Happy teachers' day

My class gave me another surprise! They came to give me the handmade flowers and a box of chocolate handmade by farizan.

Thank you very much and I'm so touched. Really gonna miss this lot after u graduate. Sob sob.

so sad by the sudden death

suddenly, read from tweets, an ex-student, passed away. he's only 19 yrs old.

This is so sudden, life is so...... unpredictable.

was there regrets? what about his friends and family members? do they have any regrets?

it suddenly just dawn on me.... i can't go on.... i need to time out and recollect my emotions.

peace in cemetery

Sorry grandma, woke u up so early in the morning.

I do not know why I drove here to see you, maybe I just needed a listening ear.

The cemetery did give me some solace. Quiet, peaceful. Not that it has helped me solve any problems, just that I can really cry my heart out.

I have done all I can, but this time, I'm going to lose it all. Looking at grandma, from the Christian point of view, I know why God is taking away my most precious thing in my life. But deep inside my heart, I know I will not give up. Sorry God.

Looking at ah ma, i remember people say, aft death, a person is at a happy place, well again. Well, I dun wish to be in that happy place, just let me die. Better than now, like a zombie and yet still have to put up a front.

Highly tensed

Past week was highly stress and it was taking a toll on me this week. Was glad to have completed a big bulk of marking last week, otherwise it would be worse.

Yesterday when I got home, I did bring out a math revision paper for Marcus to do, just that I didn't write it down as for Mabel, I wrote it down because her was from certain pages of the assessment books.

So when I went home, saw Marcus reading, asked him if he had finish the maths. He said I didn't assign him. That's when I erupted. How could it be I didn't assign him any work when his maths prelims is on the following day? Yes, I admitted I forgot to bring out the paper.

Then Marcus just continued reading. So at that point of time, I gave up. Since he not worried, y should I worry for him and get so worked up?

I didn't have dinner with them at the table. I just carried a bowl of soup tote room and closed the door. Drank my soup and started working in my own stuff.

Managed to complete two work stuff. By then it was 8 plus. Just stayed in the room an watch tv. Didn't settle them to sleep at 10. Basically, just myself and iPhone. That's all. I dun feel like caring, or temporarily sun want to care about the children.

Even this morning, didn't have the motivation to wake up on time. Usually, when I fetch them to school, when they alight, I would say bye Mabel, bye Marcus. Today I juz said a general bye.

I dunno if I'm disappointed with my ch or disappointed with myself. Sometimes, at a point in life, u feel disappointed, rejected in life. U feel that u were not in the top form like we used to be. Is it a cycle of life? It's like a ferris wheel. Whatever at the top must come down, similarly whatever at the bottom, will go up. It just takes time.

Short week

Everybody is happy and excited that this week is a short week. Everyone except me.

I was looking forward to it. But no longer, at this point of time.

My eagerness has killed everything. I now dread the week. Cannot turn back the clock. Can forward it?

Perseverance

With only 4 hours of sleep and it was not total rest. I woke up almost every hour because of the pain in my arms, I know my body is tired. I just want to see how much I can push my body today, how far it can go. Can I persevere?

Emotional

I think I'm an emotional person. Or should I say, emotional when it come to watching movie.

Recently watched this china production movie, of the old era. Wasn't expecting much from the movie, but one part really got me and I started crying.

Some good movies that really touch my heart, I can talk about it for day's. This is something man might not understand and think that woman are crazy. My dad would think this way.

Cheaper beer?

So with Thaibev buying 40% stake in ABP (or is it APB), are we expecting cheaper Chang beer or singha beer in the near future?