4 more mins, y am I feeling so scared now? Arghhhhh
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Friday, December 31, 2010
did i mention i went for an interview for the job of an editor?
it was a good experience, though a totally new field.
They are willing to offer me the job, but by monday, i have to give an answer.
But yes, i'm glad i took the first step to step out of my comfort zone. It, alone, is an achievement for me. I'm proud of myself. I never knew i would be able to do another job and go for another job, after having stayed on for so long. So it just proves something, I'm able to walk out.
it was a good experience, though a totally new field.
They are willing to offer me the job, but by monday, i have to give an answer.
But yes, i'm glad i took the first step to step out of my comfort zone. It, alone, is an achievement for me. I'm proud of myself. I never knew i would be able to do another job and go for another job, after having stayed on for so long. So it just proves something, I'm able to walk out.
childhood memories
i think i shall name some of the more important childhood memories i have, for fun, since this is the last day of the year:
1) my parents' divorce
2) i fell down from the upper level of the playground. There were many children, mainly 2 groups, playing catching. so i was the catcher for my group of friends. it just so happen that the other group was also playing catching. so what happened was we were all on the upper level and i was on this side with the other group. my friends were with the other group's catcher on the other side. so the other group's catcher made his first move, so the people here all panicked and ran, as they ran, i think someone pushed me and i was quite close to the edge, so i lost my balance and i fell over the ledge.
Stephanie remembered she saw that i was heading towards the ground with my head first, but somehow, i turned and when i landed, i landed on my buttocks and sat on the floor. i suffered many cuts on my shin, but no major concussion. the cuts were made by some rusty nails on this make shift ladder that was leaning against the playground. did i see a doctor? i can't remember.
3) stephanie and me, due to our carelessness, serena had a really deep cut on her lips, hee, i shall not elaborate, ser should know the rocking horse incident, we mentioned it to you before
4) oh yes, how could i forget this? i poured cooking oil into the fish tank!!!! i was looked after by my neighbour, i was so bored that i poured cooking oil into the fish tank and needless to say, the fish died!!!!! I got a real whack from my mum, kneel on the wooden washing board leh. this is only 1 of the naughty things i did in the house....
and can you imagine, last year, marcus' science exam paper, one question illustrate some naughty children pour oil into a fish tank and the question asks students to describe how the fish respond to this change. I was like..... "eh, marcus, your mummy did this long ago when i was a young kid." so embarrassing.
5) my father only caned me once. This same neighbour, I stole their money. It wasn't much, some coins, occasionally a dollar note. Why? to buy potato chips!
there are more, but i guess these five are the more important ones that is important. that is semantically not correct. I should say, these five are the more important ones that etched a deeper memory in me. wa, so powderful english, ha.
1) my parents' divorce
2) i fell down from the upper level of the playground. There were many children, mainly 2 groups, playing catching. so i was the catcher for my group of friends. it just so happen that the other group was also playing catching. so what happened was we were all on the upper level and i was on this side with the other group. my friends were with the other group's catcher on the other side. so the other group's catcher made his first move, so the people here all panicked and ran, as they ran, i think someone pushed me and i was quite close to the edge, so i lost my balance and i fell over the ledge.
Stephanie remembered she saw that i was heading towards the ground with my head first, but somehow, i turned and when i landed, i landed on my buttocks and sat on the floor. i suffered many cuts on my shin, but no major concussion. the cuts were made by some rusty nails on this make shift ladder that was leaning against the playground. did i see a doctor? i can't remember.
3) stephanie and me, due to our carelessness, serena had a really deep cut on her lips, hee, i shall not elaborate, ser should know the rocking horse incident, we mentioned it to you before
4) oh yes, how could i forget this? i poured cooking oil into the fish tank!!!! i was looked after by my neighbour, i was so bored that i poured cooking oil into the fish tank and needless to say, the fish died!!!!! I got a real whack from my mum, kneel on the wooden washing board leh. this is only 1 of the naughty things i did in the house....
and can you imagine, last year, marcus' science exam paper, one question illustrate some naughty children pour oil into a fish tank and the question asks students to describe how the fish respond to this change. I was like..... "eh, marcus, your mummy did this long ago when i was a young kid." so embarrassing.
5) my father only caned me once. This same neighbour, I stole their money. It wasn't much, some coins, occasionally a dollar note. Why? to buy potato chips!
there are more, but i guess these five are the more important ones that is important. that is semantically not correct. I should say, these five are the more important ones that etched a deeper memory in me. wa, so powderful english, ha.
no, this is not going to be a resolution kind of posting, actually i don't really like resolution, mainly because i'm afraid of committing. I've learnt that when you are not ready, don't commit.
yes, i'm wondering why am i here blogging on the last day of the year 2010 and waking up at 4 plus and can't get back to sleep. if it's in the holidays, maybe i can easily fall back to sleep but holidays are ending soon, there are many things on your mind and when there are many things on your mind, you just can't sleep. must be lao gong's alarm clock that woke not only him but me up as well.
i just feel that i'm at this cross road in life, mid mid life crisis??? if i can recall, 10 years ago, around this time, i also had a major conflict with hubby. the reason why i remembered clearly because 10 years ago, i gave birth to Marcus, and there were many issues of even trying to look after him myself, so that's how the conflict came about.
(i suspect this is going to be a long post)
10 years later, major conflict again, this time, it's not about children, it's about family. have we ever had argument because of our differences? so far, maybe not, maybe minor ones, but it was quickly settled, because we could change ourselves to improve the situation. hey, come to think of it, we are quite compatible mah...... back to the topic, this year it is major, because we cannot change the external factors that cause the problem.
my thoughts are very random now.... i know when people read this, people will say, if cannot change the external factors, then accept it. accept, 6 letters, easy to say, easy to spell, difficult to carry it out. accept has this connotation of tolerating, to accept what you cannot change comprises of tolerate. tolerate has a negative connotation as compared to embrace. so maybe i should embrace the fact. but then again, maybe i'm not willing to embrace.
brought me back to something, people, family members, always say that i'm thoughtful lah, blah blah blah. i'm not that great nor that saint. Shit, i suddenly thought of this: is this God's way of calling me back to Him?
back to topic and summarise, as i was saying: at this cross road of relationship with hubby, make or break? maybe some people are right, when things go wrong, i always go back to myself and ask what have i done wrong? so here i am, asking myself what have i done wrong, what have i not done enough?
brings back memories that is very painful.... i have never really confronted the effects of a divorce on the children. i'm questioning and questioning myself, what were the effects? i'm not putting the blame on my parents, just trying to find a relationship between my character and my childhood experiences.
do i fear losing the one i love? yes, i do, i lost my father, i didn't have a choice, so there is this fear of losing someone i love, so maybe that's why i need assurance.
that's also probably why i change myself, i question myself when things go wrong... maybe from young, i have this subtle thinking that if i were better, would daddy have left? did i not do enough to stop him from leaving?
having an absent male figure as i grow up, maybe it has taught me to be more independent.
one important thing i realise: when a couple still choose to be together in a marriage, it means that there is still love. yes, maybe you have to search further, but i'm sure it is there, because from my parents' experience, i can now answer why my father left. there was no more love, no more hope in the marriage. I, his child, am not even enough to make him feel that he has a duty to stay on in the marriage. he has really lost hope.
yes, maybe there are marriages out there which continued on because of duty. but i question, are they happy? why make themselves so unhappy, clinging on? My dad really has the courage, i wondered where he got the courage to leave. I mean, i cannot imagining myself coming home one day, packing my clothes and leaving the house.
actually i almost did last friday, i took my handbag and in my t shirt and shorts, i wanted to walk out.... but marcus and mabel stopped me.
so back to questioning my own marriage: is there still love in the marriage? or am i still here because of children? i do not see any future nor hope at the other end, so now is plan b or plan c, yes, plan c was conceived yesterday. i have no answer even when the year is ending, though i hope to resolve it, i guess again, things just continue on because it's just my nature to think for this person, think for that person and in the end, sigh. maybe my resolution for next year is to spare a thought for myself.
yes, i'm wondering why am i here blogging on the last day of the year 2010 and waking up at 4 plus and can't get back to sleep. if it's in the holidays, maybe i can easily fall back to sleep but holidays are ending soon, there are many things on your mind and when there are many things on your mind, you just can't sleep. must be lao gong's alarm clock that woke not only him but me up as well.
i just feel that i'm at this cross road in life, mid mid life crisis??? if i can recall, 10 years ago, around this time, i also had a major conflict with hubby. the reason why i remembered clearly because 10 years ago, i gave birth to Marcus, and there were many issues of even trying to look after him myself, so that's how the conflict came about.
(i suspect this is going to be a long post)
10 years later, major conflict again, this time, it's not about children, it's about family. have we ever had argument because of our differences? so far, maybe not, maybe minor ones, but it was quickly settled, because we could change ourselves to improve the situation. hey, come to think of it, we are quite compatible mah...... back to the topic, this year it is major, because we cannot change the external factors that cause the problem.
my thoughts are very random now.... i know when people read this, people will say, if cannot change the external factors, then accept it. accept, 6 letters, easy to say, easy to spell, difficult to carry it out. accept has this connotation of tolerating, to accept what you cannot change comprises of tolerate. tolerate has a negative connotation as compared to embrace. so maybe i should embrace the fact. but then again, maybe i'm not willing to embrace.
brought me back to something, people, family members, always say that i'm thoughtful lah, blah blah blah. i'm not that great nor that saint. Shit, i suddenly thought of this: is this God's way of calling me back to Him?
back to topic and summarise, as i was saying: at this cross road of relationship with hubby, make or break? maybe some people are right, when things go wrong, i always go back to myself and ask what have i done wrong? so here i am, asking myself what have i done wrong, what have i not done enough?
brings back memories that is very painful.... i have never really confronted the effects of a divorce on the children. i'm questioning and questioning myself, what were the effects? i'm not putting the blame on my parents, just trying to find a relationship between my character and my childhood experiences.
do i fear losing the one i love? yes, i do, i lost my father, i didn't have a choice, so there is this fear of losing someone i love, so maybe that's why i need assurance.
that's also probably why i change myself, i question myself when things go wrong... maybe from young, i have this subtle thinking that if i were better, would daddy have left? did i not do enough to stop him from leaving?
having an absent male figure as i grow up, maybe it has taught me to be more independent.
one important thing i realise: when a couple still choose to be together in a marriage, it means that there is still love. yes, maybe you have to search further, but i'm sure it is there, because from my parents' experience, i can now answer why my father left. there was no more love, no more hope in the marriage. I, his child, am not even enough to make him feel that he has a duty to stay on in the marriage. he has really lost hope.
yes, maybe there are marriages out there which continued on because of duty. but i question, are they happy? why make themselves so unhappy, clinging on? My dad really has the courage, i wondered where he got the courage to leave. I mean, i cannot imagining myself coming home one day, packing my clothes and leaving the house.
actually i almost did last friday, i took my handbag and in my t shirt and shorts, i wanted to walk out.... but marcus and mabel stopped me.
so back to questioning my own marriage: is there still love in the marriage? or am i still here because of children? i do not see any future nor hope at the other end, so now is plan b or plan c, yes, plan c was conceived yesterday. i have no answer even when the year is ending, though i hope to resolve it, i guess again, things just continue on because it's just my nature to think for this person, think for that person and in the end, sigh. maybe my resolution for next year is to spare a thought for myself.
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Reflection II
What have I accomplished this year?
1) manage to save Marcus' results in 2nd half of the year. He actually has good progress award! Applause, please.
2) started to love cooking! Recipes, trying out the dishes, thanks to all my 'guinea pigs'.
3) manage to do some changes to the interior of house.
4) personal wise, I think I've thought through many things
5) Mabel has developed. In what sense, maybe character, EQ.
6) max, he has grown. Definitely grown.
What do I want next year?
Just want children to grow up happily, my sincere wish for them.
They should not be burdened with adult's problems.
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1) manage to save Marcus' results in 2nd half of the year. He actually has good progress award! Applause, please.
2) started to love cooking! Recipes, trying out the dishes, thanks to all my 'guinea pigs'.
3) manage to do some changes to the interior of house.
4) personal wise, I think I've thought through many things
5) Mabel has developed. In what sense, maybe character, EQ.
6) max, he has grown. Definitely grown.
What do I want next year?
Just want children to grow up happily, my sincere wish for them.
They should not be burdened with adult's problems.
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Reflection
One more day, end of 2010. What is your feeling?
I used to feel sad when I was younger, because a new year means new school term. I had this feeling before, on 31 dec, in the last hour, I wanted so much to hold on to the time and never let it go.
There was also a time when i look forward to the new year because the year was so bad.
There was also a time when there was no feelings.
So are you feeling sad or happy that the new year is coming?
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I used to feel sad when I was younger, because a new year means new school term. I had this feeling before, on 31 dec, in the last hour, I wanted so much to hold on to the time and never let it go.
There was also a time when i look forward to the new year because the year was so bad.
There was also a time when there was no feelings.
So are you feeling sad or happy that the new year is coming?
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I will post more pics of the kitchen tomorrow, before 2010 ends. later, when i'm bored, i'll be reflecting and posting about 2010.
yup, as can be seen, pierce ears is taken off the wish list. have finally brought myself and mabel to pierce ears, i just need a little push to get it done.
Mabel didn't cry at first when her first ear was pierced. AFter the other ear was pierced, and the lady asked her to look into the mirror the final product, she started crying. i think she needed to cry out her fears. probably, she's crying and in her heart saying, mummy, u finally brought me to pierce my ears after mentioning about it for a year!!!!!!!! maybe she was crying out her frustration with me.
i don't think i need pics for this, right? crazy to take pics of your own ears.....
yup, as can be seen, pierce ears is taken off the wish list. have finally brought myself and mabel to pierce ears, i just need a little push to get it done.
Mabel didn't cry at first when her first ear was pierced. AFter the other ear was pierced, and the lady asked her to look into the mirror the final product, she started crying. i think she needed to cry out her fears. probably, she's crying and in her heart saying, mummy, u finally brought me to pierce my ears after mentioning about it for a year!!!!!!!! maybe she was crying out her frustration with me.
i don't think i need pics for this, right? crazy to take pics of your own ears.....
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Saturday, December 25, 2010
A letter to my children
Dear Marcus Mabel and max
I'm sorry that u have to hear daddy and mummy quarrel.
When people live together, when they interact, there are bound to have conflict, then it leads to quarrel.
But when daddy and mummy quarrel, that does not mean that it's your fault. It doesn't mean that we don't love u.
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I'm sorry that u have to hear daddy and mummy quarrel.
When people live together, when they interact, there are bound to have conflict, then it leads to quarrel.
But when daddy and mummy quarrel, that does not mean that it's your fault. It doesn't mean that we don't love u.
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Friday, December 24, 2010
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
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Brought the boys for haircut in the morning.
Then we had breakfast, and after changing, we went to
White sands to buy school bag for Mabel, $80
Century square, school shoes for all three of them $117.
I bought myself a pair of wedges, $23
Then kiddy palace, more shoes, ben 10 ones, for marcus and max, socks for max. $116
Now we are having lunch. Can u imagine, 1 adult and 3 children, we ordered so much food, $77 and we were so hungry. We decubitus can finish the food.
We ordered a bowl of noodles for Marcus, a bowl of noodles for Mabel and max, I ordered soup. Shared food are 10 pcs of dumplings, fried wanton, drunken chicken, fried prawn pancake. And we are still eating.
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last night, i didn't have the courage to speak with lao gong, reason being because mil's health seems to be deteriorating and it seems not so appropriate to bring it up now.
but i know things are building up and if i do not bring it up sooner, my volcano will erupt and impacts will be devastating. and this morning, things have escalated a bit and i was a little fed up, i already blurted out to mabel, one of these days, if i cannot take it any longer, i'll pack my luggage and go. like now, i'm trying to beat the lunch crowd to bring my children to shopping malls to do some get-to-school shopping, but no one is at home. i can't just leave the contractors at home.
sorry, kids, sometimes the reality of life. no, lao gong doesn't read my blog, i wonder if he bothers. yes, children read my blog and i'm apologising first.
who created the stupid marriage vows?
I, ____, take you, ____, to be my (husband/wife). I promise to be true to you in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health. I will love you and honor you all the days of my life. I, ____, take you, ____, for my lawful (husband/wife), to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, until death do us part.
it is so easy to say for better or for worse, in good times and bad times. does this person who created the marriage vows, marrying someone is not just marrying the person, many baggages come with the person. what if, for example, the person you marry, turns out to be a compulsive gambler and abuse you? for better or for worse....
i'm no saint, so i salute those people who can really stick to their marriage vows.
but i know things are building up and if i do not bring it up sooner, my volcano will erupt and impacts will be devastating. and this morning, things have escalated a bit and i was a little fed up, i already blurted out to mabel, one of these days, if i cannot take it any longer, i'll pack my luggage and go. like now, i'm trying to beat the lunch crowd to bring my children to shopping malls to do some get-to-school shopping, but no one is at home. i can't just leave the contractors at home.
sorry, kids, sometimes the reality of life. no, lao gong doesn't read my blog, i wonder if he bothers. yes, children read my blog and i'm apologising first.
who created the stupid marriage vows?
I, ____, take you, ____, to be my (husband/wife). I promise to be true to you in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health. I will love you and honor you all the days of my life. I, ____, take you, ____, for my lawful (husband/wife), to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, until death do us part.
it is so easy to say for better or for worse, in good times and bad times. does this person who created the marriage vows, marrying someone is not just marrying the person, many baggages come with the person. what if, for example, the person you marry, turns out to be a compulsive gambler and abuse you? for better or for worse....
i'm no saint, so i salute those people who can really stick to their marriage vows.
Monday, December 20, 2010
This morning, I had a sudden urge to clean up my room. As I was cleaning, this quote I saw struck me
I can't decide where I want to go until I know where I am.
I guess this spells correctly my sentiments. I want to go, to leave, but until I know where I want to go, where I am, then I'll leave, I'll go.
As I was cleaning the furniture, I really hate photos frames wif pictures. I'm not one who likes to fill my house with family photos, not because I don't love them, but it collects dust and occupies space!
Ok, back to chores
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I can't decide where I want to go until I know where I am.
I guess this spells correctly my sentiments. I want to go, to leave, but until I know where I want to go, where I am, then I'll leave, I'll go.
As I was cleaning the furniture, I really hate photos frames wif pictures. I'm not one who likes to fill my house with family photos, not because I don't love them, but it collects dust and occupies space!
Ok, back to chores
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The three siblings have been spending a lot of time together lately. Past few nights this week, max has been going to their rooms to sleep. Sometimes they play and laugh so loudly late into the night, I have to go over to ask them to sleep.
Hope they are happy together.
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Sunday, December 19, 2010
3 years, how did I do it these 3 years? I dunno. I dunno how long I can hold on. How did I become what I am today, behave in this way, I also dunno.
What I'm doing now, am I doing the right thing or I'm wrong, I also dunno.
I only have this strong desire to leave, this is the 2nd time this month.
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What I'm doing now, am I doing the right thing or I'm wrong, I also dunno.
I only have this strong desire to leave, this is the 2nd time this month.
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Saturday, December 18, 2010
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Aftermath of partying
I must admit, I'm old. My legs and feet are aching like mad now! Please, chop them off.
It was Mabel and max that SMS me at 12 midnite to ask me if I'm on my way home. Then they called me at 1230am. Mmmm, I will remember this. Next time, don't let mummy call you at 12 plus and ask you if you are on your way home.
This morning, max asked me a lot of questions, aiyo, he is such a nag.
I think I need a few months to recuperate from this party nite out.
In the meantime, chop off my legs!
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It was Mabel and max that SMS me at 12 midnite to ask me if I'm on my way home. Then they called me at 1230am. Mmmm, I will remember this. Next time, don't let mummy call you at 12 plus and ask you if you are on your way home.
This morning, max asked me a lot of questions, aiyo, he is such a nag.
I think I need a few months to recuperate from this party nite out.
In the meantime, chop off my legs!
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Monday, December 13, 2010
max woke up at 530am to pee. after that, he woke up at 600am and told me he wanted to pang sai. i was ok, as i was sitting in the toilet, i was actually half asleep, waiting for him to finish the business. In the end, he told me, there is no pang sai, but he did fart a lot. so washed hands and we both went back to sleep.
last night, i watched Twilight on HBO till 1 am plus. at first, i saw twilight and i recall the hooha when the movie premiered. I thought it was another one of those teen movies, or worse still vampire movie. It was about a vampire, right? so i decided to put my prejudice aside and watched the show.
It was actually a rather interesting love story. although what strongly attracts the male, who is the vampire, to the girl and what strongly attracts the girl to the vampire was not very clear.
i was attracted to the love between the girl and the vampire. The things they say to each other, the intense feeling they have for each other. she wanted to be a vampire to be together, forever with him. but the vampire didn't want her to suffer by becoming a vampire even though they can be together.
there's definitely a sequel to this movie, i'll definitely catch the sequel.
It was actually a rather interesting love story. although what strongly attracts the male, who is the vampire, to the girl and what strongly attracts the girl to the vampire was not very clear.
i was attracted to the love between the girl and the vampire. The things they say to each other, the intense feeling they have for each other. she wanted to be a vampire to be together, forever with him. but the vampire didn't want her to suffer by becoming a vampire even though they can be together.
there's definitely a sequel to this movie, i'll definitely catch the sequel.
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Thursday, December 09, 2010
i stupid hor, still go back to work... i just cannot stay home, i'll go crazy, nagging at the children. on tuesday, lao gong's taxi broke down, so he was at home. so he heard me,
brush teeth, already?
taken your breakfast already?
bathe already?
aiyo, no quarreling, if you continue to quarrel, no more games.
etc etc etc
so on tuesday, went to buy taps for the kitchen, check out fridge and bought a new vacuum cleaner. have i said these before? why does it sound familiar?
brush teeth, already?
taken your breakfast already?
bathe already?
aiyo, no quarreling, if you continue to quarrel, no more games.
etc etc etc
so on tuesday, went to buy taps for the kitchen, check out fridge and bought a new vacuum cleaner. have i said these before? why does it sound familiar?
on Saturday, actually brought a friend, Uncle Victor from Sydney for breakfast and lunch. He was a good host when we were in Sydney so now that he is in sg, we have to return back the favour.
so in the morning, went to the block to fetch him, but this blur mr tan, wrote down the wrong block number. Luckily, he has our handphone number.
we brought him to jalan kayu to eat roti prata, followed by a ride at Singapore Flyer. Then for lunch, we brought him to have taiwan porridge at toa payoh.
It was a good catch up time.
so in the morning, went to the block to fetch him, but this blur mr tan, wrote down the wrong block number. Luckily, he has our handphone number.
we brought him to jalan kayu to eat roti prata, followed by a ride at Singapore Flyer. Then for lunch, we brought him to have taiwan porridge at toa payoh.
It was a good catch up time.
Tuesday, December 07, 2010
Yesterday brought children to library to borrow books and marcus spend the whole day reading his books.
Today, went to buy water tapa fir the kitchen sink and balcony sink. After that, went to courts to look for fridge. After taking down some notes, went to see vacuum cleaner. By then, I'm dead tired. When I look at again there are so many choices, I headache. In the end, quickly made a choice, I just want to go home and rest.
Sometimes I hate having too many choices, I usually zoom in on two choices, weigh the pros and cons and make a decision. Short and sweet
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Today, went to buy water tapa fir the kitchen sink and balcony sink. After that, went to courts to look for fridge. After taking down some notes, went to see vacuum cleaner. By then, I'm dead tired. When I look at again there are so many choices, I headache. In the end, quickly made a choice, I just want to go home and rest.
Sometimes I hate having too many choices, I usually zoom in on two choices, weigh the pros and cons and make a decision. Short and sweet
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Friday, December 03, 2010
i was just thinking, for ladies, we don't mind spending money on a good bra, because it's the closest to our skin and because it supports one of our most important asset, the breast! ok, why i say important asset is because it gives ladies our self confidence.
i didn't say it's THE most important asset, i just say it's one of our most important asset. ha... cover cacang (backside).....
ok, so today's topic will be on bra. We all know that there are different types of bra, different colours. Some of our breasts just cannot take certain types of bra. Trust me, it's true. I do not look good wearing those half cup bras.
btw, i have one more do nots when it comes to wearing bra. I hate it when the sponge is spoilt, then when you wear the bra, you can see the 'dent'. and you get upset because it's one of your favourite bra.
Long ago, in Bangkok, i bought one bra that has many ways of tying it and wearing it, i tell you, it was good at that time of wearing, but in the end, i only wore it once. It's still in my cupboard. after so many years, i'm still clueless as to how to really make full use of it.
ok, that's 3 points i've mentioned above. One more point, you know, sometimes, how your bra strap shows a little when you are wearing your clothes? mmm, i think it's perfectly ok. don't feel paiseh about it, just keep a straight face and push back the strap. No need to have a paiseh face. actually come to think of it, if you are braless, then there is no worries of bra strap showing!!!! Good idea???
okok, let's talk about favourite bra.
Besides the comfort level it gives us,
when it comes to your favourite bra, does it go by
1) colour: are there some coloured bras that you must have? like nuke, white, black?
2) type: are there some bras you must have? full cup, half cup, deep v? strapless?
3)material: are there some that you must have? lacy, cotton?
ok, to answer my own questions above, ( i will post the questions in the poll, do put in your answers, dun worry, your identity is secret)
first, i do have bras that i only wear for working and some on weekends, reason being, for working wise, the bra needs to be comfortable. so i get very upset when there was a week, domestic helper forgot to wash up the bra and it really spoils my mood for the day.
1) out of the three colours, i do have one or two of each colour, but my favourite, black, reason, it fits with most clothing. but if i want to be more adventurous, red. but red is quite limited in terms of once you wear the red one, it limits your outing covering in terms of colour.
2) as said, i mostly go for full cups or 3/4 cups due to the natural endowment i have. probably a push up one.
http://odyb.net/discoveries/29-common-types-of-bra-designs-and-their-functions/
wa, check out this website for the different types of bra.
since there are so many types of bra, i'll not ask it in the poll.
3) for comfort wise, cotton. but actually i prefer lacy ones. uh ummm, sorry to mention this on my blog, but lacy ones kind of gives me a turn on.
ok, poll time. i think i will set the setting so that you can click on more than one option.
i didn't say it's THE most important asset, i just say it's one of our most important asset. ha... cover cacang (backside).....
ok, so today's topic will be on bra. We all know that there are different types of bra, different colours. Some of our breasts just cannot take certain types of bra. Trust me, it's true. I do not look good wearing those half cup bras.
btw, i have one more do nots when it comes to wearing bra. I hate it when the sponge is spoilt, then when you wear the bra, you can see the 'dent'. and you get upset because it's one of your favourite bra.
Long ago, in Bangkok, i bought one bra that has many ways of tying it and wearing it, i tell you, it was good at that time of wearing, but in the end, i only wore it once. It's still in my cupboard. after so many years, i'm still clueless as to how to really make full use of it.
ok, that's 3 points i've mentioned above. One more point, you know, sometimes, how your bra strap shows a little when you are wearing your clothes? mmm, i think it's perfectly ok. don't feel paiseh about it, just keep a straight face and push back the strap. No need to have a paiseh face. actually come to think of it, if you are braless, then there is no worries of bra strap showing!!!! Good idea???
okok, let's talk about favourite bra.
Besides the comfort level it gives us,
when it comes to your favourite bra, does it go by
1) colour: are there some coloured bras that you must have? like nuke, white, black?
2) type: are there some bras you must have? full cup, half cup, deep v? strapless?
3)material: are there some that you must have? lacy, cotton?
ok, to answer my own questions above, ( i will post the questions in the poll, do put in your answers, dun worry, your identity is secret)
first, i do have bras that i only wear for working and some on weekends, reason being, for working wise, the bra needs to be comfortable. so i get very upset when there was a week, domestic helper forgot to wash up the bra and it really spoils my mood for the day.
1) out of the three colours, i do have one or two of each colour, but my favourite, black, reason, it fits with most clothing. but if i want to be more adventurous, red. but red is quite limited in terms of once you wear the red one, it limits your outing covering in terms of colour.
2) as said, i mostly go for full cups or 3/4 cups due to the natural endowment i have. probably a push up one.
http://odyb.net/discoveries/29-common-types-of-bra-designs-and-their-functions/
wa, check out this website for the different types of bra.
since there are so many types of bra, i'll not ask it in the poll.
3) for comfort wise, cotton. but actually i prefer lacy ones. uh ummm, sorry to mention this on my blog, but lacy ones kind of gives me a turn on.
ok, poll time. i think i will set the setting so that you can click on more than one option.
Thursday, December 02, 2010
Tonight brought children to watch walking with dinosaurs.
The males in the family enjoyed it. Marcus was marveled by it, he said he will blog.
But it was quite real.
At the end of the show, I wonder why nobody shouted 'encore!'??? Ha, I wonder what it would be like for the dinosaurs to do an encore.
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The males in the family enjoyed it. Marcus was marveled by it, he said he will blog.
But it was quite real.
At the end of the show, I wonder why nobody shouted 'encore!'??? Ha, I wonder what it would be like for the dinosaurs to do an encore.
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Tuesday, November 30, 2010
BB outing at the zoo
on one of the saturdays, we followed the marcus' CCA, BB to the zoo for an outing.
Bintan Lagoon holiday in September
Ok, this was a September holiday trip to Bintan Lagoon:
the children:
the adults:
The room, the activities, the food:
and look who i met on bintan island??? gd friend, mj kaki, jie mei:
the children:
the adults:
The room, the activities, the food:
and look who i met on bintan island??? gd friend, mj kaki, jie mei:
Mabel's Birthday
Food prepared on Mabel's birthday: and who is the 'cooker'?
Marcus did this interesting notice and pasted it on the wall outside our door:
Birthday cake:
opening of presents:
Marcus did this interesting notice and pasted it on the wall outside our door:
Birthday cake:
opening of presents:
Marcus' Birthday
Ok, i think i owe these pics.
Marcus opening his presents
Marcus cutting his birthday cake
by the way, the cake was bought from icing room, it was decorated by max, lao gong and me.
Marcus opening his presents
Marcus cutting his birthday cake
by the way, the cake was bought from icing room, it was decorated by max, lao gong and me.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Random thoughts: suppose to b getting ready for work
1) I'm confirm a workaholic. Give me a day rest at home, yup, I feel restless. So I'm better off to work. Yet I dun want to work too hard. What a moron I am. But I need work to keep my mind going
2) before holidays 62 kg, I tell u, this is more predictable than the stock market, it will definitely increase after holidays. Anyone wants to make a bet??? Increase to???? I'm betting on 65kg.
Ok, focus, I'm late.
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1) I'm confirm a workaholic. Give me a day rest at home, yup, I feel restless. So I'm better off to work. Yet I dun want to work too hard. What a moron I am. But I need work to keep my mind going
2) before holidays 62 kg, I tell u, this is more predictable than the stock market, it will definitely increase after holidays. Anyone wants to make a bet??? Increase to???? I'm betting on 65kg.
Ok, focus, I'm late.
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Sunday, November 21, 2010
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Thanks for the compliment that I look nice with my new perm.
I used to be afraid of perming my hair because I was afraid that I look too old, hair is too fluffy. I've always go for ling straight hair, thinking that this is the ideal hairstyle for me, most men like gals with long straight hair, I even went to rebond my hair once.
I took the plunge last dec to try digital perm, so far, friends have said that I look different. The perms have been straighten out over the year, so last sat, I went to perm again. Yup, the look is refreshing. But I still think I look mature in perm hair, guess it doesn't matter, I am old anyway. I just have to feel young at heart, that's all it matters.
Sorry folks, no pic of my new hairstyle, I dun tAke pics of myself.
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I used to be afraid of perming my hair because I was afraid that I look too old, hair is too fluffy. I've always go for ling straight hair, thinking that this is the ideal hairstyle for me, most men like gals with long straight hair, I even went to rebond my hair once.
I took the plunge last dec to try digital perm, so far, friends have said that I look different. The perms have been straighten out over the year, so last sat, I went to perm again. Yup, the look is refreshing. But I still think I look mature in perm hair, guess it doesn't matter, I am old anyway. I just have to feel young at heart, that's all it matters.
Sorry folks, no pic of my new hairstyle, I dun tAke pics of myself.
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Friday, November 19, 2010
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Today has been an ordinary day with the kids.
Brought them to the library to borrow books. Then bringing them to swim, they met up with their cousins there. But it was a short swim because the sky turned dark.
After that we went brewerkz for lunch. The adults played a game with the children, I think other customers and the waiters an waitresses there were looking at what game we were playing.
Then in the evening, went to amk, the children have not seen their grandma and yee yee for two weeks.
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Brought them to the library to borrow books. Then bringing them to swim, they met up with their cousins there. But it was a short swim because the sky turned dark.
After that we went brewerkz for lunch. The adults played a game with the children, I think other customers and the waiters an waitresses there were looking at what game we were playing.
Then in the evening, went to amk, the children have not seen their grandma and yee yee for two weeks.
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Friday, November 12, 2010
bikins, speedos or boardshorts?
was watching razor tv and there are about 6 parts on this.
so throw out a few questions:
1) for females: do you prefer to wear bikinis, two-piece suit or one-piece suit?
2) would you wear your bikini top as a bra?
3) for males: do you prefer swim trunks or board shorts?
next week, then i'll ask about lingerie.
so throw out a few questions:
1) for females: do you prefer to wear bikinis, two-piece suit or one-piece suit?
2) would you wear your bikini top as a bra?
3) for males: do you prefer swim trunks or board shorts?
next week, then i'll ask about lingerie.
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Review on cup porridge:
saw the advertisement on tv the other day, cup porridge. yesterday at prime supermarket, i managed to see the product. 2 for $2.45, ok, reasonable, bought it and tried.
1) there are some thai words on the packaging
2) smells like porridge, looks like porridge
3) too watery though, but i guess you can control the amount of water you put in
4) salty though
5) for those who have tried instant porridge last time, the one that you still need to cook over a fire, it's quite similar. It is definitely different from the normal porridge. the rice is smaller. i guess you could drink up the whole cup porridge if you want to.
final conclusion: well, it definitely cannot replace your main meal. For women on diet, probably. but not for me, I will definitely feel hungry after say, an hour?? but for a quick meal, say, you do not have the time, it's reasonable to keep you going before you grab something solid.
saw the advertisement on tv the other day, cup porridge. yesterday at prime supermarket, i managed to see the product. 2 for $2.45, ok, reasonable, bought it and tried.
1) there are some thai words on the packaging
2) smells like porridge, looks like porridge
3) too watery though, but i guess you can control the amount of water you put in
4) salty though
5) for those who have tried instant porridge last time, the one that you still need to cook over a fire, it's quite similar. It is definitely different from the normal porridge. the rice is smaller. i guess you could drink up the whole cup porridge if you want to.
final conclusion: well, it definitely cannot replace your main meal. For women on diet, probably. but not for me, I will definitely feel hungry after say, an hour?? but for a quick meal, say, you do not have the time, it's reasonable to keep you going before you grab something solid.
Last night, the ch 8 show had a scene where it frightened max. After that, he dare not come up to the room to sleep. At 3am, he woke up and couldn't sleep. he kept tapping my shoulder and said something. I couldn't hear what he said, to stop him from tapping my shoulder further and to give myself more sleep, i carried him over to our bed and had him sleep in the middle.
i don't feel fully rested. zombie..... maybe some sucking on some fresh blood will make me feel better.
i don't feel fully rested. zombie..... maybe some sucking on some fresh blood will make me feel better.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
That is the thing i like about living in a neighbourhood. When you stay at a place long enough, people know you and remember you, including the people working at the coffeeshop and the market.
This morning went to the wet market to buy some fish for dinner tonight, surprised that the fishmonger still remembers me and remembered that i have not been going to the market for a long time. told him seldom cook hence never go to the market, hmmm, actually fact is, it's cheaper to buy at hypermarket.
I think i've mentioned before, it must be a sign of old age, because in the past, when i lived in potong pasir and punggol, i do not find the people in the neighbourhood as friendly, maybe i was young and didn't socialise with them. But over here, it's kind of different. Maybe over the years, you learn to hone your skills of mingling and socialising.
This morning went to the wet market to buy some fish for dinner tonight, surprised that the fishmonger still remembers me and remembered that i have not been going to the market for a long time. told him seldom cook hence never go to the market, hmmm, actually fact is, it's cheaper to buy at hypermarket.
I think i've mentioned before, it must be a sign of old age, because in the past, when i lived in potong pasir and punggol, i do not find the people in the neighbourhood as friendly, maybe i was young and didn't socialise with them. But over here, it's kind of different. Maybe over the years, you learn to hone your skills of mingling and socialising.
Tuesday, November 09, 2010
Cooked dinner again for children. Love cooking for them. It's nice to see them finish up their food.
Sopia cooked the soup in the afternoon, when I came back, put the mince meat to steam. Soaked some black mushroom. Then while steaming, pluck some Rosemary for the fish, oven cooked the fish aft some seasoning.
Then I quickly wash the vege. After mince meat, I boil the vege. Cut the mushroom. After the vege is boiled, I cooked the mushroom and the gravy for the mushroom.
Last, cook the rice. As the rice is cooking, I bathe.
All in all, 3 dishes, abt 30 mins including preparation and cooking.
Hope the children love the cooking.
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Sopia cooked the soup in the afternoon, when I came back, put the mince meat to steam. Soaked some black mushroom. Then while steaming, pluck some Rosemary for the fish, oven cooked the fish aft some seasoning.
Then I quickly wash the vege. After mince meat, I boil the vege. Cut the mushroom. After the vege is boiled, I cooked the mushroom and the gravy for the mushroom.
Last, cook the rice. As the rice is cooking, I bathe.
All in all, 3 dishes, abt 30 mins including preparation and cooking.
Hope the children love the cooking.
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I am suppose up b shopping for my costume for staff dinner, well, I did. I went straight to the store, but either the cutting is too small only suitable for young people or I'm simply too fat. So didn't buy.
In the end, I bought a yellow bikini and a sundress.
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In the end, I bought a yellow bikini and a sundress.
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Monday, November 08, 2010
Cooked bean sprout as one of the dish for dinner, but it was cooked by Mabel. I just guide her, helping with the seasoning. So she had the first practical lesson.
Chicken drumstick, just throw it into the oven. Soup was actually the children's soup for lunch.
Tired of always eating hor fun or chicken rice for dinner. So decided to cook.
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Chicken drumstick, just throw it into the oven. Soup was actually the children's soup for lunch.
Tired of always eating hor fun or chicken rice for dinner. So decided to cook.
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Sunday, November 07, 2010
Mmmmm, tired... photos take a long time to upload to blogger. so i'll continue the rest this week. For those with facebook account, you can go to Mabel's photos, the photos are uploaded there.
night, tired out... actually i took a nap in the afternoon. After driving range, brought the kids to swim as usual. so i hope they are tired out too.
night, tired out... actually i took a nap in the afternoon. After driving range, brought the kids to swim as usual. so i hope they are tired out too.
Golf driving range
Ok, i realise i've not been uploading the photos. marcus' b-day, mabel's b-day, bintan lagoon.
so one at a time. today brought children to the driving range to practise their swing.
so one at a time. today brought children to the driving range to practise their swing.
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