been 2 weeks since my last update. been very busy with work. but at the same time, i've thought about work, life. i guess when u reach a point of burn out, u tend to take a step back to reflect what is all this for?

Work, no doubt is busy, this is the busiest time of the year. with so many things to do and straddle and manage, sometimes u can't help but wonder why? why we work so hard and others can just 'chao keng' and do the minimum? this is not fair, i know, i know very well, life is not fair.

this morning as i was sipping coffee and just thinking... something juz hit me in the head and i juz got emo.

anyway, what will keep me going are my 3 children. as marcus and mabel is growing up, expectation is for them to be more independent and of course, academic performance. as for son son, his character is shaping. he is very talkative, his smiles charm me. he can by trying at times also, but slowly teach him lor. he woke up at 4 plus again this morning. maybe that is why i needed my coffee this morning.

whatever life brings, juz be it. most important, my children are happy. most important, you are happy.

dear max woke up at 2 something last nite. well, his pampers was wet and his pyjamas was wet. ok, fine, then i changed for him. but after that, he just refused to go to sleep. after 2 hours of shaking him, i decided to carry him up and then juz let him play toys. even until 5 plus, i thought he might want to sleep, so that I can catch some sleep before my alarm rings at 545am!!!! but he doesn't want to sleep. sigh, no choice, carry him again.

hence i think today's mood is so-so, will try to keep myself going. better have nothing to trigger and make the mood foul. cross my fingers...

flower craze

been trying to hone my green fingers lately. bought two plants (in fact, one was given to me), one is the 'ang hui' which loosely translated 'red flower' plant. another is the orchid. looked up information about orchids on the internet. needed tips on how to grow them well. now a new stalk is coming out, so happy.

the other one, as i dunno the english name, i'm still trying to test out.

i remember last time i came across a website which gives you ideas on how to arrange flowers. some are quite unconventional way of arranging flowers. it's a very interesting website, but i've since lost it... can't find it in my history files either, i dun have the slightest idea the name. juz know it's a uk based website. sharks, i should have added it to my favourite.

anyway, chance upon marthastewartc.om. great ideas in different categories. if i'm at home during the weekdays, i try to catch the show on channel 5, 12 noon.

recent 2 murders

As the interesting details about the two murders surfaced over the newspaper the past few days, i cannot help it but my heart goes out to the children.

ok, marital problems.... why must you kill your the other party? didn't you think of your children? you really think that by killing your husband, your children will accept your new boyfriend as daddy? have you spared a thought for your children? i really pity them. as in the case of the woman who was killed by the husband, her two children are so young! age 2 and 4... my god... so sad, the father will be in jail or probably hang, the mother is dead.

then the other case where the husband was killed... i really dunno how to say. i think if i'm the 9 year old daughter, i will hate the mother forever.

so for my children, a happy family i will give them.

again, thought i've lots to say, but now that i've logged in, i also dunno wat to say.

went to giant on sat to buy things. well, over there, u must not be kind and give in, esp the seafood session and the vegetable section. will lose out one, those aunties grab things, like nobody's business.

it's only 1st of july... 11 more days to pay day... :(