Wednesday, May 30, 2012

buay tahan liao

Did you say "happy mother day" to your mom or MIL every time that you can remember of???

WHat goes round...will comes round.

If...your answer is "YES" then it is time to tell your 3M what I said.

Above was a comment to my mother's day post.

all this while, i've been refraining from making comments to the comments in my posting. but now, i'm going to let loose a bit.

My silence does not mean that anonymous can keep on commenting on my posts as if you know me well. My blog is a place where i blog my thoughts and feelings. If you don't like what i blog, then leave. by not responding to comments made on my posts, it says that i dun care about what other people think of me. But now apparently, i have to break my silence, because i'm pissed.

If you do not know me well, then dun ask me if i say 'happy mother day' to my mom or mil and tell me things like what goes round will come round.

and to add on to my mother's day post:

i was upset because of the whole hype about mother's day. so it was kind of sad when your children did not do anything special on that day. I don't blame them, because i'm upset that the daddy didn't rally the children to do something on that special day while i actually have in mind to rally the children to do something for their fathers on father's day.

and it doesn't matter if they didn't do something special for me on mother's day. As long as they appreciate me every day, which they do, i'm happy.

yah, enough is enough, i'm tired of this.

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Marcus grew up

Was planning to buy Marcus some pj on sat as his old ones are really not fit for wearing.

Realised there are pj for babies and younger children. But to find pj for a 12 year old is a little bit difficult. So in the end, bought him some plain t shorts and boxers for him to wear as pj.

Marcus grew up already, wear boxers.

Friday, May 25, 2012

no items to wish for

After removing 'marcus to pass chinese' from my wish list, i realised there is nothing on my wish list. and i'm staring blankly as to what next to wish for. found that i've nothing to wish for.

is my life that contented that i've nothing to wish for? well, only those who knows me well will know what i really wish for.
i've removed one item from my wish list. that is for marcus to pass his chinese. After 3 long years, he finally pass his Chinese!!!!! wa!!!!! hope he maintains the standard.

But based on his mid year results, he cannot go anywhere. or should i say he couldn't get into the schools he aim to go. He got only A C C C, A for English.

Disappointed with his science results though, he should do much better in science.

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Unfriend a friend in Facebook

What do u do when your friend Unfriend u in Facebook? Retaliate?

I think my reaction is to rumble here and my life continues to move on.

By unfriending a person, u had made clear how much u weigh this friendship. Yes, there were questions like y did u do that, I would like to ask. But forget it. Because likewise, I'ver no longer put a value to this. It doesn't bother me that I need to find the answer. I do not even want to comment on the action because it doesn't matter anymore.

I've more important people in my life to love, to care.

这个故事终于写完了。

Friday, May 18, 2012

Life is fragile

Reading the Chinese newspaper on the funeral of the taxi driver. The pictures of his children crying as they walk the last journey Heart ache. can cry.
Life is indeed fragile. He was gone in one second.

Life is indeed fragile. Must handle with care. U know the box has this warning? Fragile. Handle with care. Maybe all of us should wear this sign on us to remind ourselves.

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Play pool mini one

Kelvin bought a mini pool table long time ago with Adrian. I was told, of I remember correctly that it was on impulse. Then it was placed in the store room For some time.

Recently children brought it out to play and last night I played with them. It was fun.

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Max so sweet

I was marking furiously last night and Max left me a note on the fridge magnet. So sweet.

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Memories

Last night before I sleep, suddenly recall my mil's last moments. Don't ask me why, just recalled. Tuesday will mark her 100 days of passing.

Recalled how she took care of the family. My hands are trembling as I'm typing. Maybe today is mother's day. I hope I didn't fail her as a dil. We had some misunderstandings and differences. But I really want to thank her on this day for her care, her help. I will always remember how she takes good care of this family, especially how she use her last strength to cook dinner for the family, making sure we have dinner to eat before she goes.

I also recalled my grandma. Been dreaming of her the past few nights. But it's always at the scene of the hospital. It was as if she is well again. Recall her 慈祥 face, her white hair. Recalled my aunties use to say, when I was younger, when she looked after me, I would always help her to go down to buy things. I think her biggest worry for me is that I stopped going to church. I think she never tells me that. But I knew she kept praying for me.

I know I'm finding excuses not to go back to church. I know deep down inside. It's complicated.

Mother's day

My mum is the only one that say happy mother's day to me this morning. Nothing from my children. And WAS a little upset in the morning.

Disappointed with children? Dunno. Maybe there shouldn't be a mother's day at all.

Wednesday, May 09, 2012

Rain

Rain rain go away, little children wants to play.

But rain, if u dun start pouring now, I will, soon.

Weather

Weather is so hot, wish I'm in bikini, by the beach, sipping beer. But just as I was typing this, dark clouds r coming. And thunder!!!!!!
Weather changes fast, just like my temperament, Hee, this is me. Love and accept me the way that I am

rainbow and dawn

the sky was actually quite beautiful as i drove. the light that shines through the darkness. read other people's tweets that some saw rainbow. that would be nice too.

driving towards the light that brightens up the dark sky, it should give people hope. the hope that there is light after the tunnel, the hope that there is rainbow after the rain. it should brightens or at least lift up my mood.

tried looking at sunflower, but moodiness remains.

mood

i remember that facebook usd to have (or still have) this mood meter, mood indicator. so how is your mood today? how is my mood today? can't go on with the post. pause...........

rain

last night i tried looking for the moon from the balcony, can't see any moon, obstructed. THis morning the thunder and rain splattering on my windows woke me up. rain, sigh. saw the lightning and heard the thunder, more sigh.

max was also awoken by the thunder and lightning, carried him to bed, cuddled him and patted him to sleep. just when i was about to fall back to sleep again, the alarm clock rang! no choice, reluctantly woke up.

Luckily, the rain stopped in time for everyone to get to school.

Tuesday, May 08, 2012

Moody

Woke up late this morning. Had two sleepless nights. Needless to say, extremely moody today.

Saturday, May 05, 2012

Public holiday

Yeah, tell me about it. I kind of dislike public holiday. It's like just because it is public holiday, kind of like expect more.

Si bei sian.

Friday, May 04, 2012

Life

做人真的很辛苦。为什么呢?叹息。我可以不要做人吗?