Monday, January 28, 2008

ok, i dunno what to blog about the O level results. I'm pleasantly surprised with 4E1's results, i'm very proud of them. I'm disappointed with 4E3's results, didn't expect so low. was expecting at least 65%. 4E5, well, as expected. but what i'm surprised was, some unexpected students actually pass my Humanities!!!

so yes, it gives me some motivation to press on. i dunno how to describe the feeling, when the students say thank you to you. You really feel like seeing your 'babies' grow up. i really dunno how to describe that warm feeling you have. There are definitely pain during the process of teaching them, but on that day, to see them graduate, that feeling is indescribable.

I'm really convicted and convinced to my passion. These are the un-measurable things that keeps you going on in the job. no money can quantify that feeling.

to all my students, no matter good or bad results, it is only the beginning of your young adulthood. There is still a long way to go. remember, pathways are carved out by humans... the different paths are there, you just have to search harder and all roads will lead to Rome. Success in life is not measured by how much money you have nor how big a house/car you have. Success in life is the right values you hold dear to your heart. To err is human, most important is to learn from mistakes and move on. No point holding on to the past. Wish all of you success. Wish i can give all of you a hug.
well, it's been some time since i upload photos of children... well, it's definitely overdue... ok, when i have the time, i'll upload it... maybe during the cny period

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

beware, US may be going through recession, it's a matter of time we feel the recession. should start saving for the future

Sunday, January 20, 2008

last night went to kbox to sing out the blues and depression and frustration. It was good. It has also been a long time since i step into karaoke. I think it was since 2006, a few months before Max was born.

It is actually a long story... at that time a lot of songs have a lot of meaning. The last kbox, i can still remember, it was with the kids, but we only stayed for a very short time. about an hour or so only... that was the shortest time i stayed in karaoke. the reason we left hurriedly, i found out later was because that time, hubby could feel that all the songs that was sung has got meanings. he could feel that i wasn't singing the songs for him.

i guess for so long, we didn't step into karaoke, i guess it's because of this. eventually last nite, i confronted my fears.

anyway, i had a good time singing, shouting and boy, we are still good at it.

it was a good way for me to release my stress.... tomorrow is the beginning of my dark period, after the karaoke session, i feel less stress now and i'm better prepared to face it.

Saturday, January 19, 2008

on 21/1 will begin a period of dark days, dark mood for me....
there is a redeployment of teaching classes for me.... on one hand, i understand the school's needs, on the other hand, i can feel that it's up to my neck already.
dark days because i'm not happy, and i've been sighing so many times already
dark mood = just another word for depression

although this is temporary, but i do not know how temporary. 3 months? 6 months?

Friday, January 18, 2008

another of those mail: (for reading pleasure only, dun ever believe in it and send money to them)
i will not even bother to paragraph it....


FROM RICHARD LEMO. AUDITING AND ACCOUNTING UNIT. BANK OF AFRICA. OUAGADOUGOU BURKINA-FASO DIRECT TEL. 00 226 78 78 87 16. (TOP SECRET) I am Mr.Richard Lemo, the director in charge of auditing and accounting section of International Bank of Africa Ouagadougou Burkina-faso in West Africa with due respect and regard. I have decided to contact you on a business transaction that will be very beneficial to both of us at the end of the transaction. During our investigation and auditing in this bank, my department came across a very huge sum of money belonging to a deceased person who died on 31st July 2000 in a plane crash and the fund has been dormant in his account with this Bank without any claim of the fund in our custody either from his family or relation before our discovery to this development.View the website for the plane crash, http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/europe/859479.stm Although personally, I keep this information secret within myself and partners to enable the whole plans and idea be Profitable and successful during the time of execution. The said amount was U.S $7.2M (seven million two hundred United States dollars). As it may interest you to know, I got your impressive information through the Bukinab chamber of commerce on foreign business relations here in Ouaga. Burkina-Faso. Meanwhile all the whole arrangement to put claim over this fund as the bonafide next of kin to the deceased, get the required approval and transfer this money to a foreign account has been put in place and directives and needed information will be relayed to you as soon as you indicated your interest and willingness to assist us and also benefit your self to this great business opportunity.In fact I could have done this deal alone but because of my position in this country as a civil servant(A Banker),we are not allowed to operate a foreign account and would eventually raise an eye brow on my side during the time of transfer because I work in this bank. This is the actual reason why it will require a second party or fellow who will forward claims as the next of kin with affidavit of trust of oath to the Bank and also present a foreign account where he will need the money to be re-transferred into on his request as it may be after due verification and clarification by the correspondent branch of the bank where the whole money will be remitted from to your own designation bank account. I will not fail to inform you that this transaction is 100% risk free. On smooth conclusion of this transaction, you will be entitled to 40% of the total sum as gratification,, while 60% will be for me. Please, you have been adviced to keep "top secret" as I am still in service and intend to retire from service after we conclude this deal with you. I will be monitoring the whole situation here in this bank until you confirm the money in your account and ask me to come down to your country for subsequent sharing of the fund according to percentages previously indicated and further investment, either in your country or any country you advice us to invest in. All other necessary vital information will be send to you when I hear from you. I look forward to receive your phone number and email so that I will get back to you. Yours faithfully, Mr.Richard Lemo

oops, he said that this is top secret, now that i'm post it in my blog... i hope he's not in trouble... but what the heck, the info in this email is fake..... duh

Thursday, January 17, 2008

recently, i've been getting emails like this:-

Dear Friend,
Let me start by introducing myself.I am Mr. SONG LILE directorof operations of the Hang Seng Bank Ltd.I will need you to assistme in executing this Business Project from Hong Kong to yourcountry.Nineteen millions Five Hundred Thousand United StateDollars only in my branch. Once the funds have been transferredto your nominated bank account we shall then share in the ratioof 70% for me,30% for you.
My private email:(mrsonglilee04@yahoo.com.hk).
Regards,Song Lile

Now we all know that these are scam emails. in fact, this is the third one that i received this month. the first one was from some princess dunno wat, the other one was familiar, somewhere from Nigeria. so this time, i really cannot tahan already, so i replied this guy with this email.

Dear Mr Song,

i wish i can help you. however, i'm just a nobody in Singapore. Perhaps you want to try our national banks, the director might be able to help you. our national banks are DBS, POSB, OCBC and UOB.

alternatively, you can invest in citigroup as they are looking for investors to bail them out of the subprime bad debts.

regards
friend

how's that?

Friday, January 11, 2008

hmmm, let me see... every day is like eating reunion dinner for my family. For those who are not aware, my in laws are staying together with me now, and last nite, my father in law came over, today being his off day... and my sister and her boyfriend also dropped by last night to see marcus and mabel, so dinner time was like a huge reunion dinner. We had vege, fish, chicken wings, soup, braised meat... everyone just sit and crowd round the rectangle table. The feeling is great! really, it's good to have dinner as one big family. i think neighbours who walked past must be thinking what a big family we have.

sometimes, my mother in law cooks and invites my mum over for dinner on sat... somtimes, my sister in law will come on sat, so on saturday nights, it's also a big reunion. with the children, seated at the another small table.

We used to joke, rehearsal for chinese new year.

well, when family members are staying together, it's really good, because we help out with one another, we tend to think less of ourselves. This is a good training for marcus and mabel too. giving in to their elders and helping out around the house. and partly because of this, this makes me feel very assured when i'm working and thus i tend to work until really late at night, into the evening, 7 pm, then i'll leave the school to go home. well, i know i can't get anything done at home, so i better finish more work before i go home.

and because all of us like to watch the 9pm, channel 8 show, including marcus, (yes, including marcus and he reads the English subtitles) it's also a great feeling when the whole family gathers round a 20" LCD tv, (haha, yah, it's a little small, considering that all of us are watching it) watching tv. great feeling. i dunno how to explain that warm feeling.

oh yah, marcus is bugging me to get a bathtub for his toilet, darn... promised him last christmas, now i think i have to postpone it till this christmas.

Friday, January 04, 2008

i dunno where to begin. it's regarding the transportation problem for my children. we are still working out how best to solve the issue without upsetting much of our working schedule.

some may say transfer school.... but let me tell you, being in a new school has a lot of impacts on a child. for example, mabel, she had a nightmare last nite and she cried very loudly and she refuses to tell me what is her nightmare.

on wed nite, marcus told me over dinner that he loves his school. when i try to sound out to them that i may want to change school for them, they said no.

children adapt fast... not true, the impact on them is unmeasurable. i do not have the heart to upset them by changing school for them. it is not so simple....

anyway, i'm also upset now.... a little demoralised by work.... i shall not elaborate, there are eyes and ears on the internet.... upset

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

2nd Jan... first day of school.Think it was a mad rush for most parents early in the morning as their child might still be sleeping in bed.. and many anxious parents whose child may be staring pri 1 or sec 1.

i was also in a rush too this morning to get my two children ready for school. hmmm, the maid obviously was not of much help lor... marcus even chided her for 2 things she did wrongly in the morning. good, let my son chide her, save my breath. in case you are thinking, i'm mean to my maid for allowing my son to scold her, let me elaborate on the two incidents.

1) Despite being with us half a year, she still can't differentiate between marcus toothbrush and mabel's toothbrush, and marcus is those kind of perfectionist person, he hates it when his things are not in the right order.
2) marcus has a sensitive nose and of all things, she go and put powder on marcus face!! yes, marus' face. no wonder he got fed up... i also told her off. Myanmar and Singapore are different, in Myanmar, i know many people including adults and children put this white stuff on their face, but duh, we are in Singapore!! the powder on the nose thing really piss me off in the morning.

end of day 1, voice is breaking, feet is tired and head is having a splitting headache... really splitting.