Sunday, July 27, 2008







this morning, we went to fort canning for a walkathon organised by children's society. it's a 3 km walk, so very manageable for the children.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

oh yes, btw, you could have noticed that i've removed change refrigerator from my wish list. yes, not that i have bought a new fridge, i've (actually not me) we have changed the rubbing casing to the fridge. so now my fridge should not be having problems and should be saving electricity now. spend $59 is better than a few hundred $$.

by right, fisher and paykel brand should be long lasting. the showroom person says some people use their fridge for 10 over years. my fridge is about 6 years old only. so still got some more years to go. it's just that i think the moving of house has slightly damaged the fridge a little, hence the rubber casing was damaged.

i've just remembered from my colleague who teach English, only spoil people or food spoil, things dun spoil, things are damaged.

ibook

my colleague bought mac pro and gave me his ibook. It's a really nice gesture of them. them because i know both husband and wife.

hmm, dun mind that the ibook is an older version, certain applications, yes, cannot support, like msn live. but i guess it's ok. i'm still exploring it. i dunno how to express the feeling. it's like, i've been thinking of an ibook or mac book or even mac book air for a long time. so really appreciate and count my blessing.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

It is very stress or should i use the word frustrating (i also dunno what word to use) when the home is not happy.

recently for i dunno what reason, my mil has been very harsh on the maid. and she rains all these complaints to us when we reach home from work, it's really very frustrating.

actually i also dunno what exactly my mil wants me to do. does she want me to fire the maid? scold the maid? or check through her drawers?

to me, i find it pointless to scold the maid when the thing is over. unless i catch them red handed, then ok, i will scold them. but other than that, what do you want me to do?

when things go wrong, i cannot ask the two maids, who did it? why was it done? no one will ever admit. so i take it as there is a ghost in my house causing all these things.

i'm very tired, i shall stop here, even blogging it here makes me sick.

Friday, July 18, 2008

when someone cries, it's a sign of
1) weakness?
2) stress?
3) showing sadness?

last evening, on my way back home, i was just thinking... work, immense, stress etc etc. then i think of the baby i lost in 2005, i dunno why i suddenly think of himer, the thought just come suddenly, then the tears just flow. even now as i'm typing, i juz feel like crying.

so now i'm thinking, was i crying because of 1 and 2 or was i crying because of 3? it could be himer may be the trigger. am i really that weak, unable to take stress?

or could it be i've never really gotten over himer? some thing that happened 3 years ago... i'm just wondering, that's why i'm putting it down in words.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

wednesday has become my mini weekend. look forward to midweek to destress so as to perk myself to carry on.

let me see... yesterday, need to go to suntec city to collect fun on foot t-shirt. (Ser, this year we could not participate. anyway, this year's t-shirt colour not so nice leh, dirty pink colour)

after collecting the t-shirt, went sizzler for a early dinner. real early, 6pm. anyway, this is my lunch. so we had salad bar meal, we were so full from eating the salad. for those who been to sizzler would know what i mean. they offer a wide variety of salad and just by eating the salad, it's so full. i wonder how do the other people manage to gulp down their main course. so by the time we finish, about 7.30pm, went to balaclava. It was so crowded. mainly office crowd people who go there for happy hour. we ordered some beer, then by about 9 plus, we left the place. just before the band plays. but the place has never stopped being crowded.

it was a good destress method last night, we talked about alot of things. It is good. sometimes, people ask how come after married for so long, we still have so much to talk to each other, i dunno how to answer the question. But we also went through a lot these 11 years of marriage to be able to have so much to talk. we talk about the past, present and future. kao, we still have so many years with each other. i still remember there was a point in time when we almost wanted to go for marriage counselling.

Monday, July 14, 2008

Angelina jolie has given birth!!! it's a boy and a girl.
it's always joyous to have a newborn. now she has 6 children,i will never catch up with her.

but 1 Max is enough. recently i realised, as he is playing with marcus and mabel, and if they do not share things with him, he will tell them,'mummy beat har. mummy beat har.' then if i'm there, he would turn around, 'mummy!' i cannot stop laughing. must be mabel who teach him one.

last nite, i was still doing some work, he is about to sleep, but he kept on calling, 'mummy! mummy!' (ignore him) 'MAAAAAAAAMMY' (in a louder voice) finally i turned around, 'yes?' 'mummy, sleep.'

yesterday afternoon brought them to east coast park for cycling. wah, east coast is really crowded. it is a challenge to cycle for the children to cycle. But it was good exercise and everyone had some fun, laughter and sun.

my arm muscle is still aching. i had difficulty turning my arm around to unhook, oops, ie to say if my back is itchy, i will have great difficulty scratching my back.

Sunday, July 13, 2008

ok, over the weekend, i should be busy doing my work, but then on saturday, went to buy nintendo wii.... yes! we had fun playing with it on saturday afternoon. my arms were aching so much from the boxing that at night, i couldn't really sleep becos of the pain in my arm muscles. well, all three of them had fun playing with it too. the easiest game max could play i think is the wii sports, baseball. he could pitch the ball, that was so easy for him. the rest of the game, hmmm, well, if you let him hold the remote control,thinking that you can help him control, well, trust me, he doesnt' allow. and he's not stupid, he doesn't want to take the nanchuk (the other part of the remote control) that you offered.

so today is sunday, besides catching up on my work, bringing them out for cycle soon.

last nite, mum came to my house to have dinner. suppose to have a gathering at OT but postpone till next week. then after dinner, max and i accompanied her to giant for some shopping. bought quite a lot of things and giant is very croweded on a sat nite. after shopping, she stayed until about 11 plus then she goes home. she had a hand at nintendo wii too. gee, imagine mum playing golf. ha!

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

that night i had a dream. i dreamt that i had yet another baby! and while adrian is feeding the baby milk, max stood in front and keep asking, 'papa, bb? bb?'

talking about max, he is so funny. he knows when we get ready to go out, then he'll hang on to your leg or ask you to carry him, then he'll take his shoes and start to put them on. while waiting for the lift, he'll go like 'sit car, sit car' meaning he wants to take the car to go out. on the way, he'll be pointing to things and asking you, 'this?', you answer 'bus', points to another thing, 'this?', you answer 'car'. points back to bus again, 'this?' you answer 'car', 'noooooooo, bus.'

mabel is having her common tests starting today. hope she dun stress herself out. she is aiming for full marks. well, i didn't ask her to get full marks, in fact, my target mark was realistic, 80 marks. maybe i'm in my school too long, so target also become lower. i just dun want to stress her, of course if she can get full marks, i'll be happy. but let's be realistic, there is always room for careless mistakes, esp english. maybe maths, yes, should aim for full marks, esp for pri 1.

marcus - hmmm, that day my bro in law got his salary, he bought new PSP games for marcus. euro 2008 is one game, then i dunno wat else.

am seriously considering to buy wii. i saw the whole range of wii games at this shop recently. there is sims 2 pet wii game. seriously! how do you play sims 2 pet on wii? you actually simulate the stroking, feeding of the animals?? i seriously have no idea.

i have 5 sets of paper to set by next monday. 2 prelim papers. last night, i've already set 1 paper. will do the other 2 today, if i got the time. then the prelim papers must put heart into it to set. 'i'm not your superwoman...' haha, this song just came into my head suddenly.

ok, time to go for flag raising

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

i feel so free today

emotion-less

if there is such a phrase. if not, then allow me to coin the phrase.

maybe i'm one who do not put my worries on my face. but if it's happiness or excitment, probably yes, cos i'll be very bubbly. that's why people thought that i'm always happy, positive, no worries.

that is what i learnt from my husband all these years. whenever we have problems to discuss, worries to talk about, we usually talk about it at night, when the children are sleeping. even if we dun talk about it, we would be sleepless for that nite. then the next morning, when we wake up, life goes on as usual and we go to work.

yeah, probably blogging is one of the outlet i release my inner thoughts. once i'm done here, everything said and forgotten.
darn, yesterday was a bad start to the week. was badly affected. i told myself to quickly pick myself up and move on with life.

last nite, i read wanbao (yeah, since when i read chinese newspaper)a woman was complaining becos her 4D number came out first prize but she didn't win any money, becos the maid bought the wrong number. this goes to tell me that,sometimes, things are better to do it on your own, rather than ask someone to help you.

yup, that is me, i always believe in doing things on my own. people always complain why you don't let others do? that is my problem. i know no man is an island, we need the help of family/friends at times. but then sometimes, it's better to do things on your own. what i've learnt from yesterday's experience, i better do things on my own. i hate to owe people favours. from now on, i affirmed that things are better if i do it on my own. no more depending on others.

Monday, July 07, 2008

half year review

at work, we do half year review. but for our own personality and character, do we do review?

from young, i've heard of the chinese phrase, 'if a man does not do things for his own, ...' dunno how to do the direct translation. but in short, be selfish and do things for yourself. when i was young, i wondered, how can that be? how can being generous and kind to others be hurtful to yourself?

slowly, as we slog our lives away in this society, i really cannot help thinking of this phrase. in business, at work, who is not for yourself? be kind to others, and others will bully you.

so i've learnt, learn to harden my heart. but along the way, i know i've hurt people. people may say that i'm heartless, sly, cunning, selfish. all these, i will ignore.

fish, i dun have the mood to think further.
another week has ended.
was so busy last week, no time to think so much.
it's good to be doing work from home.

i guess all is well for now. work will be busy, with a few more things to complete besides the teaching.
am looking forward to marcus' birthday. long weekend again!

am worried for mum's case. but i guess, even if i worry too much or too little will not change or improve the situation, so i'll just pray and leave it in God's hands.

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

just a quick posting. been a crazy week ever since school started. time passes very quickly.

anyway, half of 2008 has gone and before we knew it, christmas!!!!!!!!!