'it is good' 'it is good' by about 12 noon, i'm fine with my feelings. well, though i still hate my fat waist, i guess i should do something about it. i guess i should do the proper way, sorry, i promise not to do it again.
as for the trip preparation, by noon time, most of it is settled already.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
continuation from the previous post:
1) i shall blast my ears with music to calm down
2) yesterday i heard a story:
african king loves to hunt. his faithful follower will always say 'it is good'. one day, king got accidentally shot himself and his last finger was gone. faithful follower, 'it is good'. this infuriates the king. 'how can this be good when i lost my little finger?' so the king threw his follower into the jail.
one year later, king goes hunting again, this time, without his faithful follower. He was caught by this tribal group who are cannibals. just as they are about to eat him, they stopped. king asked why. they said, 'u not complete. you lost your little finger, we do not eat incomplete human beings.' so they release the king.
the king was so happy and immediately went to the jail to release his faithful follower. the king apologised and asked how the follower feel for having been in the jail for a year. faithful follower, 'it is good' the king feels puzzled, 'how can this be good when u sat in jail for a year for nothing?' faithful follower replied, 'if i'm not in jail, i would be with the king when the tribal group caught you.'
so the moral of the story, be optimistic.
so for being unhappy with myself, for being angry with the preparation for the trip, i will say to myself, 'it is good'
1) i shall blast my ears with music to calm down
2) yesterday i heard a story:
african king loves to hunt. his faithful follower will always say 'it is good'. one day, king got accidentally shot himself and his last finger was gone. faithful follower, 'it is good'. this infuriates the king. 'how can this be good when i lost my little finger?' so the king threw his follower into the jail.
one year later, king goes hunting again, this time, without his faithful follower. He was caught by this tribal group who are cannibals. just as they are about to eat him, they stopped. king asked why. they said, 'u not complete. you lost your little finger, we do not eat incomplete human beings.' so they release the king.
the king was so happy and immediately went to the jail to release his faithful follower. the king apologised and asked how the follower feel for having been in the jail for a year. faithful follower, 'it is good' the king feels puzzled, 'how can this be good when u sat in jail for a year for nothing?' faithful follower replied, 'if i'm not in jail, i would be with the king when the tribal group caught you.'
so the moral of the story, be optimistic.
so for being unhappy with myself, for being angry with the preparation for the trip, i will say to myself, 'it is good'
warning: this post is not a good example of how you should feel about yourself, do not imitate
i just want to get it out... i'm very unhappy with myself. feel so fat, cannot fit into some of my clothes. hate myself for eating and eating. feel like taking a knife to slash the stomach and remove all the oil and fats.
then it does not help that the preparation for vietnam trip is not smooth going.
i so hate myself today.
maybe at the end of the morning, i would have talked myself out of this feeling. maybe at the end of the morning, i could have settled most of the stuff for vietnam trip.
BUT AT THIS MOMENT, I FEEL SO DAMN LOUSY!
ok, got it off, remember, dun imitate.
i just want to get it out... i'm very unhappy with myself. feel so fat, cannot fit into some of my clothes. hate myself for eating and eating. feel like taking a knife to slash the stomach and remove all the oil and fats.
then it does not help that the preparation for vietnam trip is not smooth going.
i so hate myself today.
maybe at the end of the morning, i would have talked myself out of this feeling. maybe at the end of the morning, i could have settled most of the stuff for vietnam trip.
BUT AT THIS MOMENT, I FEEL SO DAMN LOUSY!
ok, got it off, remember, dun imitate.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Sunday, October 26, 2008
on friday, it was a night out for me. at about 10 plus, we went to mohd sultan, dbl o had a long queue, so end up in one of the pubs. we ordered a bucket of six bottles. After we finish this, it was about 12 midnite. we felt that something was missing, so we decided to go st james power house.
when we reach there, my first reaction, where got recession? so many people there. i mean this is my first time, i do not know if it was more crowded in the past or not. anyway, went in, listen to music, sway a bit. time paseses fast, it was 3am before we knew it. made our way home.
but i can feel that i'm old already, the next day, i felt so tired. but in the morning, we still had to go to thomson plaza to settle something. omg, thomson plaza is so crowded. we had no parking space. had to park illegally opposite. once we settle that, went to longhouse for lunch. oh my, everything look so good to eat there.
after we came back, went to giant to buy grocery. after that, i was so tired that i think i knocked out immediately once i hit the bed.
in the night, mum and adrian came to visit the children. went out for dinner together.
on sunday, promise to bring the children to swim. we decided to go to tampines swimming pool. we waited until about 3 plus. It was great fun for the children. mabel had fun sliding down. marcus had a great time floating on his back. max had a great time walking around. after swimming, we just wash off and quickly came home to have a good shower. nothing beats the shower at home, so warm and nice.
when we reach there, my first reaction, where got recession? so many people there. i mean this is my first time, i do not know if it was more crowded in the past or not. anyway, went in, listen to music, sway a bit. time paseses fast, it was 3am before we knew it. made our way home.
but i can feel that i'm old already, the next day, i felt so tired. but in the morning, we still had to go to thomson plaza to settle something. omg, thomson plaza is so crowded. we had no parking space. had to park illegally opposite. once we settle that, went to longhouse for lunch. oh my, everything look so good to eat there.
after we came back, went to giant to buy grocery. after that, i was so tired that i think i knocked out immediately once i hit the bed.
in the night, mum and adrian came to visit the children. went out for dinner together.
on sunday, promise to bring the children to swim. we decided to go to tampines swimming pool. we waited until about 3 plus. It was great fun for the children. mabel had fun sliding down. marcus had a great time floating on his back. max had a great time walking around. after swimming, we just wash off and quickly came home to have a good shower. nothing beats the shower at home, so warm and nice.
Friday, October 24, 2008
wah, stocks keep going down, but my weight does not!! same as max, everytime he sees me on the weighing scale, he would be the next to stand on top of it. Then he take a look, he would always say '5'. i would correct him and say '10'. last nite, he stood on the scale, then he say '20'. (i think he must have learnt it from mabel) give me a shock.
He loves to sing! alphabet song, twinkle little star, row row row your boat. and of course some barney songs.
yesterday was revising with marcus and mabel, i really had no patience when it comes to teaching my own children. anyway, we survived through the 3 hours of revision. just wish them the best for today's paper.
am currently working hard to ask schools if they have vacancies to take in marcus and mabel for 2009. so far, tried 1 sch, but they say no vacancies. so now in the process of asking another sch. i wouldn't want to pull strings as a teacher, that would be my last resort.
today is friday, but i'm not particularly happy, i dunno why. something seems to be bothering me, bogging me, but i couldn't quite pinpoint it. family? work? love? marriage? children?
just let me go through the motions for today without any hiccups due to my distraction
He loves to sing! alphabet song, twinkle little star, row row row your boat. and of course some barney songs.
yesterday was revising with marcus and mabel, i really had no patience when it comes to teaching my own children. anyway, we survived through the 3 hours of revision. just wish them the best for today's paper.
am currently working hard to ask schools if they have vacancies to take in marcus and mabel for 2009. so far, tried 1 sch, but they say no vacancies. so now in the process of asking another sch. i wouldn't want to pull strings as a teacher, that would be my last resort.
today is friday, but i'm not particularly happy, i dunno why. something seems to be bothering me, bogging me, but i couldn't quite pinpoint it. family? work? love? marriage? children?
just let me go through the motions for today without any hiccups due to my distraction
Thursday, October 23, 2008
i've watched 'money no enough 2' many times, at least 4 times. but each time i watch the show, each time i'll cry. especially when it comes to the part where the grandma was left at old folks home. or when i see how the grandma was treated, passing from one house to the other house. when she was left just outside the toilet in the kitchen. sometimes i wonder if there is really anybody who would leave their mother to sleep in the kitchen????
but the part that really got me crying was when the grandma was in ICU and when the grandma died. It reminds me of my own grandma when she passed away in March.
She was admitted to ICU too, so i can identify with all those tubes sticking out from the mouth. grandma went into ICU on friday morning. i remembered rushing down to the hospital to see her before going to fetch marcus and mabel from school. she could still see and probably recognise. i should have called her. when i left ICU on friday, i remembered there was one family who was crying very sadly.
on sat morning, received call to ask us to hurry down to the hospital. it was about 8in the morning. to cut long story short, bascially grandma's system is shutting down already. the doc is only injecting some medication to keep her heart alive as we were all waiting for one uncle to rush back from china. He could only reach Sg at night. so at intervals, we will all go in to see her. i remember massaging grandma's hands and toes. her toes were already cold and some parts, blackened already. her hands were very cold too.
at about 2am, it was decided that the doctor will not inject anymore. Grandma's system would just shut down gradually. For the next 15 mins, it was hell watching grandma fade away. It was and is still painful, thinking about it now. i remembered the bubbling of those yellowish substance at the mouth. That was why when i watch the movie, the make up artiste did a good job in portraying a person who juz died. but i dun remember grandma's face so pale.
anyway, as we keep talking to grandma, our cries got louder and louder, just like the familiy i saw on friday. we could see the heartbeat gradually dropping.
i remembered when we visited her in the hospital, she mentioned about the bed who was diagionally opposite her. She mentioned to us that the old woman is waiting for death. and my hubby asked grandma a funny question. he asked her if she was afraid of death or not. she smiled and said no. she sounded very confident in her answer. should have probed further to ask her why she was not afraid.
anyway, all it's over. i still do not have the courage to organise the funeral photos.
but the part that really got me crying was when the grandma was in ICU and when the grandma died. It reminds me of my own grandma when she passed away in March.
She was admitted to ICU too, so i can identify with all those tubes sticking out from the mouth. grandma went into ICU on friday morning. i remembered rushing down to the hospital to see her before going to fetch marcus and mabel from school. she could still see and probably recognise. i should have called her. when i left ICU on friday, i remembered there was one family who was crying very sadly.
on sat morning, received call to ask us to hurry down to the hospital. it was about 8in the morning. to cut long story short, bascially grandma's system is shutting down already. the doc is only injecting some medication to keep her heart alive as we were all waiting for one uncle to rush back from china. He could only reach Sg at night. so at intervals, we will all go in to see her. i remember massaging grandma's hands and toes. her toes were already cold and some parts, blackened already. her hands were very cold too.
at about 2am, it was decided that the doctor will not inject anymore. Grandma's system would just shut down gradually. For the next 15 mins, it was hell watching grandma fade away. It was and is still painful, thinking about it now. i remembered the bubbling of those yellowish substance at the mouth. That was why when i watch the movie, the make up artiste did a good job in portraying a person who juz died. but i dun remember grandma's face so pale.
anyway, as we keep talking to grandma, our cries got louder and louder, just like the familiy i saw on friday. we could see the heartbeat gradually dropping.
i remembered when we visited her in the hospital, she mentioned about the bed who was diagionally opposite her. She mentioned to us that the old woman is waiting for death. and my hubby asked grandma a funny question. he asked her if she was afraid of death or not. she smiled and said no. she sounded very confident in her answer. should have probed further to ask her why she was not afraid.
anyway, all it's over. i still do not have the courage to organise the funeral photos.
STI index
it fell through 1900 points!! hooray. ok, not gloating but had a side bet that it will fall below 1900 points. some feel that it would not, the index would be supported. anyway, i won the bet... my prize? a cup of kopi O.
now, we will increase the bet more. 1500 points or lower by end of Mar '09. Sakae Sushi lunch
now, we will increase the bet more. 1500 points or lower by end of Mar '09. Sakae Sushi lunch
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
i had inspiration to blog, but the moment i stepped into this stuffy room, all my inspiration evaporated. ok, let me try to blog about happy things...
1) had a wonderful weekend with kids. although friday is not feeling well, managed to have a fun filled weekend. saturday, brought the kids out for breakfast (which strangely enough, i can't seem to recall where we've brought them). lunch too, went to amoy street hawker centre, not many people, but we all manage to have a good bowl of fish noodle, which later inspire me to cook on sunday. then went on to peninsular plaza (maid wants to remit money back) and then to brewerkz.
on sunday, it was swimming day. but in the morning, the family came down to wash the car first. a good workout exercise for the whole family though the children didn't help much. then for lunch, cooked fish noodle for them. then it was swimming time in the afternoon. It was actually raining before we started. we seize the opportunity to get down to swim once the rain stopped. The kids have fun with their cousins. then as we were contemplating how to tell the kids that we should stop swimming and clean up, it started to rain again! just in time.
cleaned up and we all went for steamboat dinner. the kids had fun cooking their hot dog and even max was eating a lot.
2) you can say that max is quite toilet trained. he only needs a diaper at night before sleep. he could also say that he wants to pang sai. but have to watch his body language. because if he wants to urine, he would say 'sh sh a lot'. if he wants to pang sai, he would hold on to his backside and say 'sh sh'
even when we go out, he would say he wants to urine and even if he has a tummy ache. you just have to know where is the toilet and bring him to the toilet fast.
3) marcus and mabel exams are coming. don't force them a lot and keep asking them to do assessment. one day one assessment paper for english and maths. achieve that, you can have your freedom. we had all been through that. who could sit at the table for 6hours doing work non stop? even adults need a break, even adults know how to work hard and play hard. children are the same. plus i've been through those assessment books days, i never really liked it and had phobia of it. hence i also do not want to develop in them the phobia of doing assessment. As long as you have done an assessment paper and the results is satisfactory, acceptable, go ahead and have fun. childhood only occurs once, lose it, and it can never be the same again.
4) my mood swing is directly proportionate to my mil's mood swing. since last thursday, she had been down again. She was ok in the week of mabel's birthday, luckily. Since last thursday, she had been vomitting and complaining that backache, headache, tummyache etc.
i'm sorry, not that i'm heartless. but i think life still has to go on as usual. there are already 2 maids serving you, massaging for you, i know the pain is unbearable. we had asked the doctor to give you a stronger painkiller. the drug is a controlled drug, no subsidy and it's very expensive.
so that affects my mood swing because at home, it's quite tense. lukily i could retreat into my room.
anyway, that is all i want to say about family.
1) had a wonderful weekend with kids. although friday is not feeling well, managed to have a fun filled weekend. saturday, brought the kids out for breakfast (which strangely enough, i can't seem to recall where we've brought them). lunch too, went to amoy street hawker centre, not many people, but we all manage to have a good bowl of fish noodle, which later inspire me to cook on sunday. then went on to peninsular plaza (maid wants to remit money back) and then to brewerkz.
on sunday, it was swimming day. but in the morning, the family came down to wash the car first. a good workout exercise for the whole family though the children didn't help much. then for lunch, cooked fish noodle for them. then it was swimming time in the afternoon. It was actually raining before we started. we seize the opportunity to get down to swim once the rain stopped. The kids have fun with their cousins. then as we were contemplating how to tell the kids that we should stop swimming and clean up, it started to rain again! just in time.
cleaned up and we all went for steamboat dinner. the kids had fun cooking their hot dog and even max was eating a lot.
2) you can say that max is quite toilet trained. he only needs a diaper at night before sleep. he could also say that he wants to pang sai. but have to watch his body language. because if he wants to urine, he would say 'sh sh a lot'. if he wants to pang sai, he would hold on to his backside and say 'sh sh'
even when we go out, he would say he wants to urine and even if he has a tummy ache. you just have to know where is the toilet and bring him to the toilet fast.
3) marcus and mabel exams are coming. don't force them a lot and keep asking them to do assessment. one day one assessment paper for english and maths. achieve that, you can have your freedom. we had all been through that. who could sit at the table for 6hours doing work non stop? even adults need a break, even adults know how to work hard and play hard. children are the same. plus i've been through those assessment books days, i never really liked it and had phobia of it. hence i also do not want to develop in them the phobia of doing assessment. As long as you have done an assessment paper and the results is satisfactory, acceptable, go ahead and have fun. childhood only occurs once, lose it, and it can never be the same again.
4) my mood swing is directly proportionate to my mil's mood swing. since last thursday, she had been down again. She was ok in the week of mabel's birthday, luckily. Since last thursday, she had been vomitting and complaining that backache, headache, tummyache etc.
i'm sorry, not that i'm heartless. but i think life still has to go on as usual. there are already 2 maids serving you, massaging for you, i know the pain is unbearable. we had asked the doctor to give you a stronger painkiller. the drug is a controlled drug, no subsidy and it's very expensive.
so that affects my mood swing because at home, it's quite tense. lukily i could retreat into my room.
anyway, that is all i want to say about family.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
i miss my 3M
dunno why, looking at my children's pictures now, i suddenly miss them. how i wish time would tick faster so that i can be home to be with them. i have finished my marking, so today i shall devote all my time to them.
also having a splitting headache now.
also having a splitting headache now.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
on my religion
ok, let me clear the air. on my religion, nothing to hide and i hope i will not offend anyone with my post, it's just my personal thoughts.
i was a christian. ok, some may say, once baptized, always a christian. my mother's side family, all are christian. my mum brought me to church when i was young, am baptized when i was 8. was active in church during my teens, up to A levels. My teenage years were my most devout time. i played the piano for service, i went to many services and church camps.
but once i'm out working in the society, i've began to see the hypocritism of it all. plainly put it, some christians were not good witness of God, probably including myself, esp in church and family members. (i shall not elaborate on the incidents with family members who are so called christians. it disgust me even to mention about it)
so by and by, i stopped going to church. then it became i believe in myself. i believe that in times when you are facing difficulties, yes, you can pray to God for strength, but He will not solve the crisis for you, you will still have to face the challenge yourself and solve the crisis yourself. When you got no money, you had to humble yourself to ask people if they can lend or not, no one can help you. He will not drop the money from above.
so there you have it, my religion story. i shall not comment further. whether i'm now a free thinker, a buddhist, a christian, i dun care. I only care that now i do what is right and what keeps my conscience clear.
i was a christian. ok, some may say, once baptized, always a christian. my mother's side family, all are christian. my mum brought me to church when i was young, am baptized when i was 8. was active in church during my teens, up to A levels. My teenage years were my most devout time. i played the piano for service, i went to many services and church camps.
but once i'm out working in the society, i've began to see the hypocritism of it all. plainly put it, some christians were not good witness of God, probably including myself, esp in church and family members. (i shall not elaborate on the incidents with family members who are so called christians. it disgust me even to mention about it)
so by and by, i stopped going to church. then it became i believe in myself. i believe that in times when you are facing difficulties, yes, you can pray to God for strength, but He will not solve the crisis for you, you will still have to face the challenge yourself and solve the crisis yourself. When you got no money, you had to humble yourself to ask people if they can lend or not, no one can help you. He will not drop the money from above.
so there you have it, my religion story. i shall not comment further. whether i'm now a free thinker, a buddhist, a christian, i dun care. I only care that now i do what is right and what keeps my conscience clear.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
my thoughts for the day
1) stocks are crazy!!! one day, they can record the greatest loss, then one day they can record the greatest gain. what is next?
2) had this numb numb feeling at my fingers for the past 2 days. very scared i got stroke.
3) suddenly like got so many admin things to do, especially after the marking, cause it's the year end, lots of review and planning to be done for next year. ok, got to put on my thinking cap.... and start to strategise for next year!!!
4) jay chou's new album is out tomorrow!!!
1) stocks are crazy!!! one day, they can record the greatest loss, then one day they can record the greatest gain. what is next?
2) had this numb numb feeling at my fingers for the past 2 days. very scared i got stroke.
3) suddenly like got so many admin things to do, especially after the marking, cause it's the year end, lots of review and planning to be done for next year. ok, got to put on my thinking cap.... and start to strategise for next year!!!
4) jay chou's new album is out tomorrow!!!
Monday, October 13, 2008
my pledge to my 3 children
I've never felt so intense with marcus or mabel before. but max makes me feel a lot. just put down the phone and was talking to him.
max:mummy,mummy!
me: yes?
max: where you?
me: mummy work
max: mummy work har?
me: yes mummy work, wait mummy come back
max: ok. mummy, mummy, raining
me: yes, raining
max: mummy, mummy
me: yes?
max: mummy work har?
me: yes, wait mummy come back
max: ok. bye
max changed me a lot. he makes me prioritise my work and want to go home early to see the children. he makes me want to spend more time with the children. he makes me want to have more children. he makes me want to spend quality time with the children. he enriches my life.
ok, maybe i do kiss him a little bit more, but when i hug him, i also make sure i hug marcus and mabel.
i almost had to give max up, but he was back and i promise that i will love him with all my life and heart.
my wish for my 3 children: all of you are the best thing that had happened to me. in my life, i will provide so that you will be not be hungry. i will coach so that you will be able to handle life's challenges next time. i will love so that you feel loved and grow up happily in the love. remember, next time, no matter what difficulties you face, always remember home where you can seek refuge and support. this is mummy's pledge/oath to you.
max:mummy,mummy!
me: yes?
max: where you?
me: mummy work
max: mummy work har?
me: yes mummy work, wait mummy come back
max: ok. mummy, mummy, raining
me: yes, raining
max: mummy, mummy
me: yes?
max: mummy work har?
me: yes, wait mummy come back
max: ok. bye
max changed me a lot. he makes me prioritise my work and want to go home early to see the children. he makes me want to spend more time with the children. he makes me want to have more children. he makes me want to spend quality time with the children. he enriches my life.
ok, maybe i do kiss him a little bit more, but when i hug him, i also make sure i hug marcus and mabel.
i almost had to give max up, but he was back and i promise that i will love him with all my life and heart.
my wish for my 3 children: all of you are the best thing that had happened to me. in my life, i will provide so that you will be not be hungry. i will coach so that you will be able to handle life's challenges next time. i will love so that you feel loved and grow up happily in the love. remember, next time, no matter what difficulties you face, always remember home where you can seek refuge and support. this is mummy's pledge/oath to you.
mabe's birthday celebration at chalet
hmmm, ok, i'll load the pictures once i get hold of the photos.
let's see, the description first.
fri - checked in at around 4. then get ready the various things for BBQ. chalet is at east coast. accomodation, so so, can be greatly improved.
had to place the bbq pit near some lights, as the lighting is rather poor. so how to see if the food is cooked or not? lots of food for lots of people. then cut birthday cake at 9 plus. then guests start to leave slowly. mabel asked for permission to open her presents.
children slept at around 11 plus, we continued to drink until 2 plus (oh yah, ser, haven't pay you for the blue label yet) then went to sleep. wake up at 6 plus, the air con is very cold.
sat - woke up at 7am. too cold. got 2 coupons for breakfast. went for breakfast. we started at 7.30am. we were out of the cafe by 7.50am. cycled to macdonalds to buy breakfast for the children and coffee. after they had breakfast, we all went to the beach to play with sand. this part of east coast, the sand is much softer. the kids had a great time playing with sand. they had their pants wet while they tried to scoop water. the water looks so refreshing. so we all walked down to the sea. we were totally wet. all five of us. it was very new to the children. they have never really been in the sea before and they enjoyed swashing up and down with the waves.
after we go back, it's vege out time in the chalet because the children are waiting for their cousins to come and then go swimming together. so in the afternoon at about 2 plus, we wll went swimming. The children had a great time playing and swimming. they all had floats, especially max, so not afraid that he will fall. we went to the deeper pool and all of the children, including max had a swimming competition. of course, max lose, because all he could do was turn round and round on the spot. He is very funny. he said 'swimming...' then he pose a swimming pose. so cute. my sister in law bought a camera that can take pictures underwater. cool. the older children each had a picture of them taken underwater.
after bathing, we went cycling. by then, the children were so tired from the swimming, they were cycling so slowly. and max was sleeping!!! we hired a bicycle with a front seat for baby. so as we were cycling, suddenly max kept nodding his head, he actually fell asleep. so we had to turn back.
then as the children were back in the chalet, they had a game of monopoly with adrian junior while we busy ourselves with preparing the bbq once again. that nite, everybody went back at 10 plus. so tired today, slept at 12 midnight.
sun - woke at at 7.40am. with the blankets we brought from home, it was so much warmer to tuck underneath the blanket. again, went to the cafe for breakfast, also stayed less than 1/2 hour. went to BK to buy breakfast for them. after the children had their breakfast, it was one last swim before we check out. the children were so happy. after the swim, after bath, we checked out.
i'm glad that mabel and not forgetting marcus and max, had enjoyed themselves. it was very tiring to prepare for the chalet. do you know we brought so many things to the chalet (food and clothings and kettle and children's milk and bbq things) it looks like we shifting house like that. the chalet itself was tiring too becos the programme for the children is packed closely together. but it was a great bonding time with the children at night and they are considered good and well behaved. they could sleep anywhere, not cranky.
after we reached home, we just want to have a good meal. so we went to brewerkz to eat. the children, needless to say, ate the ice-cream and brownie. only drank 1 glass as was too tired and full. on the way back home, all of us were sleeping in the car. poor dear dear had to drive and i think max snored!
after we reached home, all of us immediately hit the bed and took a nap. It was a fruitful and packed weekend. which explains why now i have to keep marking because i didn't do any marking at all during the weekend. so i'll be ending now.
let's see, the description first.
fri - checked in at around 4. then get ready the various things for BBQ. chalet is at east coast. accomodation, so so, can be greatly improved.
had to place the bbq pit near some lights, as the lighting is rather poor. so how to see if the food is cooked or not? lots of food for lots of people. then cut birthday cake at 9 plus. then guests start to leave slowly. mabel asked for permission to open her presents.
children slept at around 11 plus, we continued to drink until 2 plus (oh yah, ser, haven't pay you for the blue label yet) then went to sleep. wake up at 6 plus, the air con is very cold.
sat - woke up at 7am. too cold. got 2 coupons for breakfast. went for breakfast. we started at 7.30am. we were out of the cafe by 7.50am. cycled to macdonalds to buy breakfast for the children and coffee. after they had breakfast, we all went to the beach to play with sand. this part of east coast, the sand is much softer. the kids had a great time playing with sand. they had their pants wet while they tried to scoop water. the water looks so refreshing. so we all walked down to the sea. we were totally wet. all five of us. it was very new to the children. they have never really been in the sea before and they enjoyed swashing up and down with the waves.
after we go back, it's vege out time in the chalet because the children are waiting for their cousins to come and then go swimming together. so in the afternoon at about 2 plus, we wll went swimming. The children had a great time playing and swimming. they all had floats, especially max, so not afraid that he will fall. we went to the deeper pool and all of the children, including max had a swimming competition. of course, max lose, because all he could do was turn round and round on the spot. He is very funny. he said 'swimming...' then he pose a swimming pose. so cute. my sister in law bought a camera that can take pictures underwater. cool. the older children each had a picture of them taken underwater.
after bathing, we went cycling. by then, the children were so tired from the swimming, they were cycling so slowly. and max was sleeping!!! we hired a bicycle with a front seat for baby. so as we were cycling, suddenly max kept nodding his head, he actually fell asleep. so we had to turn back.
then as the children were back in the chalet, they had a game of monopoly with adrian junior while we busy ourselves with preparing the bbq once again. that nite, everybody went back at 10 plus. so tired today, slept at 12 midnight.
sun - woke at at 7.40am. with the blankets we brought from home, it was so much warmer to tuck underneath the blanket. again, went to the cafe for breakfast, also stayed less than 1/2 hour. went to BK to buy breakfast for them. after the children had their breakfast, it was one last swim before we check out. the children were so happy. after the swim, after bath, we checked out.
i'm glad that mabel and not forgetting marcus and max, had enjoyed themselves. it was very tiring to prepare for the chalet. do you know we brought so many things to the chalet (food and clothings and kettle and children's milk and bbq things) it looks like we shifting house like that. the chalet itself was tiring too becos the programme for the children is packed closely together. but it was a great bonding time with the children at night and they are considered good and well behaved. they could sleep anywhere, not cranky.
after we reached home, we just want to have a good meal. so we went to brewerkz to eat. the children, needless to say, ate the ice-cream and brownie. only drank 1 glass as was too tired and full. on the way back home, all of us were sleeping in the car. poor dear dear had to drive and i think max snored!
after we reached home, all of us immediately hit the bed and took a nap. It was a fruitful and packed weekend. which explains why now i have to keep marking because i didn't do any marking at all during the weekend. so i'll be ending now.
Friday, October 10, 2008
What are my feelings for today?
been excited the past few days and been busy preparing for mabel's birthday the past few days. the reason why we decided to book chalet for her birthday this year is because last year, she celebrated her birthday at a coffeeshop! and marcus had his celebrated at chalet last year. so a bit not balance.
today is mabel's birthday! i think the children are the most excited. as for the adults, while my mil seems to have lightened up these few days as we talked to her about the chalet and she will be chipping in today to help in the preparation of food.
Been to giant to buy food for the BBQ. and 3M has been following us to buy the food items. also been to skp to buy the disposable stuff, 3M also followed. so they have been of some help. (help to carry things)
It is good that marcus has been following us these few days. i was surprised at his willingness to go out. he is usually that kind, no, i'd rather stay at home and play my psp games. these few times have been pleasantly surprised. well, since he wants to go, i allow. He needs to go out and be more street wise.
hope that today will be a fine day, well at least not a rainy evening or rainy night. i think my thoughts above are not very logical and the ideas don't seem to be flowing well. too many distractions and people talking to me.
been excited the past few days and been busy preparing for mabel's birthday the past few days. the reason why we decided to book chalet for her birthday this year is because last year, she celebrated her birthday at a coffeeshop! and marcus had his celebrated at chalet last year. so a bit not balance.
today is mabel's birthday! i think the children are the most excited. as for the adults, while my mil seems to have lightened up these few days as we talked to her about the chalet and she will be chipping in today to help in the preparation of food.
Been to giant to buy food for the BBQ. and 3M has been following us to buy the food items. also been to skp to buy the disposable stuff, 3M also followed. so they have been of some help. (help to carry things)
It is good that marcus has been following us these few days. i was surprised at his willingness to go out. he is usually that kind, no, i'd rather stay at home and play my psp games. these few times have been pleasantly surprised. well, since he wants to go, i allow. He needs to go out and be more street wise.
hope that today will be a fine day, well at least not a rainy evening or rainy night. i think my thoughts above are not very logical and the ideas don't seem to be flowing well. too many distractions and people talking to me.
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
what are my thoughts today?
1) the stock market fell for a consecutive 5th day. now my bet is whether STI index will fall below the 2000 mark.
2) compare and contrast. no, this is not about social studies, dun worry. correct, i teach students to compare and contrast in SBQ. but i hope that they will apply this skill to real life sparingly when they grow up.
was just discussing with a friend. yes, we can compare our past and present, our mistakes and our achievements. but some people just fall into the trap of comparing the wrong things. they compare whose position is higher, compare who is getting paid more, compare the type of vehicles you drive, compare the type of house you live, compare children's marks, compare whose children have how many enrichment classes. this kind of comparing is endless. there will always be someone who is higher, better than you in so many other ways. in the end, you become unhappy and not satisfied because of the endless chasing. You will never be happy.
instead of being envious, instead of complaining, instead of whining, you have a choice. instead of whining that other children get higher marks than your child, have you done any thing to help your child in their work? If you have, your child has done their best, then celebrate their successes, analyse their failures.
i will not comment on material things. i really think it's silly to compare material things. if the person drives a bmw, if the person has a rolex watch, if the person stays in the condo, this is their choice. You can also choose to. so stop comparing material things or equating material possessions to wealth. irks me much when people equate how many maids i have, the type of house i live in to my wealth. irks me, really irks me. stop being so shallow.
3) it also irks me to see luxury cars flounting traffic laws. fine, you are filthy rich, you buy ashton martin or maserati (i can't even spell them, ok, i'm shallow) i know, it's your wish, your choice. but the road belongs to everybody. so wat if you pay a huge amount of road tax? it doesn't mean that you have the right of way, it doesn't mean that you can anyhow illegal park at double yellow lines. does anybody have the LTA toll free line or something like that? i am sure to call LTA to report if i ever see these cars parking in a back alley at shenton way, double yellow line and causing obstruction to the traffic in the back alley! and also please drive safely on the road, the road belongs to everyone, everyone has a responsibility to look out for each other safety on the road. don't drive like you own the road, don't drive like you are a F1 racer. If you are so darn good at racing, go form your own F1team and you can race on Singapore road. But you have to be fast hor, we only have the right for 4 years. don't know where our traffic police all go to? only know how to catch lorry drivers or big truck drivers. these ** drivers who drive fast are equally hazardous.
1) the stock market fell for a consecutive 5th day. now my bet is whether STI index will fall below the 2000 mark.
2) compare and contrast. no, this is not about social studies, dun worry. correct, i teach students to compare and contrast in SBQ. but i hope that they will apply this skill to real life sparingly when they grow up.
was just discussing with a friend. yes, we can compare our past and present, our mistakes and our achievements. but some people just fall into the trap of comparing the wrong things. they compare whose position is higher, compare who is getting paid more, compare the type of vehicles you drive, compare the type of house you live, compare children's marks, compare whose children have how many enrichment classes. this kind of comparing is endless. there will always be someone who is higher, better than you in so many other ways. in the end, you become unhappy and not satisfied because of the endless chasing. You will never be happy.
instead of being envious, instead of complaining, instead of whining, you have a choice. instead of whining that other children get higher marks than your child, have you done any thing to help your child in their work? If you have, your child has done their best, then celebrate their successes, analyse their failures.
i will not comment on material things. i really think it's silly to compare material things. if the person drives a bmw, if the person has a rolex watch, if the person stays in the condo, this is their choice. You can also choose to. so stop comparing material things or equating material possessions to wealth. irks me much when people equate how many maids i have, the type of house i live in to my wealth. irks me, really irks me. stop being so shallow.
3) it also irks me to see luxury cars flounting traffic laws. fine, you are filthy rich, you buy ashton martin or maserati (i can't even spell them, ok, i'm shallow) i know, it's your wish, your choice. but the road belongs to everybody. so wat if you pay a huge amount of road tax? it doesn't mean that you have the right of way, it doesn't mean that you can anyhow illegal park at double yellow lines. does anybody have the LTA toll free line or something like that? i am sure to call LTA to report if i ever see these cars parking in a back alley at shenton way, double yellow line and causing obstruction to the traffic in the back alley! and also please drive safely on the road, the road belongs to everyone, everyone has a responsibility to look out for each other safety on the road. don't drive like you own the road, don't drive like you are a F1 racer. If you are so darn good at racing, go form your own F1team and you can race on Singapore road. But you have to be fast hor, we only have the right for 4 years. don't know where our traffic police all go to? only know how to catch lorry drivers or big truck drivers. these ** drivers who drive fast are equally hazardous.
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
driving on kpe
i like driving along kpe, becos in this tunnel, all vehicles are equalised. whether u are driving a lorry, big truck, van, car, picanto, mercedes, volvo, impreza, all have to travel at 70km/h. i love that.
by right, if everyone is driving at 70, then all should be kept at equal distance. but sometimes, u will see this car in the rear mirror, getting closer and closer to you. you know this person is not following the rule.
my thoughts for today:
yet another person has committed suicide by jumping off the block. this time it is a male, chinese, suspected age 40, i think the area is somewhere in the west. can't remember exactly which housing estate. so sad, why are so many people jumping off? why do they think of their life so cheaply? what is so difficult that they must die? will it solve their problem? what about those they left behind? the problem is not solved, you just pass on your problem to your loved ones. isn't that selfish?
by right, if everyone is driving at 70, then all should be kept at equal distance. but sometimes, u will see this car in the rear mirror, getting closer and closer to you. you know this person is not following the rule.
my thoughts for today:
yet another person has committed suicide by jumping off the block. this time it is a male, chinese, suspected age 40, i think the area is somewhere in the west. can't remember exactly which housing estate. so sad, why are so many people jumping off? why do they think of their life so cheaply? what is so difficult that they must die? will it solve their problem? what about those they left behind? the problem is not solved, you just pass on your problem to your loved ones. isn't that selfish?
Monday, October 06, 2008
Sunday, October 05, 2008
NB, friday night go changi village, want to eat the gong gong, the whole market and food centre is under some renovation works.
then at first, cross the road to the nearby pub. NB, all filipina serving drinks. had a jug and we left. then next to it, there is this coffeeshop, had some sambal sotong before we left.
the next morning, need to go ikea to buy some things, thought of having the salmon at ikea. NB, breakfast is served from 930am onwards. we were there at 830. so end up at giant eating breakfast, not that the food is exactly delicious, but what to do.
anyway, took the chance to check out the prices of food for Mabel's bbq. so roughly, we have an idea what to buy. This coming week will be a hectic week for us, have to prepare for mabel's chalet.
you know that feeling when you looking forward to go some place to eat something, then it's not open or somehow you didn't manage to eat, that feeling of disappointment is hard to describe. you feel disappointed, angry and really, the wtf feeling. but i guess we learn to manage the feelings, find alternative. this round didn't manage to eat, can always come back another week. yes, i'll be back to changi village for the gong gong.
then at first, cross the road to the nearby pub. NB, all filipina serving drinks. had a jug and we left. then next to it, there is this coffeeshop, had some sambal sotong before we left.
the next morning, need to go ikea to buy some things, thought of having the salmon at ikea. NB, breakfast is served from 930am onwards. we were there at 830. so end up at giant eating breakfast, not that the food is exactly delicious, but what to do.
anyway, took the chance to check out the prices of food for Mabel's bbq. so roughly, we have an idea what to buy. This coming week will be a hectic week for us, have to prepare for mabel's chalet.
you know that feeling when you looking forward to go some place to eat something, then it's not open or somehow you didn't manage to eat, that feeling of disappointment is hard to describe. you feel disappointed, angry and really, the wtf feeling. but i guess we learn to manage the feelings, find alternative. this round didn't manage to eat, can always come back another week. yes, i'll be back to changi village for the gong gong.
mum and dad
yesterday night, mum celebrated her 60th birthday! when my sis upload the pics, then i'll 'steal' from her and upload the pics. and i noticed, her camera is full of max pictures! ok, back to mum. wah, 60 long years. must have not been easy for her. she has been working hard all these years, never stop working. wonder when she wants to retire. i'm lucky that at this age, she is still very mobile and independent. next time when i grow old, i also want to be independent so as not to trouble my children. maybe go on long vacation. We have a plan. we may want to go retire on an australian farm....
anyway, mum looks happy. for almost 25 years, ever since she and dad separated, she has brought us up. well, i can't say that it's perfect, but for all these years, she did not remarry. with her 3 grand children at her side, she looks contented.
and my dad called me juz now. surprise surprise. hmm, i was suppose to call him and tell him about mabel's birthday, so since he called, i might as well tell him. he called to find out about you, ser. wonder where he heard that you have resigned from KK and like asking from me a confirmation. told you he's against you working for them. his rationale, it's advisable not to have the whole family working in one company unless you have a share in it. If you are working for the company, might as well work outside. anyway, i've also updated him about your current situation.
anyway, mum looks happy. for almost 25 years, ever since she and dad separated, she has brought us up. well, i can't say that it's perfect, but for all these years, she did not remarry. with her 3 grand children at her side, she looks contented.
and my dad called me juz now. surprise surprise. hmm, i was suppose to call him and tell him about mabel's birthday, so since he called, i might as well tell him. he called to find out about you, ser. wonder where he heard that you have resigned from KK and like asking from me a confirmation. told you he's against you working for them. his rationale, it's advisable not to have the whole family working in one company unless you have a share in it. If you are working for the company, might as well work outside. anyway, i've also updated him about your current situation.
Wednesday, October 01, 2008
the holiday came and go like that. today marks the beginning of the last quarter. soon, the new year will come and everything will start all over again. just random thoughts.
1) sometimes we may not marry the person we love most. but we make the best out of it, especially if children are involved. so is it love? is it gratitude? is it duty? i must be getting the anniversary jitters. grateful? happy? glad? frigtening? i don't know. my mum's side family, all of her sisters were either single or like my mum, divorced. but it must be wonderful to have someone who is willing to take your nonsense, to embrace your weakness and be with you all this while.
2)NB, electricity prices go up again!!
3)F1 comes to singapore does not mean that motorists can drive like them. so many times this few days i see on the road, cars driving like speedy gonzalas like that, totally ignoring the safety of other motorists.
4) the white dotted line means to give way before turning out to the main road. the white dotted line doesn't mean to turn out when you see a car approaching. i have met so many cars like that. the most serious one and one which almost involve an accident is a p plate and a big truck. luckily, there was no car on the other lanes, the big truck had e braked and the truck started to skid, the driver release the brake and turn into the outer 2 lanes to avoid this car. the car was so stunned that it stopped after it turned out. lagi jia lat. imagine the big truck, if it could not avoid the car, the car would be smashed into pieces and the p plate driver could have died.
sigh, tml got to wake up early. so happy to have a holiday today. max is fiddling with my hair as i'm typing this post now. crazy boy. then hugging me from behind. and he is so smelly, he pang sai and still denies. 'no, i never pang sai.' i'm going to change his diapers, otherwise i'll faint.
1) sometimes we may not marry the person we love most. but we make the best out of it, especially if children are involved. so is it love? is it gratitude? is it duty? i must be getting the anniversary jitters. grateful? happy? glad? frigtening? i don't know. my mum's side family, all of her sisters were either single or like my mum, divorced. but it must be wonderful to have someone who is willing to take your nonsense, to embrace your weakness and be with you all this while.
2)NB, electricity prices go up again!!
3)F1 comes to singapore does not mean that motorists can drive like them. so many times this few days i see on the road, cars driving like speedy gonzalas like that, totally ignoring the safety of other motorists.
4) the white dotted line means to give way before turning out to the main road. the white dotted line doesn't mean to turn out when you see a car approaching. i have met so many cars like that. the most serious one and one which almost involve an accident is a p plate and a big truck. luckily, there was no car on the other lanes, the big truck had e braked and the truck started to skid, the driver release the brake and turn into the outer 2 lanes to avoid this car. the car was so stunned that it stopped after it turned out. lagi jia lat. imagine the big truck, if it could not avoid the car, the car would be smashed into pieces and the p plate driver could have died.
sigh, tml got to wake up early. so happy to have a holiday today. max is fiddling with my hair as i'm typing this post now. crazy boy. then hugging me from behind. and he is so smelly, he pang sai and still denies. 'no, i never pang sai.' i'm going to change his diapers, otherwise i'll faint.
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