Saturday, February 24, 2007

life is never smooth sailing. true... the challenges that life present will hone us into a better person. we will be able to be a better person after all the ordeals.

but that is only if you can survive the ordeals. it's tiring, it's mentally exhausting, you juz goes into a spiral, deeper and deeper.

if i ever die, i will take my family with me. i do not want them to suffer on this stupid earth.

sorry, mood is very overcast. i really dun see the sunshine, i really dun see the rainbow after the rain. it's has juz been storm after storm for the past one month. a strong person will also become torn and tattered.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

the chinese new year is very boring.. nothing to look forward to... can you believe it, i actually watched 6 hours of fear factor on tuesday on axn.

everything juz sux from then on.... luck, work etc.... today came back to start work... well, i'll not blog much on school, promise not to blog about students, but i'm piss. definitely piss.

feel like having a good hearty meal to relax the mind. yes, i think good food will work now. juz quickly wish that the day is over, then i can go home to see my own kids.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

will go into Osho's reading to make peace with my inner being. i need to find a balance. it's always cheem to read his articles. very profound, very true. juz read about 'rainbow'

if you know the key of awareness. Then you can turn everything into gold. When somebody insults, that is the moment to keep alert. When your wife looks at somebody else and you feel hurt, that is the moment to keep alert. When you are feeling sad, gloomy, depressed, when you feel the whole world is against you, that is the moment to be alert. When you are surrounded by a dark night, that is the moment to keep your light burning. And all these situations will prove helpful -- they are meant for it.

If you know how to use anger, you will see anger gives you a sharpness of being -- just as if somebody has sharpened a sword. Anger rightly used gives you a sharpness, a radiance, a tremendous vitality

how apt this article is with my present piss mood. but how? how do i keep aware when someone has insulted me? i will have to find a way, i suppose

pissed

Ok, i'm a simple person, all i ask for is not for anyone to step on my tail. Once u step on my tail, beware my wrath.

angry and depressed.

1) loan. i shall not elaborate, it's juz frustrating and a strain on your energy

2) pillow. how can a person be so calculative over a missing pillow? alright, there are two pillow, it is a pair. but honestly, there is only one pillow, all along there is only one pillow. what makes u so sure that there were 2 pillows? my stupid mistake, i should have checked stock before moving in and writing them in black and white. i'm juz piss, had difficulty getting to sleep. especially so if this is your family members. i mean logically, you should know, why would i want to take your one pillow? what can i do with your one pillow? i want to take, i also take millions of dollar. oh please............ juz the thought of it makes me fed up. your own family members so calculative or so not trusting? or what? i juz could not comprehend.

nvm, i only know that this chinese new year, i'll not be going anywhere. if i can't stand a person, i will not be a hypocrite and be happy and merry. i'll juz excuse myself, becos i do not want to spoil the new year mood of everyone. yes, i've made up my mind. silent protest!

juz an example to show how i can spoil people's mood. (in a happy mood) "Sandra, happy new year!!" (me, juz look blankly at the person) " the new year very happy meh?"

so i better excuse myself.

ok, piss meter says 100. so i better shut up.

Monday, February 12, 2007

so fast, it's already been 10 days since i blogged. this week will be another busy week before it's CNY. it's like so many things more before i can fully enjoy the 'keep work' feeling. ok, after tues... tuesday will be a busy day for me.........extremely busy......... jitters... after tues, i'll really be able to enjoy....

can only do my own shopping on thurs, hopefully, if not, friday. think i never done cny shopping so late... not to forget, the marketing of food to be done. but this year, due to my homeless status, think i dun need to buy so much... next year, next year will be a great year.

the shopping centres must be packed with people during the weekends. i only went to ntuc at amk and gosh, it was so crowded. that is the festive mood. so i can imagine orchard road... cos this is the last weekend before cny....

ok shall stop here....

Friday, February 02, 2007

haha, juz did another stupid tickle test and the test results are hilarious!!!

sandra, you're a String Bikini

Whether you're batting your eyelashes, smiling that sweet smile, or brushing past him at a party, you know how to work it, girl. And that's why you're a sweet and sexy string bikini. Just like your panty match, you're a perfectly cool mix of classic, flirty, and fun.We bet you're on everyone's invite list because you've got the confidence and charisma to talk to strangers and make anyone in the room feel important. And nothing's sexier than that!