death of macbeal

This is an obituary notice of the death of macbeal.

Macbeal passed away suddenly on 26.03.06, 5.58pm, leaving behind sweet memories.
oct 2004 - 26.03.06

ever wonder why we say good nite to each other before sleep?

juz realise the importance of a good nite's rest. when u have a good nite's rest, u feel refreshed, energised to face tomorrow. when u dun sleep well at nite, like aches or getting up in the middle of the nite often, u juz dun feel good when u wake up in the morning, like not enuff rest like that.

so next time when we say good nite, mean it.

they say pregnant ladies are troublesome. well, i didn't really believe it until i went through it myself.

first it was fever over the weekend, then last nite, i sprained my left leg. it wasn't nearly a sprain, it's juz that like the nerve or the bones didn't click properly, so it was painful when walking or at a certain angle.

and naughty mabel was imitating the way i walk, putting her hand on behind her back and protruding her stomach.

i'm going to die!

my backache is killing me. well, i do hope it kills me, but it's making me irritable and plus the humid and hot weather.

can't sit, can't stand, can't lie down properly. probably worse than dying.

brought m&m to changi airport swensen on tuesday evening. well, they ate a lot, and of course, not forgetting their ice cream.

after dinner, marcus said, 'ok, let's go take aeroplane now.'

i got a shock. have to bluff him no tickets, no tickets cannot take aeroplane. can only bring him to the viewing gallery to watch aeroplanes. could see that he was very very reluctant to go as he kept saying that he wants to take aeroplane. wow, he thinks taking aeroplane is like taking taxi or mrt like that. yah, wait mummy earn lots of money next time....

first day of March holiday..... but the school is filled with activities and students and colleagues. maybe the thought of not having to teach this week..... kind of excited to be back in school.

really rested during the weekend.... brought M&M to macdonald, they ordered Fantastic, but they didn't eat the 'rice', they juz ate the meat in the middle, so poor us, ate one and a half Fantastic, so full.

on sunday, brought them to KFC. Mabel suggested, but as usual, all they ate was whipped potato and popcorn chicken, luckily didn't order much. As my poor sis was working late last nite, so M&M didn't get a chance to go to AMK this weekend, but they seriously kept talking about it. So dear sis, u must have done a good job in chapereon -ing them, they miss yi yi and uncle and not forgetting, goodies from ah ma.

the steam boat was fun last nite. they enjoyed throwing the food inside and scooping out the food. they really enjoyed the food. and all of us had 2 mini cornettos after dinner... luxury. (i hope they forget that there are 4 remaining in the fridge)

blogger not working well today, hope that i remember to save my draft later.

mabel is very sweet. when she goes out wif my mum, she actually remembers me and bought me a dress. of course, that's using her grandmother's money, but i guess, it's the thought that counts, i'm really touched by her gesture.

last nite, i dreamt that my stomach is very pain until i have to take an ambulance to the hospital.

as for issues, i dunno, since fri, when i wrote the last blog, i've told myself, heart of stone. either way, people will get hurt, either way, together or apart, things have totally changed, totally not the same.

best to die.... but mabel will cry.....

yah, so it goes to show again, NEVER DEPEND ON GOD DAMN ONE TO SOLVE YOUR PROBLEM

in the end, u r still the one who has to make the decision, who has to answer to your own shitty problems that you have created. yah, stupid me, take out the courage to make the decision. BE SICKENING STRONG AND HEARTLESS.

That's the problem with you, Sandra Teo, you are such a coward. you are too emotional, no wonder you cannot accomplish anything big. Sandra Teo, let this be your last tears, last pain, last sorrow. From henceforth, your heart will be cast into stone.

**** the world!

crossroads

people always say that life is like travelling on the road. when it comes to making decision abt life, people say it's like coming to a crossroad.

when travelling, if u make a wrong turn, u can always u-turn back. in life, if u make a wrong turn, can u turn it back? no, u can't. people say u can turn back, yah, i do somehow agree, but if u turn back, will things be the same as before?

maybe it's not abt making a decision which way to turn, and then worry abt the whether we can u-turn or not. maybe it's about the final destination.

but problem is, wat is my final destination? i'm now like travelling on newton circus like that, turning round and round and round, aimlessly. can i juz drive straight into something and juz die?

i juz feel that really, maybe i should leave, this is the best way where none is hurt the most. no one deserves to be hurt the most. i am the one who deserves to die, who deserves to carry all the sins.