cash payment with effect from 1 Jan 2004. The cash payment will be eventually aligned with that of private property purchase, that is, 5% based on the lower of the purchase price or market value of the flat.
i was thinking, we are buying a HDB flat here, it's supposed to be affordable. but hello, looks like it's not getting very affordable already. Buying a flat is now aligned with that of a private property purchase. let's juz take an ordinary 4 room flat whose valuation could be easily $272,000. 5% means you have to take out $13600 hard cash. this amount can be easily be used to pay for a undergraduate's semestral fees. Or better spend at renovating a house. what if you still need to renovate the house? and whether you get a bank loan or not, it's another issue. It seems that if it's too low, like $100k, the bank is reluctant to lend (that means buying a 3 room flat with a bank loan is quite impossible) and from the newspaper, if you buy a property in certain areas like geylang, sorry, the bank deems it too risky to lend you the money.
some may argue that you get some money from selling your flat, the money gained can be used. oh come on, who makes 100K from sellling the flat now? yah last time, our parents' time or when police wear bermudas time, yes. But now? a new 5 room flat is easily 200K and above. You think you can sell your flat at 300K or 400K when it matures? yah probably 10 or 20 years down the road, if you are lucky. that means you would be 40 or 50 plus years old. then you would rather not sell and stay put. See, it's yet another way to encourage you not to sell your flat and stay put.
ok, i'm prepared to overcome all these hurdles. but then check this out:
Since 1 January 2003, the CPF withdrawal limit for a housing loan obtained from a bank or financial institution is set at lower of 150% of the Valuation Limit or the Available Housing Withdrawal Limit (AHWL).The 150% Valuation Limit will be reduced to 120% over five years as shown in the table below.
went to CPF website and tried to understand AHWL. i dun understand a GD thing after reading it. so all in all, the past 1 hour has been very frustrating, trying to make sense of everything.
so it means that it's not so easy for buyers to buy a HDB flat if they are getting bank loan to finance their flat. This means that it's not easy for sellers to sell. Then where the heck did they get the figures to show that housing has upped in the last quarter? All these figures are bull shit.
Then it kind of dawn on me that, to be on the safe side, only own 2 HDB flats in your entire life. GDI, talk about taking risks. Now i'm taking the risk, going to sell the flat and a 3rd timer at buying a flat. Now i'm going to induce economy growth through this transaction. But why are there so many hurdles to discourage me from selling and buying? Why am i being 'punished' for taking a risk? don't you always encourage creativity, risk-taking and blah blah blah?
oh yes, i better put a disclaimer before i unintentionally slander any 'boards' any person or accused of not being professional enough.
All things said above are of no intention to slander or caused any grievous hurt to any being, be it a board or a person. All things said above are in the heat of frustration and once the heat is dispalled, all things will be calm and back to the submissive old self, trying our best to fulfil this criteria and that criteria. (in another words, LL)
1) thought i could access websites faster in the wee hours of the morning, but i was wrong, esp for Singpass website. without the necessary information, i cannot compute sales proceeds from selling flat and the monthly instalment of buying another flat.
2) morale of my story: You can only own 2 flats in your whole entire life if you are Singaporean. for youngsters, juz a note of advice, never put your name for your parents' flat. HDB considers it as you have already owned a flat. so next time if you want to buy a flat with your spouse, even if your spouse is first timer buying a flat, you are considered a second timer and so the brand new flat you are getting, it's considered your second property. ok, this ruling doesn't really irks me that much.
what irks me is that now buyers of flat who are not eligible for HDB loan has to go to banks to borrow the loan. Ok fine, they call this deregulation, got competition good, consumers are at an advantage. ok, i'm fine with this ruling also.
But 5% cash payment? copied and paste from website:
HDB flat buyers who are getting a mortgage loan from banks have to pay a cash payment with effect from 1 Jan 2004. The cash payment will be eventually aligned with that of private property purchase, that is, 5% based on the lower of the purchase price or market value of the flat.
i was thinking, we are buying a HDB flat here, it's supposed to be affordable. but hello, looks like it's not getting very affordable already. Buying a flat is now aligned with that of a private property purchase. let's juz take an ordinary 4 room flat whose valuation could be easily $272,000. 5% means you have to take out $13600 hard cash. this amount can be easily be used to pay for a undergraduate's semestral fees. Or better spend at renovating a house. what if you still need to renovate the house? and whether you get a bank loan or not, it's another issue. It seems that if it's too low, like $100k, the bank is reluctant to lend (that means buying a 3 room flat with a bank loan is quite impossible) and from the newspaper, if you buy a property in certain areas like geylang, sorry, the bank deems it too risky to lend you the money.
some may argue that you get some money from selling your flat, the money gained can be used. oh come on, who makes 100K from sellling the flat now? yah last time, our parents' time or when police wear bermudas time, yes. But now? a new 5 room flat is easily 200K and above. You think you can sell your flat at 300K or 400K when it matures? yah probably 10 or 20 years down the road, if you are lucky. that means you would be 40 or 50 plus years old. then you would rather not sell and stay put. See, it's yet another way to encourage you not to sell your flat and stay put.
ok, i'm prepared to overcome all these hurdles. but then check this out:
Since 1 January 2003, the CPF withdrawal limit for a housing loan obtained from a bank or financial institution is set at lower of 150% of the Valuation Limit or the Available Housing Withdrawal Limit (AHWL).The 150% Valuation Limit will be reduced to 120% over five years as shown in the table below.
went to CPF website and tried to understand AHWL. i dun understand a GD thing after reading it. so all in all, the past 1 hour has been very frustrating, trying to make sense of everything.
so it means that it's not so easy for buyers to buy a HDB flat if they are getting bank loan to finance their flat. This means that it's not easy for sellers to sell. Then where the heck did they get the figures to show that housing has upped in the last quarter? All these figures are bull shit.
Then it kind of dawn on me that, to be on the safe side, only own 2 HDB flats in your entire life. GDI, talk about taking risks. Now i'm taking the risk, going to sell the flat and a 3rd timer at buying a flat. Now i'm going to induce economy growth through this transaction. But why are there so many hurdles to discourage me from selling and buying? Why am i being 'punished' for taking a risk? don't you always encourage creativity, risk-taking and blah blah blah?
oh yes, i better put a disclaimer before i unintentionally slander any 'boards' any person or accused of not being professional enough.
All things said above are of no intention to slander or caused any grievous hurt to any being, be it a board or a person. All things said above are in the heat of frustration and once the heat is dispalled, all things will be calm and back to the submissive old self, trying our best to fulfil this criteria and that criteria. (in another words, LL)
can't get to sleep. been having diarrea (i'm missing some letters, but what the heck) since sat night. it's not like it's unbearable, it's bearable, u can actually feel the stomach churning. woke up at 4am, decided to let go. then had to go to toilet again at 8 plus in the morning.
on sunday, the whole day seems alright, but the tummy ache came again after dinner. same like the nite before, woke up at 5 plus to let go, and couldn't sleep after that, so decided to wake up.
the reason i couldn't sleep partly because there are many things weighing on my mind. When you start thinking about your past, present and future, it's really heavy going.
Max is 2 months old and still growing. He has grown quite a bit since he was born. he's now 4.4kg as compared to 3.1 kg. he's getting more responsive to sounds, to people talking to him. he's starting to make gurgle sounds, trying to talk and besides crying, he knows how to laugh now. cool. he especially likes it when Marcus talks to him. the funny thing is Marcus likes to squeeze his cheeks, kiss him and when Marcus does all these things to Max, Max actually laughs and enjoys it.
on sunday, the whole day seems alright, but the tummy ache came again after dinner. same like the nite before, woke up at 5 plus to let go, and couldn't sleep after that, so decided to wake up.
the reason i couldn't sleep partly because there are many things weighing on my mind. When you start thinking about your past, present and future, it's really heavy going.
Max is 2 months old and still growing. He has grown quite a bit since he was born. he's now 4.4kg as compared to 3.1 kg. he's getting more responsive to sounds, to people talking to him. he's starting to make gurgle sounds, trying to talk and besides crying, he knows how to laugh now. cool. he especially likes it when Marcus talks to him. the funny thing is Marcus likes to squeeze his cheeks, kiss him and when Marcus does all these things to Max, Max actually laughs and enjoys it.
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Primary 1 registration
have i said before that registering for your child for P1 is really an experience? as we are using marcus' grandparent's address, realise that before registering, we need to do a declaration at MOE. I thought it was juz collecting a form, didn't know that the grandparent and parent must be present to declare. had to make 2 trips because of that.
Also, we are registering him at Phase 2C, can you imagine, i literally check out the vacancies after every phase to check that the school we wanted still has places? in the end, we had to settle for our second choice school becos the first choice school has limited vacancies and being a famous school, i think end up sure balloting. so to play safe, (didn't want heart attack or end up Marcus have to study a school in Punggol as we are intending to shift out) we chose the 2nd choice school.
to some, the reputation of school is still an issue to them. their child must go to a good school. neighbourhood school? over their dead body. well, i respect their decision. each of us are entitled to our own opinions. i mean there are different kinds of pressure studying at different kind of schools. anyway, an advice to those who wants to enrol their child in good school,
either you are a former student of that school
or if you are a teacher, a few years before enrolling your child, try to get a posting to that school yourself
or parent volunteer (at least 2 years before your child is due for register) and i heard that now parent volunteer this option is very popular that some schools have to turn away parents becos there is juz too many parent volunteers.
oh yah, btw, Marcus will be formally studying in Cedar Primary next year, brand new school building with great facilities. i know that, cos i've been to a brand new school building to teach myself.
have i said before that registering for your child for P1 is really an experience? as we are using marcus' grandparent's address, realise that before registering, we need to do a declaration at MOE. I thought it was juz collecting a form, didn't know that the grandparent and parent must be present to declare. had to make 2 trips because of that.
Also, we are registering him at Phase 2C, can you imagine, i literally check out the vacancies after every phase to check that the school we wanted still has places? in the end, we had to settle for our second choice school becos the first choice school has limited vacancies and being a famous school, i think end up sure balloting. so to play safe, (didn't want heart attack or end up Marcus have to study a school in Punggol as we are intending to shift out) we chose the 2nd choice school.
to some, the reputation of school is still an issue to them. their child must go to a good school. neighbourhood school? over their dead body. well, i respect their decision. each of us are entitled to our own opinions. i mean there are different kinds of pressure studying at different kind of schools. anyway, an advice to those who wants to enrol their child in good school,
either you are a former student of that school
or if you are a teacher, a few years before enrolling your child, try to get a posting to that school yourself
or parent volunteer (at least 2 years before your child is due for register) and i heard that now parent volunteer this option is very popular that some schools have to turn away parents becos there is juz too many parent volunteers.
oh yah, btw, Marcus will be formally studying in Cedar Primary next year, brand new school building with great facilities. i know that, cos i've been to a brand new school building to teach myself.
the MT results will be out this fri, all the best to 5n2. Hope most of you did well enough so that u don't have to take MT at the end of the year again.
so fast, time passes so fast, soon, it will be sept, then i'll have to be back in school. scared engine cannot start up.
dunno what i owe Max in the past life. looking after him is like 24 hours, he wants your attention, either to talk to him, play with him or he takes such a long time to rock to sleep. sometimes if you are press for time, like u need to go pee, it can get really frustrating.
been trying out cooking also. sometimes run out of ideas to cook, i actually went to search for recipes on the internet and tried out some dishes. quite fun.
life's been ok. juz that these few days, i juz find that listening to songs doesn't bring anymore meaning. nvm, i dunno what i'm talking or wat i'm trying to say. anyway, life's been good. i'm enjoying family now at the present. a bit sian thinking of going back to work.
so fast, time passes so fast, soon, it will be sept, then i'll have to be back in school. scared engine cannot start up.
dunno what i owe Max in the past life. looking after him is like 24 hours, he wants your attention, either to talk to him, play with him or he takes such a long time to rock to sleep. sometimes if you are press for time, like u need to go pee, it can get really frustrating.
been trying out cooking also. sometimes run out of ideas to cook, i actually went to search for recipes on the internet and tried out some dishes. quite fun.
life's been ok. juz that these few days, i juz find that listening to songs doesn't bring anymore meaning. nvm, i dunno what i'm talking or wat i'm trying to say. anyway, life's been good. i'm enjoying family now at the present. a bit sian thinking of going back to work.
Friday, July 21, 2006
the result of a queer test i took:
sandra, your subconscious mind is driven most by Self-protection
You are emotionally reserved and private. You typically keep your cool during arguments and rarely reveal personal information that you later regret. On the surface, you appear very serene. Inside however, you may sometimes feel detached or disconnected from the world around you. The upside of this is that you are not the sort of person to easily lose your temper. You think about things rationally rather than get swept up in emotions. You also remain calm in the toughest of situations. Your psyche is very unique; the more you learn about it, the more you will understand who you really are.
sandra, your subconscious mind is driven most by Self-protection
You are emotionally reserved and private. You typically keep your cool during arguments and rarely reveal personal information that you later regret. On the surface, you appear very serene. Inside however, you may sometimes feel detached or disconnected from the world around you. The upside of this is that you are not the sort of person to easily lose your temper. You think about things rationally rather than get swept up in emotions. You also remain calm in the toughest of situations. Your psyche is very unique; the more you learn about it, the more you will understand who you really are.
realise i've not been blogging for almost a month.
well, i wanted to update BB's pictures, i juz didn't get down to doing it.
u see, the whole day is juz spend looking after the BB. it's like the feeding time is 3 hours apart. ok, let's say, BB drinks milk at 11am. by the time u finish feeding it's 1130am. u try to make BB sleep, 1145am. u need to feed BB water also, otherwise BB cannot put put, that would be 1230pm feed water. by the time u finish feeding, probably 1245pm. then soon 2pm, milk time again.
so in between, u will have to find time to 1) read newspaper 2) drink coffee 3) brush teeth 4) bathe 5) going toilet, whether big business or small business 6) hang the laundry (as you dun want to miss the sun) 7) not forgetting, u need to eat also. recently, i totally skip lunch or at times only have one meal a day. 8) check my emails 9) drink water (we need at least 8 glasses of water a day) also, BB also need to bathe. sometimes BB also need to change diapers. If BB sleep soundly, u will manage to accomplish more things. If BB doesn't sleep soundly, u really have no time to do the above things. it's a miracle how we can squeeze in to do so many things in between BB's feeding time. and not to mention, i still have to fetch m&m to and from school. so one day 24 hours, really not enough for me. at night, your sleep is broken up also.
so u see, i really have no time to update the pictures on my blog. i do have the pictures in my hp, i even video taped him, i even record his crying sound and for a week, his cries were my ringtone.
anyway, to reward myself... i went to colour my hair TODAY! feel good, like pampering yourself like that.
ok, almost feeding time, i better stop.
well, i wanted to update BB's pictures, i juz didn't get down to doing it.
u see, the whole day is juz spend looking after the BB. it's like the feeding time is 3 hours apart. ok, let's say, BB drinks milk at 11am. by the time u finish feeding it's 1130am. u try to make BB sleep, 1145am. u need to feed BB water also, otherwise BB cannot put put, that would be 1230pm feed water. by the time u finish feeding, probably 1245pm. then soon 2pm, milk time again.
so in between, u will have to find time to 1) read newspaper 2) drink coffee 3) brush teeth 4) bathe 5) going toilet, whether big business or small business 6) hang the laundry (as you dun want to miss the sun) 7) not forgetting, u need to eat also. recently, i totally skip lunch or at times only have one meal a day. 8) check my emails 9) drink water (we need at least 8 glasses of water a day) also, BB also need to bathe. sometimes BB also need to change diapers. If BB sleep soundly, u will manage to accomplish more things. If BB doesn't sleep soundly, u really have no time to do the above things. it's a miracle how we can squeeze in to do so many things in between BB's feeding time. and not to mention, i still have to fetch m&m to and from school. so one day 24 hours, really not enough for me. at night, your sleep is broken up also.
so u see, i really have no time to update the pictures on my blog. i do have the pictures in my hp, i even video taped him, i even record his crying sound and for a week, his cries were my ringtone.
anyway, to reward myself... i went to colour my hair TODAY! feel good, like pampering yourself like that.
ok, almost feeding time, i better stop.
Friday, June 23, 2006
ok, i'm now planning and thinking of baby showers. not so much of planning, cos i dunno if my mum wants to hold baby showers or not. i also dunno who to invite for the baby showers other than our own family members here.
i'll juz keep it simple. maybe on the boy's side, a simple dinner, maybe on the gal's side, also a simple dinner. hmmm, know wat i'm thinking...? OT multi purpose hall again, haha.
i could remember marcus' baby showers, it was at OT, that time, mum invited her friends. die, i can't remember mabel's baby showers. where did we have it? or did we have it in the first place? haha, i really cannot remember.
i'll juz keep it simple. maybe on the boy's side, a simple dinner, maybe on the gal's side, also a simple dinner. hmmm, know wat i'm thinking...? OT multi purpose hall again, haha.
i could remember marcus' baby showers, it was at OT, that time, mum invited her friends. die, i can't remember mabel's baby showers. where did we have it? or did we have it in the first place? haha, i really cannot remember.
Thursday, June 22, 2006
last nite two shows makes me think of certain things about love.
in the 7pm show, the gal was very heartbroken to know that her bf who had died hid so many secrets from her. advice from her friend was, perhaps it's better this way, as he loves her and might not want to hurt her with his past. sometimes the truth hurts, hurts very badly, in yesterday's show, the word was 'heartwrenching'. yes, actually come to think of it, many things in life, some truths are better left unknown. if you dun want to hurt your loved one, then keep quiet.
in the 9pm show, the person can love the other party so much that 'he' was willing to do anything for him. but was it worth it? She feels that it was worth it. well i believe many people will have different views on this. some will feel that it's not worth it, some will feel that it's worth it. she claims that she did all this for him, she really love him. sigh, wat's true love? does true love really exist on earth? it may be there, but it may not belong to you. sometimes things are not so simple.
just some thoughts, dun take it too seriously.
in the 7pm show, the gal was very heartbroken to know that her bf who had died hid so many secrets from her. advice from her friend was, perhaps it's better this way, as he loves her and might not want to hurt her with his past. sometimes the truth hurts, hurts very badly, in yesterday's show, the word was 'heartwrenching'. yes, actually come to think of it, many things in life, some truths are better left unknown. if you dun want to hurt your loved one, then keep quiet.
in the 9pm show, the person can love the other party so much that 'he' was willing to do anything for him. but was it worth it? She feels that it was worth it. well i believe many people will have different views on this. some will feel that it's not worth it, some will feel that it's worth it. she claims that she did all this for him, she really love him. sigh, wat's true love? does true love really exist on earth? it may be there, but it may not belong to you. sometimes things are not so simple.
just some thoughts, dun take it too seriously.
Monday, June 19, 2006
Friday, June 16, 2006
Monday, June 12, 2006
wahhhhhhhh.... must be really excited. last nite could only sleep after 3 am. then guess what, 530 am, i woke up again. couldn't get back to sleep, might as well wake up to get ready.
brushed teeth, showered and most importantly, washed my hair! but this morning, i really appreciated all these 3 actions, something which we do so often. i used a generous amount of toothpaste, shampoo and shower gel, and i really thoroughly brushed my teeth. it's like my last time doing these actions, so i better do it well. simple routine things which we often take for granted.
makes me think of those who knew they are going to die, like perhaps one who is going to be sentenced to death. imagine he/she is aware that all that they are going to do will be the last action on earth, how sad! u will learn to even appreciate that u can brush your teeth.
wake up so early, now i realise i'm getting hungry, but i cannot eat.... god, this is going to be torture. hungry and u can't eat.
brushed teeth, showered and most importantly, washed my hair! but this morning, i really appreciated all these 3 actions, something which we do so often. i used a generous amount of toothpaste, shampoo and shower gel, and i really thoroughly brushed my teeth. it's like my last time doing these actions, so i better do it well. simple routine things which we often take for granted.
makes me think of those who knew they are going to die, like perhaps one who is going to be sentenced to death. imagine he/she is aware that all that they are going to do will be the last action on earth, how sad! u will learn to even appreciate that u can brush your teeth.
wake up so early, now i realise i'm getting hungry, but i cannot eat.... god, this is going to be torture. hungry and u can't eat.
oh yeah, finally, the arrival of 12 june. dunno how to describe the relief, the excitment. maybe too excited until cannot sleep.
brought m&m to watch the cartoon Cars on 7th June. Well, marcus certainly enjoyed the show. Mabel slept halfway through the show and then she started coughing and then nvm, she vomitted her phlegm out. gross. luckily it's near the end of the show already. think my black shawl really unlucky. It was first used to cover some stained skirt. Then now the 2nd time i used it, it was used to wipe off Mabel's vomit. gross.
The show is quite long, if marcus is not interested in cars, i doubt he can sit through out the show. the show is 116 mins long, almost 2 hours. this cartoon is like made for marcus to watch. will buy the vcd when it's out. and also the game if it is out.
brought m&m to watch the cartoon Cars on 7th June. Well, marcus certainly enjoyed the show. Mabel slept halfway through the show and then she started coughing and then nvm, she vomitted her phlegm out. gross. luckily it's near the end of the show already. think my black shawl really unlucky. It was first used to cover some stained skirt. Then now the 2nd time i used it, it was used to wipe off Mabel's vomit. gross.
The show is quite long, if marcus is not interested in cars, i doubt he can sit through out the show. the show is 116 mins long, almost 2 hours. this cartoon is like made for marcus to watch. will buy the vcd when it's out. and also the game if it is out.
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
Sunday, June 04, 2006
Friday, June 02, 2006
Ring anxiety
overheard this at class95 when i was drinking coffee this morning.
if a person keeps thinking that his/her hp is ringing, or thinks that his/her hp is ringing, or
if a person feels that the vibration from the bus is the vibration of his/her hp and
the person keeps checking on his/her hp, then the person is suffering from ring anxiety.
there is a reason for this:
it's something to do with popularity. and the person get so emotionally attached to the hp, that he/she is always checking on the hp to see if anybody calls or sms him/her.
interesting findings. food for thought.
overheard this at class95 when i was drinking coffee this morning.
if a person keeps thinking that his/her hp is ringing, or thinks that his/her hp is ringing, or
if a person feels that the vibration from the bus is the vibration of his/her hp and
the person keeps checking on his/her hp, then the person is suffering from ring anxiety.
there is a reason for this:
it's something to do with popularity. and the person get so emotionally attached to the hp, that he/she is always checking on the hp to see if anybody calls or sms him/her.
interesting findings. food for thought.
Friday, May 26, 2006
life is like the weather
so long never blog, almost forget my username to log in.
weather's been unpredictable yesterday, so hot, then suddenly in the afternoon, it started pouring so heavily.
guess life is like the weather. people always refer to their mood or their life to the weather, like when our boss is in a black mood, we say the weather is stormy. if our boss is scolding some people at the top of the voice, we would warn people, 'be careful, thunderstorm.' or if someone is not in a good mood, we say the weather is overcast, if the boss is in a good mood, we say, 'today the weather is sunny.'
same as life. it has ups and downs. but whether we want to treat it as thunderstorm, overcast, sunny, i guess it actually really depends on our outlook on life. some of us actually go through the same thing, but because of our outlook, some may see it as thunderstorm, some may see it as light showers. it all really depends.
so long never blog, almost forget my username to log in.
weather's been unpredictable yesterday, so hot, then suddenly in the afternoon, it started pouring so heavily.
guess life is like the weather. people always refer to their mood or their life to the weather, like when our boss is in a black mood, we say the weather is stormy. if our boss is scolding some people at the top of the voice, we would warn people, 'be careful, thunderstorm.' or if someone is not in a good mood, we say the weather is overcast, if the boss is in a good mood, we say, 'today the weather is sunny.'
same as life. it has ups and downs. but whether we want to treat it as thunderstorm, overcast, sunny, i guess it actually really depends on our outlook on life. some of us actually go through the same thing, but because of our outlook, some may see it as thunderstorm, some may see it as light showers. it all really depends.
Thursday, May 04, 2006
It's May already
so fast, it's May already. well, it's more of a happy note that it's May... at least i can look forward to a long period of rest from school. (although this is not a practical way of taking a break from school)
bb has been kicking and moving a lot lately. but i didn't dare to share. maybe only Mabel shares this as she is always wanting to know if bb is sleeping or not. dun dare to share my backaches, leg cramps, etc.
the whole thing was a mistake, and since i'm carrying this mistake, guess i have to take it alone.
so fast, it's May already. well, it's more of a happy note that it's May... at least i can look forward to a long period of rest from school. (although this is not a practical way of taking a break from school)
bb has been kicking and moving a lot lately. but i didn't dare to share. maybe only Mabel shares this as she is always wanting to know if bb is sleeping or not. dun dare to share my backaches, leg cramps, etc.
the whole thing was a mistake, and since i'm carrying this mistake, guess i have to take it alone.
Monday, April 10, 2006
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Monday, April 03, 2006
Monday, March 27, 2006
Thursday, March 23, 2006
ever wonder why we say good nite to each other before sleep?
juz realise the importance of a good nite's rest. when u have a good nite's rest, u feel refreshed, energised to face tomorrow. when u dun sleep well at nite, like aches or getting up in the middle of the nite often, u juz dun feel good when u wake up in the morning, like not enuff rest like that.
so next time when we say good nite, mean it.
juz realise the importance of a good nite's rest. when u have a good nite's rest, u feel refreshed, energised to face tomorrow. when u dun sleep well at nite, like aches or getting up in the middle of the nite often, u juz dun feel good when u wake up in the morning, like not enuff rest like that.
so next time when we say good nite, mean it.
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
they say pregnant ladies are troublesome. well, i didn't really believe it until i went through it myself.
first it was fever over the weekend, then last nite, i sprained my left leg. it wasn't nearly a sprain, it's juz that like the nerve or the bones didn't click properly, so it was painful when walking or at a certain angle.
and naughty mabel was imitating the way i walk, putting her hand on behind her back and protruding her stomach.
first it was fever over the weekend, then last nite, i sprained my left leg. it wasn't nearly a sprain, it's juz that like the nerve or the bones didn't click properly, so it was painful when walking or at a certain angle.
and naughty mabel was imitating the way i walk, putting her hand on behind her back and protruding her stomach.
Monday, March 20, 2006
Thursday, March 16, 2006
brought m&m to changi airport swensen on tuesday evening. well, they ate a lot, and of course, not forgetting their ice cream.
after dinner, marcus said, 'ok, let's go take aeroplane now.'
i got a shock. have to bluff him no tickets, no tickets cannot take aeroplane. can only bring him to the viewing gallery to watch aeroplanes. could see that he was very very reluctant to go as he kept saying that he wants to take aeroplane. wow, he thinks taking aeroplane is like taking taxi or mrt like that. yah, wait mummy earn lots of money next time....
after dinner, marcus said, 'ok, let's go take aeroplane now.'
i got a shock. have to bluff him no tickets, no tickets cannot take aeroplane. can only bring him to the viewing gallery to watch aeroplanes. could see that he was very very reluctant to go as he kept saying that he wants to take aeroplane. wow, he thinks taking aeroplane is like taking taxi or mrt like that. yah, wait mummy earn lots of money next time....
Monday, March 13, 2006
first day of March holiday..... but the school is filled with activities and students and colleagues. maybe the thought of not having to teach this week..... kind of excited to be back in school.
really rested during the weekend.... brought M&M to macdonald, they ordered Fantastic, but they didn't eat the 'rice', they juz ate the meat in the middle, so poor us, ate one and a half Fantastic, so full.
on sunday, brought them to KFC. Mabel suggested, but as usual, all they ate was whipped potato and popcorn chicken, luckily didn't order much. As my poor sis was working late last nite, so M&M didn't get a chance to go to AMK this weekend, but they seriously kept talking about it. So dear sis, u must have done a good job in chapereon -ing them, they miss yi yi and uncle and not forgetting, goodies from ah ma.
the steam boat was fun last nite. they enjoyed throwing the food inside and scooping out the food. they really enjoyed the food. and all of us had 2 mini cornettos after dinner... luxury. (i hope they forget that there are 4 remaining in the fridge)
really rested during the weekend.... brought M&M to macdonald, they ordered Fantastic, but they didn't eat the 'rice', they juz ate the meat in the middle, so poor us, ate one and a half Fantastic, so full.
on sunday, brought them to KFC. Mabel suggested, but as usual, all they ate was whipped potato and popcorn chicken, luckily didn't order much. As my poor sis was working late last nite, so M&M didn't get a chance to go to AMK this weekend, but they seriously kept talking about it. So dear sis, u must have done a good job in chapereon -ing them, they miss yi yi and uncle and not forgetting, goodies from ah ma.
the steam boat was fun last nite. they enjoyed throwing the food inside and scooping out the food. they really enjoyed the food. and all of us had 2 mini cornettos after dinner... luxury. (i hope they forget that there are 4 remaining in the fridge)
Monday, March 06, 2006
blogger not working well today, hope that i remember to save my draft later.
mabel is very sweet. when she goes out wif my mum, she actually remembers me and bought me a dress. of course, that's using her grandmother's money, but i guess, it's the thought that counts, i'm really touched by her gesture.
last nite, i dreamt that my stomach is very pain until i have to take an ambulance to the hospital.
as for issues, i dunno, since fri, when i wrote the last blog, i've told myself, heart of stone. either way, people will get hurt, either way, together or apart, things have totally changed, totally not the same.
best to die.... but mabel will cry.....
mabel is very sweet. when she goes out wif my mum, she actually remembers me and bought me a dress. of course, that's using her grandmother's money, but i guess, it's the thought that counts, i'm really touched by her gesture.
last nite, i dreamt that my stomach is very pain until i have to take an ambulance to the hospital.
as for issues, i dunno, since fri, when i wrote the last blog, i've told myself, heart of stone. either way, people will get hurt, either way, together or apart, things have totally changed, totally not the same.
best to die.... but mabel will cry.....
Friday, March 03, 2006
yah, so it goes to show again, NEVER DEPEND ON GOD DAMN ONE TO SOLVE YOUR PROBLEM
in the end, u r still the one who has to make the decision, who has to answer to your own shitty problems that you have created. yah, stupid me, take out the courage to make the decision. BE SICKENING STRONG AND HEARTLESS.
That's the problem with you, Sandra Teo, you are such a coward. you are too emotional, no wonder you cannot accomplish anything big. Sandra Teo, let this be your last tears, last pain, last sorrow. From henceforth, your heart will be cast into stone.
**** the world!
in the end, u r still the one who has to make the decision, who has to answer to your own shitty problems that you have created. yah, stupid me, take out the courage to make the decision. BE SICKENING STRONG AND HEARTLESS.
That's the problem with you, Sandra Teo, you are such a coward. you are too emotional, no wonder you cannot accomplish anything big. Sandra Teo, let this be your last tears, last pain, last sorrow. From henceforth, your heart will be cast into stone.
**** the world!
Thursday, March 02, 2006
crossroads
people always say that life is like travelling on the road. when it comes to making decision abt life, people say it's like coming to a crossroad.
when travelling, if u make a wrong turn, u can always u-turn back. in life, if u make a wrong turn, can u turn it back? no, u can't. people say u can turn back, yah, i do somehow agree, but if u turn back, will things be the same as before?
maybe it's not abt making a decision which way to turn, and then worry abt the whether we can u-turn or not. maybe it's about the final destination.
but problem is, wat is my final destination? i'm now like travelling on newton circus like that, turning round and round and round, aimlessly. can i juz drive straight into something and juz die?
i juz feel that really, maybe i should leave, this is the best way where none is hurt the most. no one deserves to be hurt the most. i am the one who deserves to die, who deserves to carry all the sins.
people always say that life is like travelling on the road. when it comes to making decision abt life, people say it's like coming to a crossroad.
when travelling, if u make a wrong turn, u can always u-turn back. in life, if u make a wrong turn, can u turn it back? no, u can't. people say u can turn back, yah, i do somehow agree, but if u turn back, will things be the same as before?
maybe it's not abt making a decision which way to turn, and then worry abt the whether we can u-turn or not. maybe it's about the final destination.
but problem is, wat is my final destination? i'm now like travelling on newton circus like that, turning round and round and round, aimlessly. can i juz drive straight into something and juz die?
i juz feel that really, maybe i should leave, this is the best way where none is hurt the most. no one deserves to be hurt the most. i am the one who deserves to die, who deserves to carry all the sins.
Monday, February 27, 2006
i'm really very tired. (with regards to work)
think i've come to a point of giving up. It doesn't matter if you are not smart, but u r willing to learn. It really sucks when you are distracted and not interested in the lesson. wat's the point of copying and talking at the same time?
if this is wat u want, fine, i'll oblige with it.
sorry, words of anger, very angry and disappointed now.
think i've come to a point of giving up. It doesn't matter if you are not smart, but u r willing to learn. It really sucks when you are distracted and not interested in the lesson. wat's the point of copying and talking at the same time?
if this is wat u want, fine, i'll oblige with it.
sorry, words of anger, very angry and disappointed now.
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
to the f****r who picked up my sim card,
no, i should say, i admire your courage. admire your courage for using the sim card to dial 1900 numbers and chalk up almost $200 worth of phone calls. u r soooooooooo courageous.
so may the good gods reward u with herpes and STDs. thank you.
and to the telco company, thank you for not waiving the charges. You let me learnt a lesson. fu
no, i should say, i admire your courage. admire your courage for using the sim card to dial 1900 numbers and chalk up almost $200 worth of phone calls. u r soooooooooo courageous.
so may the good gods reward u with herpes and STDs. thank you.
and to the telco company, thank you for not waiving the charges. You let me learnt a lesson. fu
Friday, February 17, 2006
this morning, was travelling on tpe. a little late so was at lane 1, abt 100 plus km/h.
then this car was driving, even faster cos it can catch up wif mine and very close to my car.
then the dreadful thing happen. he flash high beam!!!! idiot!!!!! hate it. so i step on the brake.
siao, u want to flash high beam, u want to travel faster than me, u have the skills, then u overtake me lor, (think got 1 kencil in lane 2, travelling ard the same speed as me) if u can overtake me, i LL, i shut up. u dun have flash high beam. idiot.
2nd time still flash high beam, i really feel like e brake in the middle of the expressway and let u bang into my car. my reason for e braking: hmmm, suddenly got one flash of light, my eyes blinded, i cannot see, so i step on the brake lor, anything wrong? feel like e brake, but didn't, juz tap on the brake again.
better dun mess with a hungry pregnant woman. it's double the anger.
hmmm, feel much better after getting it off.
then this car was driving, even faster cos it can catch up wif mine and very close to my car.
then the dreadful thing happen. he flash high beam!!!! idiot!!!!! hate it. so i step on the brake.
siao, u want to flash high beam, u want to travel faster than me, u have the skills, then u overtake me lor, (think got 1 kencil in lane 2, travelling ard the same speed as me) if u can overtake me, i LL, i shut up. u dun have flash high beam. idiot.
2nd time still flash high beam, i really feel like e brake in the middle of the expressway and let u bang into my car. my reason for e braking: hmmm, suddenly got one flash of light, my eyes blinded, i cannot see, so i step on the brake lor, anything wrong? feel like e brake, but didn't, juz tap on the brake again.
better dun mess with a hungry pregnant woman. it's double the anger.
hmmm, feel much better after getting it off.
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
i was so naive, last time i used to think that when u have a problem, juz go to sleep, when u wake up tmr, things will be better.
but i was very wrong. the problem did not only kept me awake, but also i feel the same before i slept and after i woke up. the feeling of helplessness.
u said dunno when it will end, i juz have a weird feeling that the end is near.
do miracles really happen? for the past few nites, i didn't really notice the stars, but the moon was pretty. was mesmerizing juz watching the moon. wish the moon would take me away.
the clouds has always been beautiful, especially on sunny, bright days. wish i can feel as light hearted as the clouds. but i can't, can't anymore. sad.....
hey, it's valentine's day. Happy valentine's day to all. juz like my student said, be it watever ur status, happy valentine's day.
but i was very wrong. the problem did not only kept me awake, but also i feel the same before i slept and after i woke up. the feeling of helplessness.
u said dunno when it will end, i juz have a weird feeling that the end is near.
do miracles really happen? for the past few nites, i didn't really notice the stars, but the moon was pretty. was mesmerizing juz watching the moon. wish the moon would take me away.
the clouds has always been beautiful, especially on sunny, bright days. wish i can feel as light hearted as the clouds. but i can't, can't anymore. sad.....
hey, it's valentine's day. Happy valentine's day to all. juz like my student said, be it watever ur status, happy valentine's day.
Monday, February 13, 2006
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
finding it difficult to get to sleep these days. have to consciously tell myself not to think too much. need to relax the mind before i get back to sleep. scared to wake up in the middle of the nite too, once wake up, can't get back to sleep either. have to do the same thing, remind myself not to think too much.
has a big pimple on my temple. anyway, main point is many things remind me of you. pimple, pda, clouds, blue sky, rain, car key, pc, many many things.
time to go to work. think i'll stop here for today.
has a big pimple on my temple. anyway, main point is many things remind me of you. pimple, pda, clouds, blue sky, rain, car key, pc, many many things.
time to go to work. think i'll stop here for today.
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
Monday, January 23, 2006
couldn't sleep last nite. woke up at 3am, then i got stuck, staring at the ceiling. thought about a lot of things. work is one, then thought of the past, thought of the future also.
had to force myself to sleep at 4am. but the dream was so painfully real, that i woke up with a shock. it was so so real.
nvm, maybe i'm juz daydreaming to get myself off from thinking about work.
had to force myself to sleep at 4am. but the dream was so painfully real, that i woke up with a shock. it was so so real.
nvm, maybe i'm juz daydreaming to get myself off from thinking about work.
Sunday, January 22, 2006
watched spiderman 2 on HBO.
spiderman loved the gal so much, but he didn't dare say to her. also, he knew that he has many enemies as spiderman, and thus he doesn't want to jeopardise the gal's safety. he gave up his love.
some may find it touching, or on the extreme, some may find it hypocritical. for me, i cried. eventually, the gal ran away from her wedding and went to find spiderman. i wish i had her courage.
thoughts for the weekend, tomorrow will be another busy week before the cny.
spiderman loved the gal so much, but he didn't dare say to her. also, he knew that he has many enemies as spiderman, and thus he doesn't want to jeopardise the gal's safety. he gave up his love.
some may find it touching, or on the extreme, some may find it hypocritical. for me, i cried. eventually, the gal ran away from her wedding and went to find spiderman. i wish i had her courage.
thoughts for the weekend, tomorrow will be another busy week before the cny.
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
eyes are puffy, feels like putting eye mask. hmmm, eye mask. nothing, juz came across my mind.
yah thank you so much, thank you so much for letting me realise the pain of your child in another family, calling other people mum or dad. yah, the pain, u r right, i can feel it, right thru the heart. retribution, yeah, it is.
maybe, maybe all should have a good talk together. all have the thought, looks like it's up to me to co-ordinate.
but if i can give up melody, then maybe there is no need for talk.
yah thank you so much, thank you so much for letting me realise the pain of your child in another family, calling other people mum or dad. yah, the pain, u r right, i can feel it, right thru the heart. retribution, yeah, it is.
maybe, maybe all should have a good talk together. all have the thought, looks like it's up to me to co-ordinate.
but if i can give up melody, then maybe there is no need for talk.
Monday, January 16, 2006
Thursday, January 12, 2006
this morning woke up with a heavy head and a heavy heart. eyes are swollen.
last nite, yesterday, 11/1, triple one again. anyway, the rain came in time last nite. it was pouring so heavy. so very heavy. i've never seen the sky cry so much before. it frightens me.
the sound of the rain pattering on the hard ground was so loud, it was good becos in this way, i couldn't hear the heartsss shattering.
it juz proves to me once again that i have done wrong.
last nite, yesterday, 11/1, triple one again. anyway, the rain came in time last nite. it was pouring so heavy. so very heavy. i've never seen the sky cry so much before. it frightens me.
the sound of the rain pattering on the hard ground was so loud, it was good becos in this way, i couldn't hear the heartsss shattering.
it juz proves to me once again that i have done wrong.
Monday, January 09, 2006
Friday, January 06, 2006
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
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